~I'm being sceptical~

Maybe its because monday was a holiday thats why this week felt like i'm travelling on a bullet train..and thus i'm home again blogging..tomorrow there'll be another badminton game with the senseis,really look forward to it..and sunday will be mothers day..haha..my last year celebration with mum before i head off to Japan..

this week if i'm not mistaken its the olden wekk in Japan too,a week where Japanese can heave a huge sigh of rrelief from their usually hectic lifestyle and take a good rest...Yesterday i was 5th of May,in Japan its known as the Kodomo no hi..as in Childrens' day..being a country where male ego were all given a boost,it used to be celebrated oni by the japanese boys but as the country evolves to a more sophisticated country,thus,equality rights were softly fought and as the prize,the gals were allowed to celebrate the kodomo hi as well.haha..conincidently it was our dear Shimizu Senseis' birthday and ths out of the blue Teck Soon got Saniy's car and James,Chin Leong,Min Ley n I hopped in,got a Tiramisu cake and dashed off to Gurney Heights and gave her a suprise party with the help of Usui Sensei..and i thought i was just some white lie but it was confirmed that wen the Japanese dun allow u to go in the house,they really don't!haha..Shimizu Sensei and Usui Sensei dun allow us to go in thier house cuz they claimed that its dirty and thus we head to Matsuse sensei;s house,a loor above..when i stepped in his house earlier i was a little taken aback by the bareness of his house having limited furniture..no wait,i can count..2..a Tv set and a matress in the middle of the living room..goodness..so little..but at least its clean..

WE din really did much,and thus..the language barrier attacks again..with limited vocabulary we can hardly strike up any conversations and thus silently finshing the cake,Min n I did he dishes and Teck Soon gave an excellent performance of his vocals...Matsuse Sensei gave a little pathetic try though..haha..then its back to the awkwardness and we soon left,barely one hour after we arrived..ah well,it better then my attempt of riding Chiang Shen's bicycle.haha..wei,i can ride a bicycle its just that the guys' are all so tall..and ppl who know me is already well informed that i'm a modern day short kid with a height of a never fully grown teenager..pathetic..whatever..well,i did manged to ride it,nearly hurt myself in the process but then again when i'm on it,the chilly wind of the night really refreshed me a lot..love it..a sense of freedom and calamity,until i have to et dow..thats' when i felt like tripping..just like life,one minute u're on ur top form,the next,the worries came tumbling after..sigh

i had a hard day today,well its not that bad actually having to play Mafia again like last week..haha..its the after of it..after school,as usual,mum picked me up from UTM and we went to the Pekeliling Flats Station to pick up my aunts from Raub.i've done my duty by actually waiting for them,even scouting for them cuz we thought they should have arrived earlier..but no,they haven't and by some weird sense they dun own a handphone in tis modern century..so cannot contact..i scouted high n low like some idiot who dropped her contact lenses..well,mum was at the toilet with a major queue so its up to me,and i soon fond them.on the next coming bus..helpee them carry their luggage and all,playng the dutiful relative..well,then we head to Gleaneagles Intan Hospital to visit my grandmother who is in critical cindition..when i visited her on Monday,she was already in the ICU,now however they transfered her to some other equally packed place for those in need of extra care(in other worda their situation is quite critical)..my aunts were all teary and i soon left the room,cuz i can actually feel the discomfort of my presence there where they tend to get a litle emotional..even mum,bless her got teary eyes..me,i can't even flinched,again,i think like my grandfatheron my mum's side,i seldom get close with them,more so in this case cuz i barely ee them at all..not even Chinese New Year..almost stranger like.well,the situation is very unsoothing to me,cuz its not only about the life and death of my granmother whose time is almost up soon,is also about he conflict that buried a thorn between my mum and my fathers' side,namely my aunts here..and thus,i just do my job by..being present when i need to be..its kinda sad but this is how this family works,in my father's side anyway,where everything is counted to every cent..typical Hokkien..i've always prefered my mum's side,of being more cincai,with family warmth etc..anyway,lif still goes on..i might some prety naive and clod-hearted and i'm not saying i'm beeing brought up that way..i'm just..me...

as of now,i'd like to declare that ppl..if u dun wanna read this blog or any other,by all means don't..nobody is forcing u to do so and u have all the right to turn a blind eye to this blog or my friendship for all it matters..cuz..like i've emphasized a zillion times.my blog,is my world..if i like to complain,and so i shall..nothing anyone say or do will ever stop me from doing so..and a good day to you too...