~3 more daysss~

3 more days before our kohai are coming in..actually i'm not about to write much about them cuz..i seriously dunno what will happen then,take them around n stuff?so ironic,the few days before i was so damn physched bout the idea that finally we ARE seniors but then now..hmm...Yesterday actually,i have plenty toblog about but after a nights sleep now..i forgot everything..GREAT!!i'm just diagnosed with STM!!(short term memory..)hmm,wonder where i got that from??*wink*

Well,maybe i shall start of from Wednesday,then maybe i'll remember something soon..haha..anyway,as i have expected,predicted,known...studies,mostly catching up was tough!!!2 days of absents is like 10 years here,i have to work double hard to really fall back on track and that!! is damn tiring..To add to my down n slow momentum,i have exam that week and thus..goodness,i can barely breathe,sleeping everyday at 11.45pm,wake up at 5.50am,surviving the day by drinking thick and bitter Nescaffe..sigh..but the badminton games continued,can't live without them now,haha...well,like i've written in my journal for Pn. Ros,maybe all the reading of books recently helped me to overcome any sign of breaking down,due to my grandmother's death or studies wise,cuz like what 've said too,no use dwell over it and feel sorry for myself for missing lessons...its no use to regret but i can only tell myself to "buck up" and continue chasing and following where i've left..

Yesterday after finishng our exam for the week (which i've made petty mistakes again..shoots!!)we left our homework aside to rest a little and off we ent (m Ley and I)toget some training..haha..i mssed out SUnday's dance class so got lots to catch up..my my,how tough it was,within 2 hours they have learnt lots!!i can barely remember all jus t parts of it..sigh,how am i going to dance well then??dunno lar..So by the time i reached home,i'm so worn out that i can barely stand,but then had to accompany mum to pasar malam for old time sake..dunno why,mum and i tried all the pasar malam food we used to try..long time ago,dunno when it started but often,now,we only buy the sual of Laksa,Tau Fu fa etc..but yst,we tried all the things we dun usually buy but used to,a long longtime ago..haha.a little nostalgic,though i see some familiar faces but they now meant nothing to me already,gone were the days i hope to meet my friends at the pasar malam,care every inch how i would look etc..now?i dun give a damn haha...

Anyway,went for more "brain washing" at night with Alex Kim..seriously though i've known all my life,nothing comes easy and yesterday through the conversations with him,i realise once again that nothing is what it seems to be..WE often look at the glamorous side of others,never once think or figure how much effort have been put in to obtain the so-call "flying colours" etc..Like what he said,"when we want to gain something,for sure we have to forgo some.."how true that was..though its a far cry from what i call a usual "mamak conversation",this one was outta the box and i din regret one bit of it,in a way,it gave me a wake up call,to see that i've been given the chance to study well,to obtain a scholarship and thus must appreciate every part of it..even if it means to study my "health" or "importance" out..well,maybe no one knows what the hell i'm crapping about but then again.i do..