~Nihongo dake..~

yeah now eveything except English is finally...in Japanese..the teachers are going at a slow pace hoping n guiding us whilst we still try to get use to the switch..how about my new class?yeah,the ppl are ok i guess but i'm feeling that my shoulder muscles are once again throughly tensed up..why?my class have geniues thats why..yeah,in the class,base on Jap language i guess i rank fourth?got back all my results really sucked big time in Chem scoring oni 64?yeah..the oni C in my papers..throught the year,i'm ranked 9th..this term,8th..can't be bothered lar,cuz i lost to all the same ppl as before except switched places with chin Leong..whatever.

Time really passed in a slow pace,to me of course..sheesh,Monday,had a very super short ceremony where we were introduced to the new senseis..then wasted the whole day doing nothing except reading my goddamn story book..so damn sien..then the whole week was lessons n more lessons..no more ss for me to go on9..i have lots to tell about each day but by making a summary of week..i can hardly remember..all i remember was,wednesday..the stupid bus din come,and we waited til 7.45am until we called the PPKTJ management who finally got us a bus..great..oh we arrived to UTM alright,at 9am..cool huh?too bad lesson was replaced the next day meaning..yesterday..damn siow,that day was also the day i received my bomb of my good-old results..

Got 8th place,like i mentioned before..really sucked..i dunno what is wrong with me,or my stupidity,or carelessness especially with jyoshi?and i must not lack of concentration this time around i think..i really din give a damn bout the previous test cuz being last year as first year student and all..excuses?what do you think?all i know,i seem to be the oni person stressed up to the max right now,comparing my results now and then,trying to coope in Japanese..sheesh..i just dunno how to explain..oh fuck,i'm just darn stressed,to the end of my hair,wits..my brain...ok got it?and i hate it,i really do..that's why the first few lines,its like eternity here..how am i going to get a hold of myself?English period,what do i think of friends?hell,i'm not sure anymore..Pn. Ros asked me,but in a class u expect me to give any long and negative answers?hell no of cuz,just the usual meek me in polite voice twisting my word to sound nice,but to me,very unconvincing..if i can oni speak my true heart out,bet it'll suprise everybody,and i mean..EVERYBODY..so what stopped me?duh,the same thing that stop everybody from doing stupid things in life,common sense and role playing lar..pretender some might say,and i'll say..SO?what's wrong to be a pretender?some ppl like to be kissed up in the ass,some just can't accept that gals curse too..whatever..

i guess i'm repeating myself..i'm really giving myself a real hard time to coope up..why otheres doen't seem to have this problem?i gotta sleep more already sheesh..anyway,The Pacifier?not bad is all i can say..watch it,it'll make u feel good..if u have a good sense of humour..thats all,i'm tired thats why i dun seem to enjoy it like,hyper..i even brought homework back home here,breaking my policy of no homework at home..argghhhhh..