~a Whole DAY!!~~

Today it was a damn long day,but imagine what i did the first thing i woke up?online..sigh...its really is getting into me already,can hardly resist the temptation since its like,so convenient..anyway,it was not so smooth-sailing as i was forced emotionally to make a deicision to whether follow my heart to go out with the gang of gals,go Times Square,swimming n The Ship..or folow my mum to Legend Hotel for her annual IU Day.And at last,by hook or bu crook,mum made me go with her to Legend Hotel,so i had to forgo,my beloved friends..haha..i mean,yalar,i can still go out with them next time but this will be the last year i'll be going to my mum's IU Day so..(though it took me half a year to meet my busy form 6 friends..)sigh.But before that,i had to rush in and out to become a driver..what lar,i was out as a drivr for..1hour,sorry Shi Han n Ghai Leong for chatting awhile then got away then chat again..dun get fed up with me ya..sorry..i had no choice....=(

Then,its finally time for me to re-visit the Chinese Museum Restaurant..revisit as in,thats the placei bid goodbye wth my seniors while May Ching n i go like busy as a bee..sigh,now,i'm at the VIP table,being served by that ignorant bossy spiteful manager..wuhahahha..but before that iwas like,the most bored teenager in the Universe!felt so outta place being around youngsters..though i o know some of them but,its because i taught them before!!arrgh,and part of them are friends of my sis..sigh,i'm always known as Pn. Ti's daughter...anyway,sms-ed min Ley and May Ching and they are both like..:"i,m eating sushi""i'm waiting for Pizza"while i was like..."i had no breakfast at all,and i'm stitting here like a sore lone sucker!!"oh yeah,Desa Perdana's principal?like all prinipals,they like to brag about themselves..what is this man,a Soviet-of-Prncipals ruling that all principals must brag bout their,er..so call accomplishments?gimme a break lar...sien like hell,and i was like,checking my handphone every 1 second,a good habit since handphone is introduced to this world to help teenagers avoid boring situations like this..HELP!!

At least the performances is enjoyable..they can really dance man these gals,truly impressed..make me feel...i wanna grow thinner!!haha..except for that..i can't help but feel that thios year's IU DAY is by far the worst i've been..its so,unorganised..sien oso lar,maybe its due to my un-calmed emotions and thoughts of regrets like:"i should be swimming with Yann Yoong they all now"..or"i shud be eating steak at The Ship now.."though i know its hopeless wishful thinking but still...can't control it lar..anyhow,the day finally end at 5pm,with t he manager and his sulky assitant Cindy shooing everyone out..goodness..

Anyhow,i was not home yet...sigh,and i start to stink?haha,din bathe whole day ler,have to rush out with mum to Aunts place again to fetch my cousin who wants to er...跳飛機 to Australia...haha..anyhow,we ended up going to the temple my uncle used to visit and to get an amulet for safe keeping and also asked the er...GOD..whether it'll be a safe journey for him,the mianworry is getting past the custom cuz my cousin and hos friends cannot utter a single word of English..respect thier courage to go against the law,but sometimes,we have to do some law-breaking if we are pushed to the end of the road to earn a living..i think..nothing seems to suprise me nowaday..goodness..

And well,its totally unbeliveable but actually these medium stuff sorta works..they can actually make a poem outta your name by..scribbling chinese characters on this fine-sand filled box..with 2 ppl holding a stick like the form of a wishing-bone..and then chant a little and ask a question,then u'll get the poem out which reads ur future or advices..sorta like a chinese version of Ouija board..and there'll be this ppl writing down the characters which suprsingly,form out your name at one line while predicting ur lifes and giving advices and forming poems..kinda hard to explain..i just went for an amulet bt errr,it adviced me not to go anywhere near the lake during winter..funny,it actually knows i like to travel and asked me about it..i was like..whoa..and at that time iwas very clear minded and have no ill thoughts or and thoughts of disbeliving so i got my amulet with little bad news or cautions..(relief)gvng a little benefit of doubt and keeping my believes open,i fear nothing and just decided to heed its every advice..and by now,ouch,this heels are hurting me!!been ages since i last wore this 2947..code for the Vincci sandals where i used to work..its pretty nice i love to admit,but after so long,i got a bit not used to it so..ouch..

Anyhow,gotta stop here..this is a drag..how can this be??this one day blog is even longer then my one week blog...haha..read this emerson!!bet u'll just scroll scroll and say:"why is Kelly wrting this super long blogs again??"haha..c ya and enjoy the boredom..

Say cheezu... 

And there she blows..can anyone guess how old is she?? 

~Birthday week n kohai..~

This week,its all about birthdays..and of cuz the much anticipated kohai..Monday was our dear Usui Sensei's birthday and thus after sacrificing my family reunion with Sin Nguok cousins they all..sigh..i went back early to get ready to go to her house to celebrate..and as usual,trust James to make a plan..promised me we'll go at 8pm,ended upat 8.30pm,now dun go:"malaysian ppl-mar.."me,cuz i dun believe in the typical Malaysian time keeping attitude..even though i've been proven wrong many times that Malaysians DO infact have this kinda thinking...sigh...

Anyway,back to the party...this time around we had a great time,though the begining was,chotto....we were like outta ideas (or so we look like)doing the same "suprise!!" thing again at usui's place,as of with Shimisu's birthday 2 weeks earlier..haha,so lame..anyway,this time,the cake was so delicious i can still remember every smooth texture of it,thanks,Clement,for introducing it..yum yum..and this time around we went there in numbers,7of us to be exact,all cramped in one faithful proton(Saniy's again..)And this time,we had games..A huge THANKS to Jeremy for introducing the Mafia game..it was pretty fun to play with all the sensei..until we had to stop ourselves from continuing cuz its time to leave..me and my bloody mouth,can hardly crap anything seneible,more over in Japanese..only the speed and intonation correct,no use lar..ご めん ね

Anyhow,James came up with this lame idea of presenting Clement his birthday present on that day usui's birthday itself..we were like,huh??thought Clements birthay the next day...he said it was another suprise..cha dao/dao..anyhow,tmr its my friends party too..lotsa place to go,haven't seen them like ages di..hopefully,i'll enjoy myself..

anyway..the kohais are here,and there's a lot of them!!wow,especially the ones from East Malaysia,Kuching alone got like..4? omg..and Chinese is like,half of it di..and handsome ones?they all look like thoses kiddo who have never seen the world yet,ermm,cud be their outfit..ok,its oni thier first week,and they are not around cuz they have orientation so...well,not bad consider the fact Xin Ning,May Ching and mua already visited one of thier rooms til 11.30pm?wohoho..and man,which reminds me,what is this stupid Pengetua doing?can't he see that this batch is by all means,A WHOLE LOT than the previous years?and he was like giving us all the 厳し talk...what lar??damn him..okok,back to the kohai..

There's 2 pretty gals,one who left today,wanted to go become a teacher..hmm..and the other is of mix parentage..too bad i dun hv pics to show,next week..if i can..today got 2nd batch di..and they say got a third in June..kowaii,how many are they going to recruit anyway??well,as for the kohai guys,no comments,its only one week lar duh,barely even know the gals,what more about the guys??ok,promise..more updates soon..about them...haha,gotta go mamak di,stop here first..to be continued...

~DAnce CLass..~

Today,I've been dragged up to go for the annual FREE vegetarian supply at the temple..and i was so groggy having to sleep at 3am the previous day..then the rest of the day was a whird wind,went to Mid Valley,walked the whole afternoon til 1pm..go back and slpet..goodness,i've no idea how tired i was ler..Until i nearly overslept for my dance lesson at the Japanese Club at Taman Seputeh..

Oh yeah,everything happened "smoothly" today..with me,staggering to follow up the dance,lucky Min Ley helped me with some basics on Friday..well,slowy gaining tempo..wuahhaha,pretty tiring,by the first session,'m already sweating like a pig..but it was nice..the only problem is..i have no place to stuff me..ermm,tool..a clatter of wood which made loud clapping sounds..well,it was prety energetic dance and enjoyed every moment of it except the thing is,i'm to short to see what is the instructor doing actually!!arrr...

Well,the real drama began when we had our so-call 5mintes break(it turned out to be 25minuetes)..We were actually given the task to form our own standing position and then James,went o let the other guy from god-knows-where to do it..to him,it'll be less hassle and fair no?but MinLey argued with him cuz to her,why not make our own deicision when we are allowed to do so?anyway,i dun mind a thing so i kept mumed about it..well,eventually the argument heated up and thus,Min Ley went pissed off and sulked the whole time after that..goodness,and i soon found out she's mad at ME!for not standing at her side..goodness..to me,i dun mind where i stand so no point making a big fuss over it,while James already fought to get the chance for us to perform and practise..ah well,be mad at me for all i care..yea,i sound selfish but hey,i look things at 2 sides of the coin,and we gotta give n take no??Anyhow,we finally left at 7.25pm,25 minutes late,and my sister was fuming n the car..for what?>For her precious laksa..selfish brat..can't she understand its jam all the way to Bangsar?goodness..so what difference does it make if i reached 25minutes later?anyhow,i'm finally home...exhausted and keeping tis short..thats all..sayonara..

~SATURDAY~

Today is my friend's birthday..i actually dragged the rest of my day just waiting to go out..did my homework,clear some stuff out cuz i'm shiftng soon..when i was clearing all thenostalgic returned and a pang of..sadness waved over me..how times have changed,i can remember each and every birthday gift i received,friends who are now no longer friends,due to different characteristics and oso different courses choosen...I'm not so sad bout that,but just the reminiscents is too over-whelming..i have no idea where to put all those stuff,its sda to part with them so i shoved it all in the only big plastic container i have,along with my years of letters,in throw any one of them...sounds pretty silly and stuff,but this de-cluttering...really is a difficult task for me as i have no will to part with anything of mine however little time i'll spent time looking at it..hmm,spent 2 hours oni to manage my gifts..shit,and i oni throw..the broken ones..how am i to fit everyting to a small apartment,which room i'll have to share with my sis?too much stuff...great,jst great..
Anyhow,i finally bathed and got ready to attend Phooi Fun's dinner..mum was an angel today letting me used the car..it did indeed came in handy,lots too..FIrst i stopped by Alex's house but after fond that he's "not at home" i left..weird though,i saw him on9 and he told me he'll be at home the whole day..sigh..iwas pissed off,really,but then..so i went over to Phooi Fun's house,half an hour early and then both of us went to the Pizza Hut at Sri Petaling and tried out the new meatball pizza..it was nice and we had a great time..it was fun hanging out with them laughing hysterically,mostly them while i listen..cuz its kinda hard when i dun understand music language..hehe..Then we moved on cuz the night was still young and we dun want her birthday dinner to end so early so we head off to Hai Lo at Citrus Park..
I parked rather far and had to walk like some dungu alone at the dark parking lot,kinda dangerous..thankfully its just a short distance..anyhow,this place is kinda cool though packed,we had watched live singing performance..the 2 uys weregood really,they really sang well,though the cuter one of the lot sounds pretty sarcarstic..we mae a complete fool of oursleves when we wanted to dedicate a song ended up wrting the code for a polyphonic handpone ringtone..hey,its on the table and we have no idea how the system works there so we just main tembak oni lar..well,they really sang well and i soon found myself singing along with them,really enjoyable night..though the drinks..arghhh,damn costly but can expect lar..it was worth it,to experience that kinda atmosphere,not having to try before thats why..seems so adult like..haha..anyway,i soon arrived home at 11.45pm..imagine been out since 6.30pm..mum gonna kill me next thing in the morning,which reminds me..arrghh,wesak day,gotta eat vegetarian food early morning tomorrow and its like..2am now??whoa,have to go IKEA to get new stuff to..my first time there,...sigh...some KL gal i am..

~3 more daysss~

3 more days before our kohai are coming in..actually i'm not about to write much about them cuz..i seriously dunno what will happen then,take them around n stuff?so ironic,the few days before i was so damn physched bout the idea that finally we ARE seniors but then now..hmm...Yesterday actually,i have plenty toblog about but after a nights sleep now..i forgot everything..GREAT!!i'm just diagnosed with STM!!(short term memory..)hmm,wonder where i got that from??*wink*

Well,maybe i shall start of from Wednesday,then maybe i'll remember something soon..haha..anyway,as i have expected,predicted,known...studies,mostly catching up was tough!!!2 days of absents is like 10 years here,i have to work double hard to really fall back on track and that!! is damn tiring..To add to my down n slow momentum,i have exam that week and thus..goodness,i can barely breathe,sleeping everyday at 11.45pm,wake up at 5.50am,surviving the day by drinking thick and bitter Nescaffe..sigh..but the badminton games continued,can't live without them now,haha...well,like i've written in my journal for Pn. Ros,maybe all the reading of books recently helped me to overcome any sign of breaking down,due to my grandmother's death or studies wise,cuz like what 've said too,no use dwell over it and feel sorry for myself for missing lessons...its no use to regret but i can only tell myself to "buck up" and continue chasing and following where i've left..

Yesterday after finishng our exam for the week (which i've made petty mistakes again..shoots!!)we left our homework aside to rest a little and off we ent (m Ley and I)toget some training..haha..i mssed out SUnday's dance class so got lots to catch up..my my,how tough it was,within 2 hours they have learnt lots!!i can barely remember all jus t parts of it..sigh,how am i going to dance well then??dunno lar..So by the time i reached home,i'm so worn out that i can barely stand,but then had to accompany mum to pasar malam for old time sake..dunno why,mum and i tried all the pasar malam food we used to try..long time ago,dunno when it started but often,now,we only buy the sual of Laksa,Tau Fu fa etc..but yst,we tried all the things we dun usually buy but used to,a long longtime ago..haha.a little nostalgic,though i see some familiar faces but they now meant nothing to me already,gone were the days i hope to meet my friends at the pasar malam,care every inch how i would look etc..now?i dun give a damn haha...

Anyway,went for more "brain washing" at night with Alex Kim..seriously though i've known all my life,nothing comes easy and yesterday through the conversations with him,i realise once again that nothing is what it seems to be..WE often look at the glamorous side of others,never once think or figure how much effort have been put in to obtain the so-call "flying colours" etc..Like what he said,"when we want to gain something,for sure we have to forgo some.."how true that was..though its a far cry from what i call a usual "mamak conversation",this one was outta the box and i din regret one bit of it,in a way,it gave me a wake up call,to see that i've been given the chance to study well,to obtain a scholarship and thus must appreciate every part of it..even if it means to study my "health" or "importance" out..well,maybe no one knows what the hell i'm crapping about but then again.i do..

~Goodbye..~

Its Tuesday 2pm..usually i'll be in UTm sighing that break time is over and its time to continue my lessons..but no,i'm home right now after skipping class for 2 days..My dear grandmother passed away on Sunday 4am and thus that morning itself without further ado,we went back that day as fast before u can even say."huh?" as i've said earlier,we already expect her to leave but not so soon,and lucky she left on the 15th of May for the 14th was my father's birthday..imagine how it'll be if u were in my fathers shoes?to be born and the death of his own mum is on the same day..Anyhow,we reached Raub at about noon,the ride took only about 2 hours plus..had a great lunch at this Indian Restaurant which was famous for its curry chicken..weird as it may sound,it looks as if we're back for holiday rather than to attend a funeral..partly must be because of the family drift and issues which caused us not to be so close with my father's side..

As we expected,they asked about the absenty of my sister..and over and over again,we had to explain that she's having a diagnostic exam given by the government and was not supposed to not take part..do they understand?hopefully,though i could almost sense the daggers from my aunts eyes..being around them is not the most comfortable thing in the world though they ARE relatives..reason is,these(don't mean to sound rude) ppl are really materialistic and u can see that all the arguments and drift are all caused and revolves around money,property..sad family..though luckily this time non of it was mentioned..the first day was kinda boring and i regretted going so early,should have taken the bus on monday after lessons,and thus not waste my time regretting not going to the dance class..sigh..syazni just messaged me and told me what a smashing time they had there..and salt to wound?maybe..

The rest of the days,evolved around more eating of vegetarian food(which was good!!),wearing the same shirt and trousers for 3 days around that house,read Along Came A Spider for most of the time and sleep..the only thing i got? With the help of my engineering cousins I managed to get the notebook i want,all with the recommendation of them to buy parts and all...and i managed to see the uncle whom i've never met for the pass 19 years(yes,as long as i've lived...)thats all..we came back at 9.30am today,after the dragging prayers and all..and my grandmother was thus cremented and we soon left with no feelings inside..everything happened like a dream,and i know it is and will be for this might be the last time i'm meeting with my relatives,the hometown back at Raub,the rainbow i saw there etc..for i'll be off to Japan,and anyhow,we don't have anything between us anymore,except maybe,the yearly Ching Ming....

~At Last~

Today,i'm only able to blog cuz tmr my sis wanna on9,having to sit for her exam tmr..arrghh..long story lar..so even though its like..2.30am now,i gotta fulfill my obligation,to write the one n only blog of the week..haha..to begin with errrrmm...i'm currently going nuts about badmnton,playing it everyday since monday..with May Ching,Basyir and ppl like Kamal,Sopie...it never stopped amused me to see Aizat n Halim play,they are extremly good in sport,u name it,they are good at it..i was already impressed with thier ability in sports last year at the sports taikai,n now badminton...whoa..really salute them for their swiftness n quick thinking..i remembered yesterdays game where i paired with Halim while Aizat n Basyir..i was a little worried cuz both of them were really good,but i really have to give the credit to Halim..he assured me not to worry and go ahead n pair with him though i'm the only gal among them..and guess what?we won..15 to 6...haha..really thanks to Halim again for covering my weakness of not having enough energy to hit far n run to the back on time..i usually cover the front,which...i'm still doing fine..haha..poor May Ching aching hard like what i've writen in my previous blogs..thats why i said,pained to the ass,u can hardly sit u know...and its not just some metaphor,its the real thing and it'll haunt u for 3 or more days..imagine walking like some scarecrow around the school..though i can't see any sign of it in May Ching though she "battled" it out with me for 4 consecutive days...bravo May Ching..bravo!!

i really enjoyed playing the games with them,not just because of the exercise(though mainly its about that),its also about the interaction with fellow coursemates..really happy to get to know them better cuz usually in class,everyone is so damn stuck up and concentrate 100% to studies as we all know we are paid to do so..so the oni time we can get to know each other better?sports like this..though i doubt it'll last,when the UTM students are back,.so will the strict rules of,no gals at the boy's court or vice versa...sien..

Anyhow,i just came back from the longest mamak drink i've ever went..3hours!!whoa..haa..Alex Kim is really nice and paid for the drinks we went at different places..Steven's Corner was first and then it started to drizzle so we went to Nathan's corner then..in different cars..haha..well,we chatted so much(he did the talking mostly)so much so much so that even the Uncle sitting next to me started to chat with us..i dun really like Nathan's corner for its forever damn packed and ppl have to crowd at one table..shoots..but this conversation with this50year old uncle is a pleasant one..haha.and as usual,though i little bad of me,i was the one suggested to leave cuz it has been 3 hours since i came out at 9pm..Alex made an effort to pleasantly bid goodbye to the uncle and soon we head back home on our seperate ways..like the previous outing with him,it gave me another perspective of life..of how some ppl really enjoyed a packed n hectic life..for example,he's oni graduated from STPM,got excellent results,all straight 5 A's n he's currently...teaching in school in the morning n giving tuition in the rest of the day..till 9pm..amazing huh?and the dvise i gave him that going to further hie studies in Singapore really needs tonnes n tonnes of hard work and consistency,he seemed undeterred and willingly accept the scholarship to study in NUS for Chemical Engineering..salute him lar..he's willing to spent the rest of his life there too,amidst all the kiasu ppl and treat it like a good challenge in life..how i wish i can have that kind of thinking unlike my ever thinking-too-much-crap head instead of the good-humoured attitude like him..sigh..anyhow..ppl's path converged n diverged and thus,from the path i cross with him,i learnt that sometime,studying is not that hard after all..just gotta enjoy the ride and live it through...

~FRUST!!??!!~

Yeah i'm so damn frust right now i can hardly type..thus making it slower..well,i seriously have lots of temper in me,flaring up at every second since i arrived at home..genes?maybe,cuz my dad is really hot-tempered person too!only today it has burned to it max again..arrghhh...ok calm down,lets begin with what i did today to cool off some anger..

Woke up at 9am,felt bored so on9 til 10.30am before "officially" wake upand brush up..firts up i already need to wipe the inch-thick dust from the ceiling fan..i just wake up ler..fine never mind,i wipe..mm said will bring me ot Legend Hotel for lunch so...help her..well,then my good-ol' sis got some leftover pizza so not wanting to waste it,i gobbled it up and even the half can of Pepsi she left..u guessed right,i got full..yes,nowadays,i have sucessfully shrunk my stomach and now even little solid food can last very long in my stomach..now,dun go about not-healthy-eating-like-this to me..i know what i'm doing and i'm not anaeroxic thank you..just let me be and stop nagging..well,i went upstairs to ask her about my transportation tonight to go to Jelatek Station for my badminton game and then she,acting like a childish kid all the time,like to drag and drag,not giving a certain objective clear answer and always just keep me impatient..even the trip to Redang,she's like see first etc,...i hate the answer :"see first" or "later oni talk" or simply just ignore me ...argghhhh..doesn't she understand its not nice to keep others waiting?that decisions have to be made and confirmation is sometimes an urgent necessity?okay,so maybe i'm over eager and seems to think the world revolves around friends but...what expect me to do?when i like to sit at home,u expect me to fetch my "saint" sister to piano class which is oni 5 minutes walk away..or ask me do more house chores...i did what u told oni to have more to come..goodness,'ve eve cut down going out,on eating,safe lots of cash,stayed at home..and yet its too much to ask just to fetch me to a badminton game?haizzzz...

anyhow,i ended up staying at home like my wish,letting the obviously-can-eat-more brother go to Legend Hotel for the buffet high-tea with mum..well,i prefer alone anyway..i watched May Cing's Inuyasha,Matsuse Sensei's Cd,read a little of Clements' book,stuff myself with pitted prunes and got ready for badminton game..to hold down my angerr is with lots of difficulty cuz by now its 5pm,my game is at 6pm..mum is not home yet,knowing well i'll go to this game and i needed her car..no,she din turn up,so i arranged myself transport and knowing my dad well enough that he wouldn't want to fetch me all the way for a badminton game,i asked him to drop me at KL Sentral where i took the liability of taking the Putra LRT myself to Jelatek,having to learn it since i started studying here..something unthinkable if i were to be in Sentosa..ok then i reached there unexpectedly 20minutes early,so i sat there,read a book which came in handy..while i sms-ed Halim and asked him wat time the rest will come,secretly hoping he can come teman me first cuz he'll come with a motorbike so it'll be easy to have a warm up partner first..felt a little guilty for waking up Min Ley while she's having her nap..hehe..but they all arrived promtly at 6pm..leaving me looking like a dork so outta place reading a book,in a humid bdaminton hall..shit..so pathetic..u know,how the minutes seems to drag as u're wating for something..

What really made me angry again is..i din get to play at the court!!oni the occasional play at the side with minLey,the empty space between 2 courts..arrghhh..and to think i was the earliest there and i din get to play at all!!till the last 10 minutes where i teamed with Saniy..and the last game with Syazni..not a good game oso..cuz they give way one..i know i'm not good and i'm a gal,but i dun like ppl giving way lar...(though they give way to Min Ley oso)well,i spent most of the timewith Min Ley and we played like ping-pong..haha..fast and hard..Teck Soon brought his brother,twin..so they are like the star of the day,habing to have Shimizu Sensei,Usui Sensei etc taking pictures non stop..Fasihah making a move too..^^"..then the real frust came again..mum calling me asking me what time i wanna go back,say i'm making a nuisance...blah bla..i dun understand why she has to go to Aunts place when she goes there practically every week?yeah,its REALLY troublsome to come and fetch me from my hostel but i already told her that earlier di right?if oni she'll just lend me the car!!arghhh...in the end i had to fork out money to go to dinner with the rest of the gang..shoots..with Chin Leong n James too..arrghh...they made us walk from Carrefour,which is like ok..its oni 5 minutes walk to the designated restaurant..but no,we had to walk INSIDE Carrefour and get lost!hah..no exit until we had to go to the car park
and fond..we're oni back to square one..can see Min Ley fuming and was purposely saying:"oh,we walked such a BIG round just to come back here"..aiming at Chin Leong who suggested we walk inside Carrefour..i oni kept silent..sighhh..no point complaining anyhow,give face to him a little lar..but no,Chn Leong sometimes can be darn stupid sometimes and add fuel to fire by making more silly remarks that gave me and Min Ley the urge to slap him..Min Ley did it with words and asked him to shut up..really,he ordered Teh Tarik but din even try and said its Milo Ice wen we gave him the mug..making everyone kelam kabut and exaperated..goodness..really,Min Ley finally gave up trying to be nice and directlyslapped hm with sharp words which left me like..."ouch!" for Chin Leong..maybe its better to be like her,straight forward ,unlike me,a false pretender..

Anyway,i'm really pissed off when we can't get a cab back to the hostel and we waited 20minutes..and mum is already at the hostel waiting for me,too bad she doen't know the way to Carrefour thus..we wait,they wait..when i got in the car,my sister as usual,tsk tsk as loudly as possible trying to say i kept her-majesty waiting too long..baka!came back,argued more again..mum scolding me for being selfish,of not thinking about others etc..is it too much to drop me at home first while u go out to meetur friend?wat lar,i already told u i wanna go home bathe and change cuz i stink having to drench my shrt with sweat..arrghg...call me self centered for all i care...okay,i'm half boiling di..then..my brother complaint that I dented his precious racquet!hey,u seldom used it oso k..and i din dented it or make a gap at it lar..its my fren k!!no,i not going to use any racquet next time,use other ppl's one lar...and i'm NEVER going to the badminton game again WITHOUT a car..NEVER!!!!!!its too much to pay for the game..iwas furious when my brother complaint like a baby,howling non stop..got mad,throw out all his CDs in my room..MY ROOM!!what?i bought this goddamn pc and let u all use and its too much to listen to his stupid cd?good..dun touvh my precious ever again..

Yeah,i'm like a childish gal too...even thinking of coming back lesser since my presence is so not welcomed..fine..i wil do just that!can't wait to go to Japan..huh..watever.....Mother's Day?we'll see...goodnight or good ridance folks..i'm so powered up by anger right now that the badmintontiredness has little affect on me right now..i'lljust go crazy then..fuming.....

~I'm being sceptical~

Maybe its because monday was a holiday thats why this week felt like i'm travelling on a bullet train..and thus i'm home again blogging..tomorrow there'll be another badminton game with the senseis,really look forward to it..and sunday will be mothers day..haha..my last year celebration with mum before i head off to Japan..

this week if i'm not mistaken its the olden wekk in Japan too,a week where Japanese can heave a huge sigh of rrelief from their usually hectic lifestyle and take a good rest...Yesterday i was 5th of May,in Japan its known as the Kodomo no hi..as in Childrens' day..being a country where male ego were all given a boost,it used to be celebrated oni by the japanese boys but as the country evolves to a more sophisticated country,thus,equality rights were softly fought and as the prize,the gals were allowed to celebrate the kodomo hi as well.haha..conincidently it was our dear Shimizu Senseis' birthday and ths out of the blue Teck Soon got Saniy's car and James,Chin Leong,Min Ley n I hopped in,got a Tiramisu cake and dashed off to Gurney Heights and gave her a suprise party with the help of Usui Sensei..and i thought i was just some white lie but it was confirmed that wen the Japanese dun allow u to go in the house,they really don't!haha..Shimizu Sensei and Usui Sensei dun allow us to go in thier house cuz they claimed that its dirty and thus we head to Matsuse sensei;s house,a loor above..when i stepped in his house earlier i was a little taken aback by the bareness of his house having limited furniture..no wait,i can count..2..a Tv set and a matress in the middle of the living room..goodness..so little..but at least its clean..

WE din really did much,and thus..the language barrier attacks again..with limited vocabulary we can hardly strike up any conversations and thus silently finshing the cake,Min n I did he dishes and Teck Soon gave an excellent performance of his vocals...Matsuse Sensei gave a little pathetic try though..haha..then its back to the awkwardness and we soon left,barely one hour after we arrived..ah well,it better then my attempt of riding Chiang Shen's bicycle.haha..wei,i can ride a bicycle its just that the guys' are all so tall..and ppl who know me is already well informed that i'm a modern day short kid with a height of a never fully grown teenager..pathetic..whatever..well,i did manged to ride it,nearly hurt myself in the process but then again when i'm on it,the chilly wind of the night really refreshed me a lot..love it..a sense of freedom and calamity,until i have to et dow..thats' when i felt like tripping..just like life,one minute u're on ur top form,the next,the worries came tumbling after..sigh

i had a hard day today,well its not that bad actually having to play Mafia again like last week..haha..its the after of it..after school,as usual,mum picked me up from UTM and we went to the Pekeliling Flats Station to pick up my aunts from Raub.i've done my duty by actually waiting for them,even scouting for them cuz we thought they should have arrived earlier..but no,they haven't and by some weird sense they dun own a handphone in tis modern century..so cannot contact..i scouted high n low like some idiot who dropped her contact lenses..well,mum was at the toilet with a major queue so its up to me,and i soon fond them.on the next coming bus..helpee them carry their luggage and all,playng the dutiful relative..well,then we head to Gleaneagles Intan Hospital to visit my grandmother who is in critical cindition..when i visited her on Monday,she was already in the ICU,now however they transfered her to some other equally packed place for those in need of extra care(in other worda their situation is quite critical)..my aunts were all teary and i soon left the room,cuz i can actually feel the discomfort of my presence there where they tend to get a litle emotional..even mum,bless her got teary eyes..me,i can't even flinched,again,i think like my grandfatheron my mum's side,i seldom get close with them,more so in this case cuz i barely ee them at all..not even Chinese New Year..almost stranger like.well,the situation is very unsoothing to me,cuz its not only about the life and death of my granmother whose time is almost up soon,is also about he conflict that buried a thorn between my mum and my fathers' side,namely my aunts here..and thus,i just do my job by..being present when i need to be..its kinda sad but this is how this family works,in my father's side anyway,where everything is counted to every cent..typical Hokkien..i've always prefered my mum's side,of being more cincai,with family warmth etc..anyway,lif still goes on..i might some prety naive and clod-hearted and i'm not saying i'm beeing brought up that way..i'm just..me...

as of now,i'd like to declare that ppl..if u dun wanna read this blog or any other,by all means don't..nobody is forcing u to do so and u have all the right to turn a blind eye to this blog or my friendship for all it matters..cuz..like i've emphasized a zillion times.my blog,is my world..if i like to complain,and so i shall..nothing anyone say or do will ever stop me from doing so..and a good day to you too...

~i'm Home~

After a nice weekend,i'm home..Friday i was so damn excited and went to Klang with May Ching ..and my,the train was damn packed and i can barely breathe..who wud have thought i'll be so...sardine-packed?!goodness,and imagine if i'm in Japan,its no wonder gals get molested so easily there...hehe..anyway,we finally arrived after some exhausted ride which rove May Ching to snooze off in the train while i was busy typing sms with friends whom i've long stopped sms-ing with..was kinda suprise to receive a sudden sms from Sendhil who took the effort to saked how was i doing after thus long..whilst Amir was all about business..haha..

While we were waiting for er father to pick us up..we chatted a lot..no wait,I talked a lot..non stop in fact,poor May Ching have to bear with me..sorry gal..=p.well,at first i found it weird cuz the surounding look awfully familiar..until it sudenly hits me that i've had the best Interact Conference there,at Goldcourse Hotel,Klang..funny it was so long ago n on the exact same day Sendhil sms-ed me?whoa.hhaaanyway,we finally got to her house after a long wait(but to me it was ok cuz i talked a lot)and i got to meet her family and got a nice warm shower,then went for a romantic walk at Taman Rakyat nexr er house..my my,it was the biggest and by far the neateset park i've ever been..it was like the whole hill was tranformed to tis wonderful scenery garden..it was breath taking..too bad i forgot to bring my camera there..it was downright romantic ler..really..and i truly enjoyed the silent night as we stroll around the brightly spot-light lit park..(no,i DO NOT mind walking without a boyfriend but just with a goodfriend of mine at all even she's a gal k,and dun get the wrong ideas)..smashing ,calmin,exhilirating,serenity and the list can go on..end of day 1..watched American idol too,and my their standards are damn great lo..dunno how they can choose oso and the day ended with 2 exhaused gals sleeping soundly til..10am..goodness.

it was really nice cuz her room was dark without a window but it was cool,so we actually can't tell whether its daylight or night without a watch or clock..well,all the talk about waking up early going jogging at the park was all easily cancelled due to our asanebo..hahaand guess what,we evened cancelled the fishing trip we talked about..and we ended up.watching Japanese Serial Matsuse Sensei loaned me..haha..it was another touching serial,but man,where are my tears again?geesh,guess..i dun wanna say this anymore,let me put it in a nicer way,ppl are different,made of different emotions and mentality..and mine ..arghh..lets just say,the show just can't make my eyes water..k?and we enjoyerd the whole serial in one day..haha..which is like..yseterday..and we made a trip to the park again too,this time with my camera and armed with a cute toddler,namely May Ching's self -claim 4year-old sister(she's oni 3 lar..)wohoo..she's so damn cute and active..we bonded better when we watched the serial,haha,cuz the rest of the family was out..walau..i'm good with toddlers too..haha..it was nice and relaxng day,sitting in an air-con room,watching a serial which made us continued non stop till the end..just a bit guilty munching lots of May Chings' choc..cannot help it lar..it was damn nice.and at night we found we can actually verse in Japanese better..haha,and who say surroundings doesn't affect one learning abilities?

And today,we actually manged to pull ourselves up and followed our excersice placn of badminton and some jogging..but it was a little different cuz we went jungle trekking instead inspite of May Chings' mum's warning(hey,i'm innocent this time k?May Ching,no...dun kill me...)and we went up and down n up n own...til we reached the peak,but alas the view was blocked by trees that have now grown..haha,according to May Ching the trees were chisai then..hehe..anyway,i'm not disappointed of any sorts,just there to experience it is good enough for me..i take travelling simple..i just wanna enjoy,gain experience and frame it in my memories..so,even if it only meant going to the park,or watching CDs while enjoying the air-con,or plainly sitting there enjoy a repeat of Malaysian Idol while families gathered for house warming,or watching an exciting Takwandoe tournement with a boring prize giving ceremony..its the part n parcel of travelling,and i truly enjoy expereincing every nook and corner of it,good or bad,fun or boring,busy or relaxing..so thank you May Ching for lettinf me enjoying all these,u've done a great job..

Well,of cuz i wudn't end without complimenting her parent's cooing..man,they can really cook..first day of my arrival,i already had home cooked "char kuey teow"..simply smashing..and the next morning..walau,my mouth water just remembering it.."bak kut teh",imagine home cooked..goodness,i really helped myself then.. dinner was fried beehun(simply oyishi )and my all time favourite,taufu!!!fried ones somemore..wlau..i was gila di..today morning,oh my...they can really cook,nasi lemak..so hao liao..and Uncle was so nice that he actually made me the nicest Milo drink on earth(result of drining too much 3-in-1 Milo)..his one is really damn nice ler..money back guarentee..hehe.and lunch was roast duck,vege,more bak kut teh and the best rendang ever..so,anybosy in for food catering??hehe..really,i have to write this in a new paragraph different from the rest cuz its all about the best experience of food tasting..home cooked somemore..shiawase...so wat's a little dish washing to show my gratitude?feel bad lar if i dun help to do something..best 2 days of food intake..haha..

So then,i'm back today,taking the trasin alone,well,i manged to do some shukudai oso at the one hour journey train,and my,was i a little suprise when the train went super fast..all the vision of train smashing came popping up after the incident in Japan..my,wat's the hurry?isn't life more important to hurry like that?and the guy n front of me were like teaching he's collegues son,about wat's the best man stuff?that now matter how high u climb,it's not important..hey,i dun meant to eavesdrop k?the man was practically speaking as if he is giving a speech..after a tiring journey,i still went to Mid Valley with mum..and wow,is it lck or wat?I met Amber Chia..she was paraing Puma's clothing alongwith those handsome male models and great figure female models..supresing she was my mum's friend's apartment tenant last time..and now,she's walking down the stage with confidence and glamour shining so brightly..ah well,ppl lead different lives and u'll never know when's ur life time chance of makng it big and be successful,be it chasing ur dreams or otherwise..ah well...anyhow,it's a tiring day..i wanna go out for drink but thinking about tomorrows outing,better not or it'' be suicide..sorry Alex Kim..i know u're bursting with stories about climbing Mt.Kinabalu..i'll find a chance to go out with u lar..sorry man,sorry...and Siang San?back off...i tried to sms u back but as fate will have it,i'm outta credit on the day u asked me out(yesterday?)so u might think tat i'm darn snobby not to reply u at all,i dun give a damn..i tred to be nice and decline u in a soft way but if u dun get the hint,i'll just have to do it the mean way..call me a B**** for all i care..see ya..