~Happy爽!!~

28th of September 2007

After exam,gave myself a break..So I went to Disney Sea,another version of Disneyland only found in Japan..Behold the pics..

The train to Disney Sea...

Curtsey...

The lift that went haywire in the Tower of Terror..

Tower of Terror..A freefall ride that is spooky cuz the free fall is in pitch black..A must-ride of the park.

American Waterfront..

Sinbad Storybook Voyage.Mermaid Lagoon.One of the best place in Disneysea.Don't miss the Under the Sea show at the theater,best show of all..Too bad no photography is allowed..

Orange Mickey ice-cream bar..

A splendid show we missed...Some of the mascots we saw...

Comes evening..The view is splendid..No wonder couples love it here..=P

The fiery male..

The cool lady..

and when they meet..

A pretty sight to behold..

A lovely ending picture to end a perfect day..See that cute Chip both of us was holding?We spent a lot of money to win them back..When we won it for ourselves,the bliss,the happiness is incomprehensible...The attendant of the game stall was baffled by our shouts of happiness..haha who say we need bf's to win these for us huh?!?!=P

29th September 2007

Had a super nice Korean Brunch.Then watched Fantastic 4.I find it quite nice.Enjoyed myself.But I enjoyed myself even more because I was with her..hehe.NO!!I'm not lesbian,but I just enjoyed myself being with someone where I can BE myself.Confusing?haha..

After having a comfortable Starbucks session,we bid goodbye to each other..Til next year we shall meet.Then I joined Ah Boon,Li Jia,Chin Chin,Chin Wooi,supa sempai Seng Chye and some other super sempai Malaysians (call them Docs??!?!)for a fireworks display at 京王多摩川.The amount of people there was baffling..The fireworks were great but if it wasn't drizzling it would have been better..One of the better videos that I took..outta 10??Sorry I couldn't rotate it..

After that,had dinner with Chin Chin,Li Jia and Ming Rong.Bid Chin Chin goodbye and went in search of the supa-nice donuts May Ching mentioned.Thanks to Li Jia,we found the shop..But look at the line..Sigh..Really wanna try it next time.Li Jia said it was good..Hmm..Bid her and Ming Rong goodbye and went to search my nightbus back.No idea why,it was bright and sunny and hot the day before,and on the 29th it was freaking cold that I was shivering non stop.So stayed at the train station,took some pics of the busy life in Shinjuku eki,which made me wonder if I could get use to the life here,if I were to chose to study in Tokyo in the coming years.Found my bus and spent an uncomfortable 8hours bus ride home.End of my four days Autumn hols,tomorrow will be a brand new term.I hope I'll do well.

Thoughts of the day:Being happy for someone else is happier than our own happiness,I realised.That's how I felt when I learnt about my Vietnam senior's wedding and CW's recent happiness of finally being able to get together with his girl of his dreams..Felt really happy for them.Congrats again^_~

~Happy Mid Autumn Festival~

This time it's Mooncake Festival..I was studying for exam again.Christmas,I broke my finger.New Year,spent it on YouTube while recuperating.Birthday,study for exam.Chinese New Year,study for small tests..Sigh..

Ever since I came to Japan,these's festivals,events..All became just another insignificant day of my life.The most I can do is sending sms-es reminding people that it's one of those festivals after another year around.Getting feedbacks like "thanks,I forgot it's one of these festivals again.."Felt that,that's the least I can do..

A short simple message,must start from someone/somwhere.I'd thought I'd wait for someone to send me first,in the end,I started sending before getting some replies..Sometimes,I wonder how the receiver feels when they get my message.Glad that someone reminded them it's one of these festive seasons again,or irritated that,like Mid Autumn Festival,brings sad memories that things have changed,that we could no longer celebrate with our love ones in Malaysia.. or plainly irritated seeing that it's another message from me??!?!

Well,whatever it is.Though it's one day late.Happy Mooncake Festival everyone.

Ps: for the first time..I studied til I almost cried..weird..thanks to CW,I felt better..

~Of doors,blankets and 20minutes~

Ever noticed how you close your door?
Be it the door of your room or when you step out of a room..
Do you hold the handle and close it softly,
Or let it be with a loud 'bang' joining?
The closing of a door,so routine that it's often neglected..
If it's not mentioned here,you might never even give it a thought..
But comes 2am,you are tired after a day's exam and revision,
You heard banging of doors from your neighbour,
Not done purposely,but more likely not even giving it a thought,
2am,the banging of doors,really is the only thing that will jolt me up from slumber and make me cuss the whole night..

Blanket,a simple piece of cloth to keep you warm.
But to me,it also gives me a sense of security and comfort.
Remember the days your mother used to cover you with a blanket?
Doing it ever so lightly so as not to be noticed??
But you noticed it all the same,but pretend to sleep on,
So as not to startled this little action of affection.
So be it the bitter-cold winter season or a hot summer's day,
A blanket,is something I seek comfort in and wouldn't live without.

What can you do with 20minutes?
Cook a decent meal?
Place a phone call?
Or get your shopping done?
But I noticed that,with a tired mind,
All you need is a 20mins nap,
Your body will automatically wake up,
And all is recharged,for the few hours to come..

Exam wise,2days down,including today,3more to go..
Imagine 8hours study per subject for that mere 100minutes exam.
All is lost,if one mistake is done.
What is,the purpose of exams anyway?
To me,its not only the implication of the knowledge learned,
It also a test of preserverance,to get things done,by putting your fullest efforts.
What say's you?

~下着雨~

今天第一次在雨中漫步。。
考试时期通常就是我会胡思乱想的时期。。
从早上8点开始拼到6点下午，也不见得自己变聪明了一点，
终于放下手上的课本，到外面散步去。。
散步时总是有习惯打电话给朋友，
除了打发时间，也想知道朋友过得如何等。。

可是发现电话簿里能打的电话号码很少。。
犹豫，彷徨了许久。。
终于还是打给一些知道他们肯放下自己的事而陪我谈话的人(而且也不在忙着考试的人)。。
两天了，打的，还是给着同样的两个人。。
一个会陪我谈心，一个会听我的批评，劝告，牢骚。。

想想，其实我有什么资格去给第二者批评及劝告，
自己也不见得很完美。。
虽说人不尽完美，能接受自己的一面就好，
可是莫名奇妙的我总是要求更上一层楼，
也导致我有批评自己看不惯地方的人的坏习惯。。
给第二者，想向你说声抱歉。。

第一者，常陪我谈心。。
每天一个小时，没想到至今还有话题。。哈哈
突然觉得认识她真好。。
最近发现短短的1年，她也变了许多。。
就如她说的，离开了父母的呵护，
人，总会学着长大吧。。

也发现，朋友的定义何在？
好友的定义又何在？
她羡慕我常和朋友保持联络，
我告诉她，事在人为。
就如一同电话。。
要拨的号码，也都在自己手里。。
是看自己要拨还是不拨而已。。

今天在雨中漫步,
连自己也感到意外。
人，其实为何需躲雨？
看到那些日本人大喊“最恶！！”
就觉得，这细细的雨水，
真的那么麻烦，那么令人讨厌吗？
喜欢"雨" 的我,心情有点复杂。。

给妈妈打电话，
听到自己的亲戚因金钱困扰而精神崩溃，
说要和家人断绝关系，
连电话号码也换掉了。
现在行踪不明。。
还蛮吓到的。。
她，看似斯斯文文，
发狂起来还大打出手伤人。。
真的难以置信。。
世事难料，
我也该检讨一下自己用钱的方式了。。

好了，废话了那么多，
该去睡觉了,明天还需继续拼搏。。晚安。。

~Recently~

Recently I've been 'occupied' by my own preparations for exam.These days,I have the urged not to use the word 'busy' anymore.I noticed that most of the time when I blog,I usually tend to give others the impression that I'm busy,I'm stressed out etc,well of course,aside when I blog about my trips during my hols.

Something/someone made me think that maybe I tend to complaint too much.And it also made me wonder what,exactly is the purpose of my blog anyway..When I first started blogging,it was just some sort of a thrill,to start an online diary.I've enjoyed writing my thoughts in English since my secondary school days,no thanks to the handing up of Journals for English every week.(Remember Viv and YY??The guys at the back row just love to take our journals to read...haha)

Looking back at some of the entries,I was amazed at the length of my entries.I really salute Emerson and Abel for reading them back then..Comments were rare then,and my first faithful reader was Abel..It was kinda weird seeing that we seldom talk to each other in school but somehow became each other's loyal readers.Then I started to spread the word about blogging and I remembered even betting with Shengcui on getting Linges to blog.(Guess who's the winner???)

Those were the days..Fast forward today,my own blog has somehow gained some sort of unknown 'popularity' that I myself is amused.Friends aside,relatives and family of friends sometimes drop by to check-out my blog too..Posts which have no comments are a rarity these days.Not that I mind,reading comments when I'm down,it's a very good motivation and comfort.Sometimes,some comments really made me think about seeing things from another point of view..

These days,I've linked my blog to some of my juniors who are also currently studying in Japan.Reading their posts is really an eye-opener to me.Maybe because I seldom get the chance to read Chinese since I graduated from secondary school,reading their posts somehow brings some nostalgia,that I too,once loved my Mandarin lessons back then.Someone once told me that the image I gave people is that I'm more prone to the English side,that somehow its hard to relate me to Mandarin.True,I write better in English,feel more comfortable with reading English,but somehow...I speak better in Mandarin and felt comfortable conversing in Mandarin..If possible,I wish I could be good in both,but I also learned that there's no point in forcing,let everything take its course...

Well,I've done a lot of thinking these days,something I shouldn't be doing seeing that I should concentrate on my revisions.. and like I said before,because this blog is sometimes read by people who I don't have intention of hurting but end up misunderstanding my words,I'm learning to be careful with what I intend to post up nowadays without lacking the gist..As if there's any gist in this post..haha..Take care everyone,I'm off to war again...

~Aimless~

Everything was so clear,
Yet so hard to distinguish when its near.
The path to reach it was ever full of thorns,
Success prevails after perseverance is born.

Life,is of tears,of pain,and to some,not more than a game.
Taking things for granted is what makes us lame.
Materialistic being one of the main characteristics of this modern day,
True feelings are not easily gained.

Why want to be outstanding?
As if being the norm is a sin.
Why not give your best?
At least you won't regret.
The contradiction of life..

And the questioning mind of ours,
Leads us to where we want to go,
And also mold our respective lives.
But don't forget it also brings trouble,
If we poke our nose at people's woes.

Words used as a tool,
Communication could be formed.
Lies could be made.
Love could be spread,
Hurt could be inflicted.
Misunderstandings could be solved.

Comes what may,
Proper thinking is the way.
For by the end of all the thorns,
A rainbow awaits you when else is gone..

~Taking it easy~

Been back for class for the 2nd day..Class is just,well,class..You get to concentrate when the sensei is teaching and tend to wander off in mind during class changing period...That's all..Some teachers are starting to teach faster because exam is near,some just gave us time to do our own revision..Like I said,class is just,well..class..

Today,I had another 'deep thoughts' session with Mr. Lawson.Meg,a Japanese Advanced student join in.I had a hard time doing translating but the exchange of view is pretty...amusing.I told him I felt that this China trip of mine changed my mind in some way,as in I start to slow down and relax a little rather than pushing myself too hard.I still do,in a way,push myself at times as seen in my previous blogs,but somehow,I know my limits already.And will try to do my best and not take failure so hard..Our sessions usually are more about our outlooks in life and today's session is more interesting because its Japanese-Malaysia-America cross cultural views exchange.It really made me ponder where do I see myself in say..5years time..

On a happier note,today I treat myself better and have my first Haagan-Dazs ice-cream.I might say its the first time I actually pay so much for such an expensive ice-cream.The best I had previously was Baskin Robbins..The flavour was Affogato,a very rich and creamy coffee ice-cream where the taste still lingers after half an hour of consumption.haha..I learned to treat myself better I guess,after all,no one would,could take care of myself better than I do right?I even have proper meals nowadays

A short story I enjoyed from the book I bought from China,all are good but today this was the best of the 5 short stories I read.Sorry,only in Mandarin..

你快乐吗？这个问候语现在已经像“吃了吗？”一样使用频繁。如今快乐已成了人们苦苦追求，却又求之不得的稀有珍宝。许多人已开始使用快乐的程度来衡量审视自己和他人的快乐指数。套用一个刚公布的计算公式：快乐=快乐的实现值-快乐的期望值。意思是如果期望值越高，那么快乐的程度就会越低。反之，亦然。

有时也问自己，你快乐吗？我好像没有精确的答案。因为自己总是处于一条此起彼伏曲曲折折的波浪线中，总是处于快乐、不快乐而又快乐这么一种状态中。为了快乐而努力的过程是充满期盼和激情的，到达快乐的目的地时，又觉得一切立刻归于平淡，快乐也随风而逝了。

自己是个喜欢回忆的人，闲的时候会对着天空静静发呆，随着天空掠过的浮云回味过往的经历。那时，会发现自己实际上只记住了那些快乐的往事，不快乐的记忆已经不知何时被自动过滤掉了。想来许多人都是如此，被生活累得疲惫不堪的我们，内心其实根本不愿意记住那些痛苦的往事，只把过去的快乐留在心底，用快乐的回忆，让现在的生活变得幸福点，轻松点。

有时觉得快乐是个很简单的事，只要把快乐的期望值降低些，快乐的感觉就会更强烈。根据测定的公式，期望值越低，快乐的程度就会越高，就如科学研究结果揭示：穷人的快乐值远远高于富人。因为穷人对生活没有太高的要求，只要吃饱穿暖就是幸福，就很快乐。可是富人不同，他们有太多地想法，太多的愿望，不断给自己追加更高更强的目标，也就随之降低了自身幸福和快乐的指数。

不知道自己应该羡慕富人还是穷人，其实，只要能找到自己的快乐就好。快乐真的很简单，它没有统一的标准，快乐的标准只在于每个人的心中，只要对生活，对自己不过于苛求，只要能做自己感觉快乐的事，过自己觉得幸福的生活，健健康康，平平安安，这样的人生我以为就是快乐。

快乐感悟：
心态决定命运，心态决定快乐的程度。不要对生活要求太多，知足常乐；不要对自己要求太高，平平淡淡也是幸福；不要对失败得失太看重，片刻的感受不能左右人生的旅途。抱着一份虔诚美好的愿望，守着一颗淡泊宁静地心，珍惜现在的幸福，人生就会快乐无限。

~The day before class starts~

It fells sick..the pre-class blues..It hit me after dinner..The whole day I was in my room preparing for my small test tomorrow,enjoying the quietness of the hostel and the limited freedom of still being able to do what I want before the Japanese students return to the hostel.Until after dinner... I can't take it anymore..

I can't study anymore,I felt very bery schmery tired..I can't take it that I have to go back to the competitive me,the kiasu me,and the me who wants to get everything done quickly,the me who still prefers not to speak in class..Gahhh,what the heck..I'M JUST FEELING REALLY BLUE!!!

I don't even have the energy to go berserk anymore..haiz...Going to bed early tonight..Goodbye my dearest summer hols...Til we meet again next year...down,blue,sad,depressed,emotional..what else...SIIIIIGGGGGGGHHHHHHH..

~Autumn~

This morning woke up,found that my handphone background has automatically changed to Autumn setting..A brand new season,a brand new month and a brand new outlook on life on my part..

I have no idea that those who likes Autumn is those who have deep thoughts,according to May Ching.Recently I have been doing a lot of thinking,so much so that I don't think it's healthy for me to think anymore..=).Reading my senior's blog,see how much effort he put in his studies in order to secure a place in a University..I felt like,damn,I need to put in A LOT of effort right now...

One more day before I start class on Monday...My last rest,last good sleep before I head on to a very busy September.Studying til late night these few days took my worries off about my future in this coming one year..Told SS roughly about my plans up til next year August,she just shakes her head and said:"Do you have to be so systematic and plan so much ahead?What about suprises in life??"

Sigh...I have to plan,cannot expect anymore fun other than the trips I have planned.Sounds as if I'm so pitiful,or trying to be?Think whatever you want,I don't want to be one,but until I secure a place in a University next year..I'm so not going to relax myself from Monday onwards..(In case some of you worry,fret not,I will not push myself up the wall,learned from SS,sometimes my actions of being too harsh to myself actually makes those around me worry..Sorry,if you guys are one of those..and thank you for caring.)