~Recently~

Recently I've been 'occupied' by my own preparations for exam.These days,I have the urged not to use the word 'busy' anymore.I noticed that most of the time when I blog,I usually tend to give others the impression that I'm busy,I'm stressed out etc,well of course,aside when I blog about my trips during my hols.

Something/someone made me think that maybe I tend to complaint too much.And it also made me wonder what,exactly is the purpose of my blog anyway..When I first started blogging,it was just some sort of a thrill,to start an online diary.I've enjoyed writing my thoughts in English since my secondary school days,no thanks to the handing up of Journals for English every week.(Remember Viv and YY??The guys at the back row just love to take our journals to read...haha)

Looking back at some of the entries,I was amazed at the length of my entries.I really salute Emerson and Abel for reading them back then..Comments were rare then,and my first faithful reader was Abel..It was kinda weird seeing that we seldom talk to each other in school but somehow became each other's loyal readers.Then I started to spread the word about blogging and I remembered even betting with Shengcui on getting Linges to blog.(Guess who's the winner???)

Those were the days..Fast forward today,my own blog has somehow gained some sort of unknown 'popularity' that I myself is amused.Friends aside,relatives and family of friends sometimes drop by to check-out my blog too..Posts which have no comments are a rarity these days.Not that I mind,reading comments when I'm down,it's a very good motivation and comfort.Sometimes,some comments really made me think about seeing things from another point of view..

These days,I've linked my blog to some of my juniors who are also currently studying in Japan.Reading their posts is really an eye-opener to me.Maybe because I seldom get the chance to read Chinese since I graduated from secondary school,reading their posts somehow brings some nostalgia,that I too,once loved my Mandarin lessons back then.Someone once told me that the image I gave people is that I'm more prone to the English side,that somehow its hard to relate me to Mandarin.True,I write better in English,feel more comfortable with reading English,but somehow...I speak better in Mandarin and felt comfortable conversing in Mandarin..If possible,I wish I could be good in both,but I also learned that there's no point in forcing,let everything take its course...

Well,I've done a lot of thinking these days,something I shouldn't be doing seeing that I should concentrate on my revisions.. and like I said before,because this blog is sometimes read by people who I don't have intention of hurting but end up misunderstanding my words,I'm learning to be careful with what I intend to post up nowadays without lacking the gist..As if there's any gist in this post..haha..Take care everyone,I'm off to war again...