~FRUST!!??!!~

Yeah i'm so damn frust right now i can hardly type..thus making it slower..well,i seriously have lots of temper in me,flaring up at every second since i arrived at home..genes?maybe,cuz my dad is really hot-tempered person too!only today it has burned to it max again..arrghhh...ok calm down,lets begin with what i did today to cool off some anger..

Woke up at 9am,felt bored so on9 til 10.30am before "officially" wake upand brush up..firts up i already need to wipe the inch-thick dust from the ceiling fan..i just wake up ler..fine never mind,i wipe..mm said will bring me ot Legend Hotel for lunch so...help her..well,then my good-ol' sis got some leftover pizza so not wanting to waste it,i gobbled it up and even the half can of Pepsi she left..u guessed right,i got full..yes,nowadays,i have sucessfully shrunk my stomach and now even little solid food can last very long in my stomach..now,dun go about not-healthy-eating-like-this to me..i know what i'm doing and i'm not anaeroxic thank you..just let me be and stop nagging..well,i went upstairs to ask her about my transportation tonight to go to Jelatek Station for my badminton game and then she,acting like a childish kid all the time,like to drag and drag,not giving a certain objective clear answer and always just keep me impatient..even the trip to Redang,she's like see first etc,...i hate the answer :"see first" or "later oni talk" or simply just ignore me ...argghhhh..doesn't she understand its not nice to keep others waiting?that decisions have to be made and confirmation is sometimes an urgent necessity?okay,so maybe i'm over eager and seems to think the world revolves around friends but...what expect me to do?when i like to sit at home,u expect me to fetch my "saint" sister to piano class which is oni 5 minutes walk away..or ask me do more house chores...i did what u told oni to have more to come..goodness,'ve eve cut down going out,on eating,safe lots of cash,stayed at home..and yet its too much to ask just to fetch me to a badminton game?haizzzz...

anyhow,i ended up staying at home like my wish,letting the obviously-can-eat-more brother go to Legend Hotel for the buffet high-tea with mum..well,i prefer alone anyway..i watched May Cing's Inuyasha,Matsuse Sensei's Cd,read a little of Clements' book,stuff myself with pitted prunes and got ready for badminton game..to hold down my angerr is with lots of difficulty cuz by now its 5pm,my game is at 6pm..mum is not home yet,knowing well i'll go to this game and i needed her car..no,she din turn up,so i arranged myself transport and knowing my dad well enough that he wouldn't want to fetch me all the way for a badminton game,i asked him to drop me at KL Sentral where i took the liability of taking the Putra LRT myself to Jelatek,having to learn it since i started studying here..something unthinkable if i were to be in Sentosa..ok then i reached there unexpectedly 20minutes early,so i sat there,read a book which came in handy..while i sms-ed Halim and asked him wat time the rest will come,secretly hoping he can come teman me first cuz he'll come with a motorbike so it'll be easy to have a warm up partner first..felt a little guilty for waking up Min Ley while she's having her nap..hehe..but they all arrived promtly at 6pm..leaving me looking like a dork so outta place reading a book,in a humid bdaminton hall..shit..so pathetic..u know,how the minutes seems to drag as u're wating for something..

What really made me angry again is..i din get to play at the court!!oni the occasional play at the side with minLey,the empty space between 2 courts..arrghhh..and to think i was the earliest there and i din get to play at all!!till the last 10 minutes where i teamed with Saniy..and the last game with Syazni..not a good game oso..cuz they give way one..i know i'm not good and i'm a gal,but i dun like ppl giving way lar...(though they give way to Min Ley oso)well,i spent most of the timewith Min Ley and we played like ping-pong..haha..fast and hard..Teck Soon brought his brother,twin..so they are like the star of the day,habing to have Shimizu Sensei,Usui Sensei etc taking pictures non stop..Fasihah making a move too..^^"..then the real frust came again..mum calling me asking me what time i wanna go back,say i'm making a nuisance...blah bla..i dun understand why she has to go to Aunts place when she goes there practically every week?yeah,its REALLY troublsome to come and fetch me from my hostel but i already told her that earlier di right?if oni she'll just lend me the car!!arghhh...in the end i had to fork out money to go to dinner with the rest of the gang..shoots..with Chin Leong n James too..arrghh...they made us walk from Carrefour,which is like ok..its oni 5 minutes walk to the designated restaurant..but no,we had to walk INSIDE Carrefour and get lost!hah..no exit until we had to go to the car park
and fond..we're oni back to square one..can see Min Ley fuming and was purposely saying:"oh,we walked such a BIG round just to come back here"..aiming at Chin Leong who suggested we walk inside Carrefour..i oni kept silent..sighhh..no point complaining anyhow,give face to him a little lar..but no,Chn Leong sometimes can be darn stupid sometimes and add fuel to fire by making more silly remarks that gave me and Min Ley the urge to slap him..Min Ley did it with words and asked him to shut up..really,he ordered Teh Tarik but din even try and said its Milo Ice wen we gave him the mug..making everyone kelam kabut and exaperated..goodness..really,Min Ley finally gave up trying to be nice and directlyslapped hm with sharp words which left me like..."ouch!" for Chin Leong..maybe its better to be like her,straight forward ,unlike me,a false pretender..

Anyway,i'm really pissed off when we can't get a cab back to the hostel and we waited 20minutes..and mum is already at the hostel waiting for me,too bad she doen't know the way to Carrefour thus..we wait,they wait..when i got in the car,my sister as usual,tsk tsk as loudly as possible trying to say i kept her-majesty waiting too long..baka!came back,argued more again..mum scolding me for being selfish,of not thinking about others etc..is it too much to drop me at home first while u go out to meetur friend?wat lar,i already told u i wanna go home bathe and change cuz i stink having to drench my shrt with sweat..arrghg...call me self centered for all i care...okay,i'm half boiling di..then..my brother complaint that I dented his precious racquet!hey,u seldom used it oso k..and i din dented it or make a gap at it lar..its my fren k!!no,i not going to use any racquet next time,use other ppl's one lar...and i'm NEVER going to the badminton game again WITHOUT a car..NEVER!!!!!!its too much to pay for the game..iwas furious when my brother complaint like a baby,howling non stop..got mad,throw out all his CDs in my room..MY ROOM!!what?i bought this goddamn pc and let u all use and its too much to listen to his stupid cd?good..dun touvh my precious ever again..

Yeah,i'm like a childish gal too...even thinking of coming back lesser since my presence is so not welcomed..fine..i wil do just that!can't wait to go to Japan..huh..watever.....Mother's Day?we'll see...goodnight or good ridance folks..i'm so powered up by anger right now that the badmintontiredness has little affect on me right now..i'lljust go crazy then..fuming.....