~Its Thursday..~

Okies i seriously have no idea how i usually get to write or maybe to some ppl..crap so much about my life..today is brain drain day,writers block..or whatever..still i'm typing cuz i dun wanna waste my 1 hour here just reading other ppl's blog..

Okay,the thing tha t comes to mind now..i'm so super hyper after the small test today cuz 2 ppl who haven't called me in ages called..u know lar who u are..c'mon..okies,why am i so hyper?dunno..miss the sound of my friends?sad to say i am a super mean and nasty gal to them,haha..due to my ever stingful remarks..AS USUAL..yalar,i cannot stand being so nice all the time k..just let me go wild for awhile and..sorry Emerson and Alex..hehe....hope to see u all on Sunday and then...i can die..haha..

Well,today has been another boring day,in fact the whole week is..what's there to tell..veryday is routine k?and so....sayonara..sorry ppl,i seriously have nothing to say this time around..wait lar,tmr i going KLANG..hopefully*hint hint*by then i'll have LOTS to tell??so until sunday..mata

~aduh,aduh..~

Man i really predicted correctly,now my joints are aching like shit..who would have thought it would hurt this much?man,i'm like an old granny walking around the house in slow-granny-like pace..ouch ouch..it even hurt til my butt..shit..really man,that proves that the usual badminton practise with may ching was too relaxing..this one really made me stretch till my muscles really pulled hard..ouch.and they usually say that the thrid day hurts the most?what will happen to me tomorrow??will i be able to go t school tomorrow and walk and function normally?hopefully..Min's injury was worst,she actually bent down on her knees 4 times,scratched it and now her leg is left with an ugly bruised mark..ouch..huge patch of red..

For now,i'm sleeping away first to prevent myself from doing more walking that might hurt myself even more,second..i wanna sleep as much as possible before going back for the usual metal war in school..i even skipped going out with Chin Leong n Terk Rong and skipped speech contet too..jus to sleep..haha,guess now is not my time to function ormally..optioning to sleep and do hoework than go out..haha,so not me..Dear Kelly-o-Kelly,where art thou?hehe..k lar,nothing much to wrte di,so will update in 2 weeks time?going Klang this week,hopefully can make it lar..haha..jya ne..

~tsukareta~

Well,the day started off pretty boring with me waking up at noon dragging on cuz i have no idea where to go for the rest of the day..Well,i have lots of option,go out karaoke with Phooi Fun,go join Min Ley,Clement and Chin Leong they all for movie and number 3,rest and do homework at home..well,suprise suprise,i chosed the last one,stayed at home and did my math homework..really it really amazed myself that i actually chose to do homework instead of go out and relax..haha.Well,i spent the time at home bugging my mum too..to convince her to let me go out for the badminton game this evening and i made it!!woohooo...though she insisted to take the car then..

Well,she din let me take the car of cuz,much to my dismay,cuz again she wants to go aunts place,so we stopped by at the hostel to pick up Min Ley and Chin Leong and then off we went,just right on time.I was pretty pissed off at that time cuz i already told them i'll be picking them up and yet they went to Sungai Wang and wasn't in the hostel when itold them earlier that i'll arrive soon..and mum,she just dun wanna go upstaris to wait with me for them to come back i was like..arghhh..i hate everything to be planned and yet not followed well,and hate to let mum wait and stuff..the drizzle made me even more pissed off..though to mum maybe she doesn't mind but i hate to keep ppl waiting,of failing to make everything to go according to what i planned..i sometimes felt very useless and thus it turns to frustrationg when my plans doesn't goes well..anyhow,we soon managed to piack them up at Sri Rampai,and thats wen i found out Hanim borrowed my raquet and din give me back!!god,how am i suppose to go pla badminton if i don't have a raquet?argghh...its like adding fuel to my already burning anger..anyhow i calmed myself down and oni sulked till the time we entered the hall and joined the games..had a great time there sweating..first i paired with Halim while Min Ley with Syazni..it was a great game and we would have scored better had i not lost the few points due to my dysnfunctional genes which cannot estimate the exact spot of the falling shuttle cock,still we won that round thanks to the excellent Halim..thank you..hehe..and thats wen ith a huge sigh of relief i found that Halim already borrowed my raquet from Hanim n brought it there..again,thank you Halim..

Then i teamed with Saniy while Min Ley with Nizam..this time around we lost..my fault again i suppose..i'm seriously a drag..but then again,we had lots of fun chatting with the teachers (though in my case it was with some difficulties cuz of my limited vocab)and sweating it out..the guys had a dose of testerone wen minemura sensei brought his 18 year old daughter here..haha,she was undeniably pretty and every guy..almost.went to her to chat with her..Halim got the honour first to actually practise badminton with her..haha,the rest of the guys were eyeing with envy..(dun kill me guys,its obvious k)and ppl,i dun wanna compete oso,who say i want to anyway,so i DID NOT LOST anything at all..goodness.hehe..jokes jokes..wat lar,go ahead and take pictures with her lar,why ask me to take oso?sympathy of wat?goodness,its normal to go googoogaga over pretty gals k,dun have to cover it up by offering to take pics with me lar..haiyo..

After that we had dinner at NZcurry house right behind Carrefour..it was nice.and we tried to talked more to the teachers..so nice,i wish i cuz stay longer if it was not for mum who arrived at my hostel earlier and i was forced to make Ikbar to take me back on his motorbike..sigh.anyway,all in all had a great time,knowing the teachers and also interaction with fellow course mates..hopefully there wud be more occasions like this for us to bond and know each other better..anyway,bet my muscles will ache tomorrow but its worth t..tomorrow..gonna go see the speech contest by Malaysian students of 16 and 17 year old inJapanese..woohoo..

~My eyes are so tired but...~

Well,as i've metioned earlier,my pc was ok di so slept a little late yesterday..but all that meant nothing when...I GOT TO DRIVE TO SCHOOL TODAY!!waahahahha..at first as usual,there will be somehow or another some barriers(usually its my sister with her ever tight meeting-tuition-classes schedule)but mum (really sweet of her)sought it out for me and i finally got the car to school today..woohoo..yeah,i'm over excited as if i just got my license yesterday but hey,its actually th first time i got to drive there and park it there the whole day!a sign that mum trusted me to handle the car alone by now i suppose,all the brain washing really worked..hehewell,it took me oni about 30minutes using the jalan Mahameru way thru the Pekeliling flats.And my,they are demolishing the old flas soon to develope it..and f i dn read wrongly they are moving(the 2875 families there)to Sri Rampai..yup,they new flat that is just next to our dear hostel..goodness and all along we have been guessing what are the buildings for.finally shed some light on our curiousity.

Anyway,back to my car..haha(this excitement has been bored into my mind the whole day and i can't wait to blog actually)well,the guard did stop me and showing my Matric card,speaking nicely(adding some smile here n then)he let me in without any car sticker..woohoo..and gracefully i turned to the main office,after knowing i can get the car sticker at 8am ,i manouvered abck to PPKTJ car park and voila,my car stood beautifully still there..super super nice to see i manage to handle things by myself..haha(i know ppl,u guys must be thinking i'm nuts so over excited over small stuffs like this)well,as usual for those who know me well,i start making plans..plans to go out for lucnh at 12pm,to somewhere far cuz we have exactly 3 hours to do so..and ladies,are you ready to go for some little adventure with me??=p..yups,i was the mastrmind of everything,killing my own conscience of taking the car to somewhere far without acknowledging mumj,but anyways it worked out beautifully..and thus,we went to Genting Klang for lunch..(thanks to Ghai Leong who recommended the place..)and my oh my,was i ever do eager that i can barely concenrate in class,though still knowing that the time will arrive somehow,but just..eager..hehe.

After origami lessons in Japanese Affair we finally took off..(why is there such a commotion of me driving a car there?no ppl,i DID NOT created the commotion ok..it just came )really enjoyed origami lesson..we made some,what u call that ninja weaponm?well,thats the best i can describe it..the one that they usually got stuck one,that kills with 4 sharp end?and we made boxes oso..really nice..oh back to the lunch..as i was saying,i made it there(safely,mind u)without getting myself lost too..a feat i conquered,haha,since i've oni been there like twice..i'm good,yeah,i'm good..haha.well,it was May Ching's n Xinnings first time there,glad they like it..we really had a great time there..the funny thing was when we ordered after reading the menu for 5minutes?we all had the same set lunch..cha dao..haha..it was like Minsaid she want set B and i was like same wor..and we told the waitress..Xinning said,made that three..and so we were all staring at May Ching and..with an almost calm face..Set B please,she said..and we then all went bursting with laughter..goodness..after reading so many options we ended up all we the SAME set lunch..it was good and i dun mind to go that far for it..really nice.we had a great ime chatting there and i thinkits really good cuz we have less time to actually sit down and chat usually,seeing all the smiling faces as we joked and talked about lots of stuff is really heart warming.i can even remember all the stuff we talked ranging fromKorean serials,old serials,Mafia games,of tea ceremony and guys taking them(since it is a tea house after all the place we went) the life in japan..etc..really nice,and we counted the time exactly to go back just nice to see all the ppl leave the school compound after their Friday prayers so that i can park nicely..really a good outing i would say..how i wish we can do tat more often,sit down and unwind,relax and joked and laughed like we had just now..so nice.Anyhow,i had a great day,and i reached home after oni a 20minutes drive..so super nice..really enjoyed it..what a day!now,shud i go out now or wat??haha...

~wooohooo~

Today is another wonderful holiday and like usual,i slept late till May ching gave me an early call(hehe,it was 10.30am actually)well,after reading the paper,more news bout the pointing fingers of responsibilities between China and Japan,the new Pope etc etc..Really,how can 2 leaders and the ppl actually act like kids fighting over some property..sigh..isn't the world filled and loaded with worries enough like the sudden change of weather,of unusual disease cropping up etc?and yet they still wanna creat more troubles by arguing over some mistakes of the past,come on,its history,gone though not forgotten..why try to creat another ugly mark on the bad scar?try to make history repeat itself?and goodness,what can u do by protesting and injuring other innocents in the country?seriously i can see no point in the protesters who created much hulabaloo over nothing and damaging properties along the way acting without much consideration and selfish themselves..so then who are they to critised what the Japanese ancestors had done?by inflicting injuries to the Japanese in the country,aren't they acting like barbarians themselves?and why is it so hard to admit that history is history..why whitewashed the textbooks..the real thng is what had happened had happened and the role of history textbooks is to educate the younger generations of past mistakes in thoughts that they would not repeat them..so why alter what the real truth is all about and creat a false protection and make them believe what is not true?humans...

anyhow,back to my holiday today..went to have luch at kim Gary's..not bad at all..went with Aunty sia,her sons and daughter..William,Aaron and Sharon..time really changed the looks of all of us,my how different they looked right now..anyhow,lunch was wonderful,seriously..and then went aoround with May Ching and Xinning..had a great time scouting for notebooks..so cheap and light they have it nowadays..anyhow,then dinner again near One Utama at Tropicana..realy nice..the best thing is joining mum with her colleague of so many years,old gatherings like these are really heart warming..oh,suddenly remembered somethng,while on the way back from MV,we heard a startling scream near the escalator at KFC..goodness everyone was staring and at first I thought it was a robbery or wat but everyone looked calm except the shirilling scream that stunned everyone..a lady,i soon saw,was stuck between the escalator and the wall..and know waht,it really terrifies me to see that its her head..gosh..at first i thought it was a baby or what then can see the escalator stopped,everyone runned down while some try to loosen the belt of the escalator that made her stuck between the wall..ouch..her scream really bring chills to my bone..seriously..ouch ouch ouch..her husband was like trying to get her head out slowly by pulling it a little downward..arggh...imagine what will happened if the escalator kept moving.the head will be..oh my gosh,i'm thinking horror movies..shit..after the lady managed to be unstucked"i saw herhusband carried her up for she,i think fainted..couldn't see that well cuz i was quite far away..sheesh,wonder how she stuck her head there in the first place..and the scream,can never forget them..eerie..

WEll,forget bout that,i gotta go school tomorrow and my plan to Klang had to be cancelled..so oh yeah,my pc is back thats why i can blog now..really,i felt so much nicer now and love to come back often and cease travelling..like they always say there's no place like home?i'm having that feeling right now though there's nothing to do at home...i'm just enjoying it..so..ciaozzzz

~A holiday betweeen some days~

yeah tomorrow theres a holiday and now i blogging at a super speed cuz mum is actually waiting outside this cc...haha,what to do my pc is still down n my "super" sibling promised mum we'll oni be here for an hour so..gotta rush things to type..goodness,wonder if i can complete?though not much to say but hey,i'm a boring person who loves to play with words so..

to begin with..hmmm,nowadays i'm getting to much option to voice out my feelings till i have no ideas what to say any more..blogging is one thing,keeping a diary is another and now even in english class we have journal writing..(sorry if there's plenty of spelling errors,i'm rushing here..)so seriously,i do not like to repeat myself over n over so for every "place" i can "keep" my thoughts,i just love to think about something new to say thus screw my over-worked brain..well,,to begin with hmmm...again..i dunno..why isit that when we talked about friendships in English leesons today,teacher kept on asking my thoughts about it?it made me wonder but i never really gave it a thought for if i do so,i'll go haywire of too much thinking again,mainly negative ones too..yeah,i'm a pessimist,a saddist etc..lucky now it finally hit me i have great friends who pull me up encourage me,even "slap" me with words to "wake" me up from my negative thinking..and even pull me to vent out my negativity thoughts in sports,u know who u are so..a big THANK YOU!!!!

Now where was i,hehe..mum asked me to help her reply her mails so all my thoughts were like..shut down..now,restart,a little slower..hah.this week it has been a week of late classes without being penalised..good huh?its the buas fault,come at 7.30am usually though asked us to wait at 6.30am,goodness..reach school sometimes at 8am sharp or plainly 8.30..haha..well,we can't be blamed,just make the best of it lo..anyhow,classes have been a smooth process we\ith us learning new words almost eveyday.Life has definetly got back on track for me,i can even automatically go through it everyday without having the time to even think or worry bout ti..the usual routine.Wanna know?5.50am get up,breakfast,wait fior the lousy bnus which drives us up the wall and late for school,classes,eat some skimpy lunch or non at all,read the paper i now share with May Ching,go back,sports,lesser dinner,homework,a little reading (of anything) sleep.fullstop..boring but it really keep me from thinking too much,mainly the sports part where it usually leaves me tired out and sleep soundly til the next day continues..

Well,to conclude it all,i really appreciate the help of my friends thought unintentionally or plainly of good conscience to tip me off my weaknesses,i thank you all for dragging me out of my "humble" cacoon,of deep pessimism etc..this has been a memorable week and thus,like what a teacher once said,its good that we have friends to remind us of our weakness through their openess and frankness..its better to admit them and rectify them for the better of oursleves and the ppl around us..Last but not least andother long winded..thank you my dear friends...

~Whats Happening?~

whats happening?i dunno..(again,my favourite word)..yesterday i wrote shit about my life in PPKTJ and now,i'm talking to my seniors and they told me its not that shitty after all..just gotta have the right attitude and mind and work the smart way...yeah,as usual,any teenager would have figured out that by now wouldn't they?work smart and all the shitty philosophy of life,the best way to lead them etc..i mean who can't make philosophy?any one cud dear,any one cud..

Like i'm telling my friends who is chatting with now,i'm just feeling great that i'm born in KL,where its oni a 30minute drive away from UTM..well,today was not bad at all in fact..woke up by mum to accompany Min who obviously do not need me waking up so early at all..i mean,she's enjoying herself watching my brother's anime..goodness...well,as for our relationship euphemism for our friendship..its really turned better..who would have thought huh?after finding ourselves as roommates it actually patched the little loops and hoops which is starting to crack through before the holidays started..we actually had a great time arguing the whole day yesterday whilst we were to catch a movie,really hilarious,it was like back to old times..super nice..welcome back good ol' Min Ley..today we actually went to do some shopping with my mum before Min Ley left to go back to the hostel..i wud agree to do so cuz with both of us at my house,its kinda hard to actually sit down to start finishing our homewotk..i gotta work at my own pace..and i think she thinks so too

WEll,had a buffet dinner at aunty Connie's sister house..full moon baby or something..really except for the food and the occational glance at the baby there was practically nothing else to do already excpet to stare at the tv screen almost the whole night..along the way kept on bugging mum,haha,can see she's kinda fed up oso cuz we went there by aunty Vivien's car not hers so its not for her to say when to make the move..well,once we reached her house,i drove home all the way..supoer again..yeah,the rich aunty Vivien bought Yee Ling a new Aerosport Kenari,white and cool..so?what so proud about it??guess i do felt a little pang of jealousy..haiz..can't be bothered lar,i'm going to Japan,for now,i gotta get a grip of myself,enjoy the weekend before going back to UTM again..sigh sigh and more..SIGHHHHH>>>>>>>>>>>>

~Nihongo dake..~

yeah now eveything except English is finally...in Japanese..the teachers are going at a slow pace hoping n guiding us whilst we still try to get use to the switch..how about my new class?yeah,the ppl are ok i guess but i'm feeling that my shoulder muscles are once again throughly tensed up..why?my class have geniues thats why..yeah,in the class,base on Jap language i guess i rank fourth?got back all my results really sucked big time in Chem scoring oni 64?yeah..the oni C in my papers..throught the year,i'm ranked 9th..this term,8th..can't be bothered lar,cuz i lost to all the same ppl as before except switched places with chin Leong..whatever.

Time really passed in a slow pace,to me of course..sheesh,Monday,had a very super short ceremony where we were introduced to the new senseis..then wasted the whole day doing nothing except reading my goddamn story book..so damn sien..then the whole week was lessons n more lessons..no more ss for me to go on9..i have lots to tell about each day but by making a summary of week..i can hardly remember..all i remember was,wednesday..the stupid bus din come,and we waited til 7.45am until we called the PPKTJ management who finally got us a bus..great..oh we arrived to UTM alright,at 9am..cool huh?too bad lesson was replaced the next day meaning..yesterday..damn siow,that day was also the day i received my bomb of my good-old results..

Got 8th place,like i mentioned before..really sucked..i dunno what is wrong with me,or my stupidity,or carelessness especially with jyoshi?and i must not lack of concentration this time around i think..i really din give a damn bout the previous test cuz being last year as first year student and all..excuses?what do you think?all i know,i seem to be the oni person stressed up to the max right now,comparing my results now and then,trying to coope in Japanese..sheesh..i just dunno how to explain..oh fuck,i'm just darn stressed,to the end of my hair,wits..my brain...ok got it?and i hate it,i really do..that's why the first few lines,its like eternity here..how am i going to get a hold of myself?English period,what do i think of friends?hell,i'm not sure anymore..Pn. Ros asked me,but in a class u expect me to give any long and negative answers?hell no of cuz,just the usual meek me in polite voice twisting my word to sound nice,but to me,very unconvincing..if i can oni speak my true heart out,bet it'll suprise everybody,and i mean..EVERYBODY..so what stopped me?duh,the same thing that stop everybody from doing stupid things in life,common sense and role playing lar..pretender some might say,and i'll say..SO?what's wrong to be a pretender?some ppl like to be kissed up in the ass,some just can't accept that gals curse too..whatever..

i guess i'm repeating myself..i'm really giving myself a real hard time to coope up..why otheres doen't seem to have this problem?i gotta sleep more already sheesh..anyway,The Pacifier?not bad is all i can say..watch it,it'll make u feel good..if u have a good sense of humour..thats all,i'm tired thats why i dun seem to enjoy it like,hyper..i even brought homework back home here,breaking my policy of no homework at home..argghhhhh..

~A peaceful day..~

Peaceful day??of cuz some ppl might ask..no,i'm not talking about wars,at home or the outside world,(too oblivious,cuz i can't do much anyhow)i'm talking about how peaceful and relaxed i felt today,having to finish a book within 5hours..the book Darkest Fear really drawn me to it and made me finish the whole book without stopping,really nice..it has been quite long since i experience this kind of tranquility,of lying on my mum's queen size bed,flipping through the pages,reading patiently,with full anticipation to the end.Seriously i was really an aredent reader when i was in secondary school but this habit came to a halt since i started lessons in PPKTJ.Why,some might ask?

Jitsuwa..since i started studying here, very intensive classes,i hardly have the time to read..seriously..i rather devote my time on my school studies,doing more revisions..no,not noble,its just that if i do reading of other materials than my studies,my guilt is enough to stop me from enjoying the book further,what's the point of reading a book when u can't enjoy it then??right?it will haunt me very long cuz i'm being paid to study here..haha..anyhow,i finally got to sit back and relax the whole afternnon today,enjoying the book..and it was nice too.thanks Clement.

Well,lesson really really will start on Monday where classes will resume to the office hours of 8am to 5pm again,a little feeling of dread and anticipation..cuz i dread to feel sleepy by the end of each day,however,with these new teachers,i'm sure my nihongo will take a huge leap from now onwards,either that or i flunk cuz everything will be in the form of nihongo now..haha.of cuz for the benefit of myself,i will work hard not to flunk..have to,got to..well,thats all for now i suppose,i want to ewnjoy resting at home before going back to my hectic schedule..so now,signing off again..(my here in the cc,the lines are bad,been waiting for half an hour for msn messenger to sign in di...shit)

~Atarashi jugyo..~

Ne~kyono jugyowa mamada..hontoni tsumaranakata monai shi,sugoku omoshirokata monakata..keredomo,kyowa atarashi senseinga jugyoo oshiete itadaite hontoni shinsen da toomou.Tokuni Uematsusei senseino jugyoda.Hajimeni Sakura kurasuo dete,minnani jibun o jikoshyukaisareta.Minnao warawaseta hajimeno jyodanwa kurikaeshite jibunno namaewa totemo ii namaeto iukotoda.Tsugino jugyo no nakaniwa,jyodan o ita kotoga ooiga Malaykeno gakese no kaoo miruto,dataino hitowa sensei ga iuta jyodanwa zensen kikitorenai toomou.Sorede,kurushiku itashita kotowa hatsuon o chyuyisareta kotoda.hakimewa minna nenshini senseinga iutatorini hatsuono naoshitanga,jikanga kakareba kakaru hodo,minna osoraku iiyadasouda..sono ue,nase senseiwa Chyugokukei to Malayke o funbetsu surukotoga daisuki nandesuka?shiranai..demone,kyowa atarashi kotoba dakeo benkyoshita node..mada kantan to omou..

Tokoroga,Install toiu eigawa hijyoni tsumaranakata..watshini tote ichiban tsumaranakata eigawa Alexandredaga,ima Installwa sono watashino listoni ichiini tota..sheeshh..eigao mite netainowamo kyonga hajimeda..sugoku tsumaranai..Wasted my RM6..shit..moiya,mo mita node..kyono kotowa soredakeda..jya,mata

~Fastest class~

whoa,today super fast finish jugyo..so nice..at 12pm ler..and learn all the things oso super easy oni..really glad..thats why no homework can come to CC on9 again (*read emerson,read)lucky its pretty cheap if not can't really afford at the rate i'm going..sheesh..starting to get addicted di.Anyways,it'll last not for long til monday so,relax first lar..again,cuz go back room damn sien,oni read the paper,some books Clement loaned...

Well,today we were introduced to 2 new kibishi looking teachers,a 40plus man and a 50plus..reallt stern n strict looking..taking over ota sensei and Kondo's class..sigh,why they have to leave..they are the few teachers who can actually joke ler..so sad..anyhow,today,day to relax,where we found out got 1st for 3kyu n class position..haha,got her to treat mayc n i for dinner..as for mine..i dunno bout the class postion but my 3kyu was lousy due to the stupid listening..hate it..shit..anyhow,not to be sad lar,got cert for ppl who pass oso..so there..another day passed,hopefully all days will be as smooth sailing as today..

~A Tiring day..~

of cuz i'm tired lar..i've been laying on my bed since 12midnight..tossing n turning n sms-in every friend who i thought will reply my late sms..oni one replied,and he said he wanna sleep di...shit!well,in the end chatted with Alex..really felt bad for bothering him while he's having his exam though..so i tried to make it as short as possible..my restless night was due to my worry-wart symptom again..yeah,i worried too much as usual,partly is because i'm quite full oso..darn it..what am i worrying about?the usual,will jenny still be my roommate?if not,who will?will i be able to catch up with my studies etc..worry worry..but until i called Alex,all my worries seemed foolish..Ppl like Alex is facing exam,stressing out and drilling their mind with endless difficult formulas,and i..worry for the uncertain of..nothing..really silly of me..but though i realise the fact..i still tossed..til 3am..sigh,and woke up at 10am..yeah,nervous to go back to my hostel..silly huh?

Anyhow,after some emergency(so-called)i finally reached my hostel..and yeah,although we said not to be roommates,we ended up together..min n i..cuz at first we each took a room but joined toilets cuz now oni one row of rooms are meant for us..but no,the management just hate PPKTJ students and thus,forced us to go in pairs..i dun mind actually,so she shifted in..cuz i've washed and scrub the whole damn floor for half an hour man..u dun expect me to shift?yeah,of cuz i helped her shift lar..haha..repay her for comprimising..well,this is because Jenny wanted to share a room with Fasihah..not that i mind,cuz i dun AT ALL..its for the best anyhow.well,May Ching n Xinning's room is so far away..how i wish they are our neighbours but its absurd to ask them to shift lar..so..we are..4 rooms away lo..so sad..anyhow,classes will start tmr..and i dun wanna be stuck in my room right now so..on9 lo..have to pay ler..and i have to curse this super guard..damn,whats wrong jogging with shorts?damn,he asked us to turn back to change to track damnit..gila,so hot and uncomfortable lar..lucky we already finished our rounds..gila gila..the rest of the guards din say anything oso..oni that damn bastard..and i din even said anything and he was scolding like some mad dog..shit him..well,dun care lar..class starts tmr,and we'll see wat happens..what else can i do to prevent from imsomnia tonight??sigh...

~Qing Ming...~

yeah i've done my qing ming earlier,just tat its the actual day today so..what?i'm so darn bored but cud live like this forever and not trade it for anything..yeah,its the laziness n relaxing-ness creeping in already..who wouldn't get used to this kind of life?(workaholic maybe) i mean,seriously i cud live like this forever,be a couch potato,pig..whatever names u can give it..at leadt i've done my packing ler..yeah,tmr,the day finally arrived..to go back to my prison,my gym,my mental-torture cell..in other words,my hostel..

Not that its that bad but the thought of going back to the stressful days,the ever routine days of drilling endless lists of Japanese words into my now-rusty brain isn't really appealing though..Yeah,yeah life has to go on,and we have to be responsible and play our parts in life..crap..the thing is,things are not as bad as its sounds to be just that,u know,the great mind can make u imagine and worry lots of stuff and..i dunno..maybe it really bothers me a little that if i go back,will i still be able to perform like the days before hols..how will the roommamte stuff turns out etc..yeah yeah,i DO admit,i'm a worry wart..seeing the seniors postin all positive remarks of Japan really make me wanna go there this instantly but as usual..its all day dreaming..wake up gal,look at ur own nihongo power lar,x sampai boleh cakap lancar lagi nak kata pergi nihon..cis..

my days of on9 at nidnight is over..yeah,reason one..school starts,second..the goddamn pc,is DOWN AGAIN...exactly 3 weeks,fixed wen i start my hols,rosak wen its ends..and i haven't even save my pics..now where i gonna put them??somebody..help me burn cd?hehe..and can anybody..tell me where to get a good laptop,desktop?schmtop..really hate all the names,to some it may not be complicated with all the RAM,bytes..something,something..to me,i'm as good as...nothing,dunno anything..pc illiterate,or plain computer idiot..call me anyting lar..i'mused to it already,can't be bothered too..anyhow,just glad to have friends who is ever willing to help..thank you ppl..as for me,i'll live on being ignorant..

And,anybody read the article in The Star,speak up session?really loved the Double Standards..yea,its really unfair to judge the fairer sex but deemed acceptable for their masculinity of the male..its so unjust..the article talked about marriage wise,off going out late at night,of roles of women in the modern society..how ppl prone to think that women shud belong in the kitchen and stay there etc..women are treated to unjust no matter how high their level of education are today,or how high they can actually climb the coperate ladder.well,todays articles are about ppl supporting the idea of Linda,the Double Standards' writer..and i really loook up to this person,Bulbir Singh from Seremban,who throughout this long has given really positive and just comments in all speaking uop sessions..even in this case,he asked the ladies to fight for their right,cuz the thing is,no one is allowed to set the rules that women should be treated unfairly etc..so,u go man..uhh,and fellow women..

so,the end of blog..nothing much to type anyway..been reading a lot these days,my eyeas are getting sore and my brains are all cramped up with ideas,facts,news..gonna go cukoo before school even starts..but til then..i've lots of cleaning up to do tmr..so..until..next time.(won't be able to blog often di..)

~Of Malaysian Drivers~

yeah,i just came back from my mum's hometown after which my cousin's boyfriend drove at almost break-neck speed..but do i despise it?no i don't in fact all of us in the car,including mum were glad that he did so or not we'll still be somewhere at the North-South Express highway,stuck in the lousy jam..Yeah u heard my,highway..JAM!really shitty..for all i know,the highway was smooth and flowing and the next,its jam all the way up to the toll to enter the city..and my,do they know how to queue?We were queing say 500metres away from the toll and these ppl start to cut queue like nobody's business..damn..walau,if my cousin's boyfriend is not..how the say "long" enough,we might have to give way to these ill-mannered drivers all the way..my my..and the "extra" line just kept on adding too..my goodness..and they were like shooting daggers at our "driver".

Well,not to say he is a pleasant driver too but hey,its getting late we have been on the road since 3pm..and we still were at 8pm..it usually doesn't take that long k?and that was..haha..after he drives on the emergency lane..yeah,i'm crazy to actually doesn't dissapprove of this but hey,even if i do,i'm not driving right so?and ppl ppl...ggodness,other ppl accident,everyone slow down to watch..and the jam(before reaching the toll,15 minutes before it)was all because of these ppl's curiousity..and i thought our side of the road had accident..n,u guessed right..it was the opposite side of the road..goodness gracious.

Welli,'ve not been to Qing Ming for quite sometime now..(to mum's side i mean)but this time,my grandpa just passed away when i first went in to PPKTJ,so i dun have much time here in Malaysia too so..well,it was like what i've expected a noisy gathering..especially from uncle soon' daughter and son..goodness..the daughter,really yells at everything,shierks,screams..i dunno what else to describe her..and the son,wow,even better..can jump at every bed,sofa,played with all the colour paper meant for the dead etc..and his paents namely my mum's brother can't be bothered to scold them!Every year,especially chinese New Year,each of the family members had complaint of these 2 ill-mannered children but like the usual Chinese culture,we "give Face" and rather keep quiet about it..well,its their parents responsibilities we like to think,and what can we do when the parents are not doing anything?who are we to teach these kids..anyhow,one stupid event today really made me felt like slapping the son but as always,if boleh sabar,sabar je lar..i was so dead tired after Qing Ming and wa sleeping in the ot and stuffy oom and then comes the bunch..making hell of noise,after which i chased them out politely amd closed the door..but little musketeer had to come in once or wice,bark like a dog,give a sudden warrior (orang utan to me)scream and after seeing i budged,awaken..they left gleefully!my !$##%^$..i just keep quiet..quiet...not much chance to enjoy the "familyness" next year..but for now..arghhghhhh.

Well,next year tis time i'll be in japan..hopfully..and cannot really enjoy being irked y these pest,to clean up the grave watching ppl burng all the hell-money etc..though a bit sad,i can't wait..no guessing why right?

~Happy April Fool's day!~

Exactly one year ago i met a car accident,today,i've been driving recklessly again..haha..never learn from my experience..i dunno lar,since its auto so its kinda easy and i'm driving with one hand most of the time(when mum is not around of cuz) drving like a maniac?not to that extent of course..

Oh yeah,what's he special occasion again?oh the day to fool ppl huh?well,no one fooled me or vice versa,dun think ppl really practise that norm anymore,cuz i think there's no point right?ppl are getting smarter to fall for anything anyway..Anyhow,not much to blog about..going back for Ching Meng tomorrow so there's nothing to blog..been doing a lot of reading at home cuz its darn relaxing and not much thinking is needed..brain geting rusty already but who cares,there won't be that much time to relax anymore,anyhow..so..ciaoz lar..bored..

~Not Feeling that well..~

Nono,i'm not sick or anything..though i have to wake up at 6.30am to fetch mum they all to school,having to sleep at 2.45am..then fetch May Ching to KL Sentral at 9.30am(really sorry for not taking u for breakfast..gosh,i have a tendency to starve u di..soreee)lunch was just bread n milk before i went to fetch mum and sleep back again at 2pm..really,i was so dead exhausted that i slept through the whole afternoon til 5.30pm.The lack of sleep really took a toll on me and i guess now tiredness,exhaustion and depression starts to kick in..thats what i meant by not feeling well..emotionally i'm really tired and in the blues the whole day..i have no idea what prone my sudden blues but it's just there..maybe its also due to some worriedness of my seniors in Japan,not knowing what will they do there,worried bout their condition etc..sounds pretty silly cuz i barely know them,any one of them well enough in fact..seriously.Anyhow,i'm just feeling blue and wonder like what Clement said,how will my life be in PPKTJ from now onwards?

Time really flies there and while i'm seriously making full use of my 3 weeks holidays,i'm going to sit back and relax for the next few days before heading back to school next Wednesday..my mind has been wondering a lot today(it always happens when u are in the blues huh?)ppl do change along with the ever changing course of time..though i really miss the times when i can really joke around with friends in my secondary class,went out with them recently and found that,no,i don't belong there anymore..as much as i want to share their conversation about teachers,fellow ex-classmates etc,it was HARD..really hard,their jokes,were suprisingly pretty "stunning" already..as in,can be really sharp and stuff,i would be a little suprise if non offence were taken,well,they dun seem to show they care anyway..well,i guess i've changed..no longer able to understand the cues and the "neh,u remember when,xx said something??" or "remember xx did that?" kinda stuff..pretty saddening.Anyhow,i have to accept it and memories of the happier times were just memories..(oh,emerson,sorry bout the mamak,was not the cheery me like usual,but u should talk more mar..)

As i have emphasise lots of time before,and sadly til now this fact still bothers me..my friends will change,along with their priorities namely studies to friends,girlfriends to old accomplies,the importants of the past,memories or the future..Seeing the seniors leave,made me wonder,seriously,WHO really wud see me off(besides family)?meeting with old friends at KM's party,i asked this question very casually and casually they did answer they would,but would they?I worry that who knows,by then they would be too busy to go on with their life that the casually-asked-question would be casually-forgotten..sigh..Even my best pal in primary school,after getting a boy friend,left to Melbourne last month without any notice..well,it was hard to contact her anyway,but at least tell me before u leave?gosh..am i the only one in the world who treasures friendship?start to think so..anyhow,i can't be bothered to hang on with friendship which i deemed is the most important in my life which throughout the years i have unconsiously believed,i will live on now, go to Japan,colour up my life with wonderful journeys and experiences..and for those in PPKTJ,sempai no kotoo shinpai shinai..sempaikara kitaga,nihongwa totemo tanoshikatasouda.ashitakara sempai tachiwa kousenni wakete jibunno kousen eiku souda..korekara watashi tachimo ganbarimashiou..jyamata..