~Omoshiroi~

Just went through a blog introduced by May Ching in my comment..And I suddenly have the urge to do some blogging again..After reading this blog,I'm seriously impressed by how a person 20 years of age can blog so well..I mean doesn't she have other things to do than to spend most of the time blogging?According to her own statement in one of her interviews(yes,she's so famous til she got interviewed by newspapers and all sorts of media),she blog almost 2 or 3 days once and my,do have a look and you'll noticed her blogs aren't short..But seriously,as a KL-sian I cannot stand what she said about KL in one of her blogs and some of the comments are,though rude,but it also states some truth in it.The main thing is,who is she to critise Malaysia Government and it's policy and tarnish our image til the extent that some tourist even cancelled their thoughts of coming to Malaysia?True,she met some unfortunate events while shopping in KL,but like what some commenters have stated,if one was to travel to a country,for heaven's sake,do some infomation checking first and go with an open mind!How can she condemn so hard upon facing some negative aspects of KL?And I actually wanted to commented on her information of shopping in KLCC and getting all the expensive food...Good gracious,only fools would do what she did.As I truly agree,if one was to dress like her,yet expect to travel,I say give me a break.If she likes shopping in Singapore so much and KL cannot suit her needs,selfishly said,why come to KL in the first place?You wanted cheap things yet unwilling to bear in mind not everything is set based on the Singapore currency and in Malaysia,do except that not everything is perfect..I seriously felt like screaming,C'mon get a life dearie!Though I do agree with the KL cabbies part..they are just terrible!But still,can't she put it in a more decent way to the extend that it doesn't trigger anger from the Malaysian's counterpart?Though she noted that it's her blog and she has the right to vent out her thoughts but then..She IS fully AWARE that her site is one of those visited by many no?So why write those things that can trigger lots of people's anger?

Been hanging out with Chee Wei at Times Square again.As usual,I started to noticed my deteriorating spoken English and Cantonese.Not that I speak English wth Chee Wei,but heck,I remembered during the time when I spoke to Brian,the Canadian I met in the bus,I've notced that I've started to stammer and stutter.This is bad,really bad..For the once speaking-English-fluently me is slowly succumb to God knows what..It's not as if I'm speaking Japanese fluently too.Why is it bad?Cuz this means I'm only half good in everything,never good in any!That's why I'm pretty frust right now.Remember the phrase "Jack of all skills but master of none"?I should just alter Jack to Kelly..Even Cantonese,I've got to switch to Mandarin alternatively to be able to conjure my ideas totally..It's..disappointing and frustrating to find that at this extent,19year old me is attempting,note TRYING to convey my ideas to others..shippai yona watashi..=(

Back to my hols..I've been watching Summer Snow and Beach Boys.Yeah,though Beach Boys is an old drama,but I've got no time to watch earlier on so..not to late to catch up I assume?Ok this time I've got to write out what I'm thinking,don't care if you all got things to say about it,these thoughts are triggered by watching too much drama=p..Seriously deep down in my heart,really really way deep down in my heart?I do want a bf..so what?I'm worried at this point cuz I'm 19 and have none.At first I worried not,cuz most Malaysians only found their respective other half at the age of say 19,20 or 21?I've seen many found only in their respective Universities where it was deemed,the right time,to do so..datte,during that time things are not so hectic and err..You'll be able to find the right person with the same education capabilities etc etc..So why I worry?That's because I'm going overseas thats why..People around me have been joking that I can always look for a Japanese boyfriend and I'll always smile in return,nodding in silence.Demo,is it that easy to coope with a foreigner?With the different mentality of thinking and living,reading that blog is a good example,even Singaporeans can't really accept the way we live though they are like,"just next-door",how are we to live with people more far off?That's why I've always hoped I'll get a Malaysian deep down inside but then,how many of them will I meet in Japan then?I worry too much?soukana..but that's what I've been doing lately,too free and give myself some rejuvinating time..mentally,though useless thinking to some but..oh well.Times in the Universities are too busy til I hardly have time to think otherwise so,yeah,I'm pretty much enjoying my hols,even if it meant helping my mum with her chores and idlying in front of the TV,this is bliss!!

~One week gone~

Yups,its gone..poof..Just like that..My one week of holidays officially ended today..Now is the time for me to carefully plan my other week of hols...NOT!!Actually I've not been doing a lot of planning for my hols this time around..Whatever turns up,I just do it..That's right..No plan,spontaneously doing verything..In a way,it's more relaxing and less time and energy consuming.By next week,I'm planning to go to Ipoh for a short visit to Chin Leong's place..Even though ironically I said it's a no planning holiday,but still it's hard to forgo my "Try-Malaysian's delicacies before leaving to Japan" policy..=p.Very very ironic of me.Err,how to put this,let's just say it doesn't really matter if I materialised my trip to Ipoh next week anymore..unlike last year,I'm too free during the hols and was super eager to explore the world (in this case,Malaysia) of what it has to offer to my new found freedome..Now,it's more like..It's pretty tiring in a way that,we're not actually travelling travelling,but travelling because its the thing one should do during the hols..arrghhh...its hard to put it in words..

Anyway,today I went to my mum's reunion with her F6 classmate who borught his wife and 18 year old son...It always happens with these first time meeting that they commented on how small I look..hmm,I knew I was small but never really gave it any noticed before this maybe because in Malaysia,small people is a norm?Anyhow,I did gave it a thought when I went to Singapore..Yes,I do envy taller people and those leggy normal-teenage gals..but what can I do?Seriously it's impossible for me to grow anymore already..So I tend to accept the way I am right now..If because of this I'll have a hard time looking for a boyfriend...so let it be..I have the tendecy to think that sometimes,believe it or not,eveything is fated..Anyhow,the rest of the hols..let things be?=)

Routines...

Instead of spending my hols travelling around,this time around....I've been doing more work...routines to be exact..After a long and tiring bus ride from Singapore on Tuesday,I've spent my Wednesday on getting my MyKad..Thank Goodness for that Aunty who gave me her number or else I'll rot til i die..Mum used to scold me that i obey the rules to strictly,unwilling to budge for fear it'll be my turn and miss it..I don't know why,I have the tendency to patiently wait til its my turn in everything..most of the time..Dumb?soukana...demo,no sometimes i dun see why not just follow the rules?Some might say Rules Are Made To Be Broken,but if so...why make them?
And today,after a goodnight rest..the throbbing headache of yesterday was gone,along with my flu(i sometimes really believe these Chinese medication works miracles..)so woke up early(actually mum dragged me up..=P)and went to GH with her to get my Medical Checkup done..After my trip from Singapore,I tend to compare Malaysian drivers and Singapore drivers and was really dissapointed to say that Malaysian drivers really lacked the basic courtesy and manners..and seriously,compare to our neighbouring country,Malaysain drivers is truly ruthless and reckless,impolite...the list can go on forever..Let me cite and example..Mum and I were having trouble looking for a parking and then congestions started at the narrow and the badly double parked cars made it difficult for us to make a detour..Cars start honning behind us when its only one way to or fro and there was a car coming in front..on our left there was a very narrow space where even our tiny Kancil won't be able to pass through..yet this imaptient Indian guy behind us was like having a good time playing with his Wira hon and was honning like crazy..so we let him try toget pa through the small lane on our left..that fella finally realised it was too narrow to ass through and then followed quietly behind us after we let the car pass through on the right..we were like fuming!!"stupid kek leng kia.."....
Well,after getting my license back (renew ni..dun worry..) and driving my brother to get dinner,again I met these lousy drivers who served out of the lane without any signal lights!!And they have the nerve to smile sheepishly at me..Watch where u are going lar Aunty....Singapore drivers on the other hand,drive really couteously and though fast,they seemed to have the skill to drive at the proper lane,stop at the pedestrian crossings etc..really..impressed to the max..and Singapore,hardly have any jam..really cool huh?And used to wonder why I never thought off staying in Singapore?Maybe the only ting is,the people there seems more cold and like the well known trait..kiasu?I'm not sure,but that's just me wondering...
The Medical Checkup today was pretty tiring..first of all,we parked a long way from the main building where we walked the long distance for enquiry only to find that the department we actually have to go is just next to the parking lot where we spend endless time finding and at last managed to park..After getting the form and paid the amount of RM70 (had to cross the road to pay ,go to the Paedetric Ward..) and I found Aqilah there too..how coincident..Of the 2 weeks,we went there the same time,place,day and hour,say I don't believe fate?No,I actually do..It's proven right now right?Anyway,after taking the 20minutes of blood test and eye test,we had to walk back the main building again!!To get the urine test..it doesn't end there,it was 11.15am...we had to get te X-ray at 2pm..And we had to walk another far distance to get it down at another department too...what is with the Malaysian Government?Can't they have proper planning and do everything at one place?Already they have this department to handle all these Government sponsored students and civil servant's medical checkup,why can't they put eveything in that building itself then?I seriously cannot understand the system here..Third class mentality?someone please explain????

~Shopping in Singapore~

I'm just back from a 3days 2 night shopping trip to Singapore with my mum..Fun?yeah...lots different thing we had done..as usual,will go step by step about our trip..(how boring of me..)

We arrived on Saturday morning after a super stupid ride..ever heard of "san gu lok po" (cantoneses)?i didn't actually know why this word was used to described Obasan until that "joyful" ride..Lucky us,my mum and i got to sit in front of a pair of obasan who chatted non stop,note NON STOP during our 6 hoursride to the Lion City..imagine that..and it was a midnght bus where everyone is trying to get some sleep cuz normal ppl's biological clock will automatically make them do so by that time..however,this 2 AUNTY's clock must have gone haywire or something..how can they chat non stop and without whispering too,for 5 hours?sleep oni for 1 hour ler!!omg...and the driver said we'll stop only for half an hour AUNTY,half and hour..not 1 hour!!arrghh...and they dare scold a guy next to me say his air-con blowing their diretion,.scolding him inconsiderate..what about them distrupting other ppl's sleep?goodness..simple things like that oso dunno...arrghh..even my mum can't stand them..

Well,we arrived at my relatives house at Guillemard Road,its' adjacent to Geylang Street so err....actually i can see the "gals" standng just 2 floors below,under the colourful neon lights..in the other wise dark narrow streets...I was first greeted by the barking dos and was really startled cuz,i'm AFRAID of dogs...especially barking ones..though they are super cute,but..that's about it..my relatives are super super nice ppl..and i felt really bad for arriving at their door in the wee hours of the morning..at5am..the rest of the morning was spent sleeping and then a short visit to Suntec City..dropped by my 27year old Uncle in his super cool car..I really admire him,at the age of 27,he has travelled to France,learning a year of French and next year,around the time when i'll leave for Japan..he'll go there too..to do farming kana...really salute him.He said he wanna gain more experience and exposure before tying the knot..mind you,he doesn't at all,looked like someone in his late twenties..respec giler in a sence that he actually take the effort to plan his trips wel,learn the language he plans to visit an have no airs though his parents are filthy rich...and pretty sociable i would say..

Where was i?oh yeah,Suntec city is a super posh shopping mall with 8,i think,towers..i missed the water front which,according to the leaflet says that it was recorded in the Guiness Book of World Records..for what?i forgotten..hehe..anyway,it was realy posh and the decor was unque and futuristic,so it is..as everyone can imagine,the ultimate shopping mall for high class or brand seeking ppl..not for nrmal peasants lke us..so off i go draggin mum to Chinatown..the same thing happened like last year when i visited this place,it was drizzling..it really dampens our mood to walk aoround avoiding the pitter-pattering of the ran but we braved it on..for the sake of shopping,being there and buying stuff..mum got quite a lot of things..haha..then went to this Plaza..and we tred this tu-tu cakes..it was nice!!i found it quite interesting at the way the lady made it so i bought it for the sake of its uniqueness and it was sweet and nice..not really filling but just..nice..haha..next we travelled to Little India,having to miss it last year..the funny thing is that when we took the transits and MRTs,we were figuring out why on earth does the Singapore Government wud like to waste the card-lke tickets in the bin?knowing that everything here is so efficient and systematic..cuz i have the EZ-Link card so i just topped it up whereas mum had to buy all the single trip tix..so we were figuring what to do with the tix wen mum threw 2 of it in the bin.. the next trip to Little India,after reading the instruction on the card only we knew we can get back a deposit of $1 when we insert back the card/tickets to the machine.."so that's why the trips were so expensive!!"we were crying out loud..silly us...wasted $2ler,sakit hati...anyway,mum got tired of walking so we went back in a cab..the thing wsted was,we only walked,a super market in Little India and we thought that was t!!silly us..on the way back in the cab,only we saw...the whole colourful row of "India",just like Chinatown..sigh sigh..waste our time went there without walking down..

THe thing about this trip is that,unlike last year,i'm going in a slower and more relaxed pace..though we visited oni mostly malls..there are lotsa and lotsa malls n Singapore,especially in Orchard Road..i've slowed down quite a lot of times so that mum can catch up and we went to lotsa shops with Aunty Mary who generously paid for every single clothing we bought...felt o bad that i din get the super nice jacket...felt bad mar,dun want her to pay so i said i dun want it..now regret...sigh sigh..i meant,dahlar saty at ppl's place..no point used so much of their money lar..still everone of us,including my sis and bro who is Malaysia,got at least some clothing..Singapore's food is getting better but my mum still said it's not nice..i dunno why..to me it tastes just fine..we feasted in luxurius restaurants though it doesn't really seems worth it cuz...its just plain Chinese food,with less oil and salt only..sigh..then,we spent most of the tme walking and strolling in Malls..the whole Sunday..not much to say lo...

WE made it back just now,taking the 12pm bus..i got to know this Canadian guy..thought mum kept on looking disapproving of him..she thought he was from Korea,fair and all but my huntch was right when he tol me he's from Canada..i again,respect this kinda ppl,dare to travel alone in a foreign country..i wanted to try that too but mum would never approve..bias?more of protecting me i suppose..wait til i get a boyfriend she likes to say,or travel at least in pairs..but then,we won't be able to expereince more and intereact with others no?wait til i'm in Japan...anway,i hope that gy an find his way to KLIA,cuz i think i gave him the wrong instructions,though i went the wrong way as well...sigh...i thought the LRT can join to KL Sentral mar.....how i know the one in Puduraya cannot?sorry man,sorry..

~home is where the heart is...~

Finally home after 2 weeks of war..as one of the sempai used to say,and i can still remember..(why do i like to quote them??=p)"when u reach second year,u'll get used to sleeping late.." though my "sleeping late" might be a vast difference from theirs but to me its more than enough for me to plan to take a full day sleep tomorow..but it'll be impossible cuz i have errands to run tomorrow..sigh,MyKad schmKad...Medical Checkup...thank goodness i've done my passport earlier or else i'll die...i've been sleeping around 12.30am to 1am these 2 weeks,waking up at 6am..its pretty tiring after all the mind grilling,sitting for exam,go back slee..read more...i'm going nuts but pulled through..ask to asnswer my seniors question...the senseis said this years Monbushyo Exam will be lots tougher this year since the sempais scored so well last year...sigh..more drilling then...and well,it's finally over..i dun think i'll do well this time,even sucked at my stupid kaiwa today..i can feel it..shoots...anyway,its over..for the time being..even the senseis,before letting u off for the hols told us to study more during the hols,citing the seniors were complaininglast year that after a week they tend to forget most of the language..so its like..."u all better do more revision during the hols,cuz when u come back we'll be teaching more new things and no time for any revision..."i was like.."aww come on,give us a break..."in my heart....

Anyway,nothing much happened during exam period...except the major Haze..it was really killing..dah-lah we all exam,then have to suffer setbacks from the stupid haze..it does make us realise however,how much we take things for granted,the clean air we breathe in usually,the clear water that runs through the tap..(made me wanna scold Min Ley sometimes for running the tap at full blast even though she's just washing her face...but as usual,its up to certain people with their own ways...)but now,reading the paper everyday,crisis after crisis starts to croope up and it start to make me thinking that we should really be more thrifty in more ways and u know,start...noticing..oh yeah,when i tend to be more tempremental like this,i hate it when ppl give me this kinda comment.."whoa..Lien Ghee wor,or...Kelly wor.."or some sarcastic ways like..i dunno..make u feel embarrased for thinking that way,like trying to be GOOD...is wrong to be Good for awhile?or is Good an abnormality?i often ponder..is life all about studies?and when we start to show that sometimes,like for example..i dun give a damn what to eat,as long as its full or...how long i'm gonna sleep as long as i've slept enough...or i dun feel like buying something cuz it's not worth it..i'm showing signs that i'm having problems?something is bothering me?yeah maybe..the fact that i've no idea what is fun for the time being...what is it that i've told my "pals" here that i decided to spend one of my 2 weeks hols to stay at home and cook variety of home-cooked food for my family that they go like.."unbelievable.."or like what Min Ley said" she's nuts.."yeah,i'm nuts...just like "'i'm nuts" thinking of doing a bit of study this 2 weeks..or "i'm nuts" for thinking of paying for Jenny at Xin Nings birthday.."i'm nuts" for caring too much wat ppl think of me etc etc..

I've got lotsa complain this week and yeah,tired as i am i've gotta say this..i really hate some ppl who seems to make ppl hurt so effortlessly..again..Min...yeah,she's one of the ppl which contribute a lot to my negativity..ever heard of "word are sharper than blade"?yeah it hurts..what is it that when we were hungry and she wanted to eat the Kebab in the canteen (a lot of them got food poisoning becase of it yet they still eat it...nice mar...)and i volunteered to share since she's not that hungey but felt like eating..the thing is i asked her to go and buy mar cuz i dun really wanna eat but help her finish..know what she said"we all share but i go and buy?go eat shit lar.." i was taken aback by how selfish she sound...note,did i complaint when i walked all the way to the Pasar Malam alone once,bought her dinner oso even she didn't wanted to go then?i offered to buy her dinner even though she didn't ask..all the way to Sri Rampai..or again,i washed the toilet al by myelf?swept the room for the upteenth time of the week with her barely lifting a finger and instead told me "dun sweep near my bag,taisetsu kara.."fine,i dun give a damn.maybe what Clement said is true,i'm over sensitive,care too much what pl thinks and do..yeah i admit i do care..and i cannot,seriously tolerate..sloth...well,i even stayed backed after school to study before exam,just to avoid being in the same room,facing the mountain pile of clothes and books strewn over the floor,chair,table..how can someone trip over her things over and over again and yet cannot get it that it's time to clean up and store some things away?why does ppl have to do laundry once in a full blue moon,and yet collect the laundry after for like a week or two,taking upall the places,leaving no other place for the other 3 ppl sharing the limited hanging place?i seriously cannot understand...i can only tolerate..cuz i've said enough already..

Holiday holiday...Usui Sensei and Yoshida Sensei told us not to waste time and must do some studying...yeah..if only i have my book right now...anyway,i feel like dying now..of exhaustion...oh my..fainting..

~Things on mind..~

I'm currently in the cc again,cuz i've slept enough the whole day.what happened?lots if i were to decribe in detail (which sorry readers,u know i love to do...=p)and so i'll start with today,hmm..I slept,left my handphone at my aunts place and hour ago..tomorrow have to attend my cousin's graduation day..My afternnon was spent sleeping and memorising the Speech which I cannot stand any longr and made changes to it..i mean,it was my speech alright but Matsuse change its contents so much,its almost not like mine anymore..so i gave him a call and..i suprised myself by speaking fluent Japanese..no pause no nothing,whoa..maybe its only beacuse i'm the phone,all the feeling of making ppl irritated while waiting for me to blurt out my stuff in chopping-pieces is not there..i talked with confidence(must be cuz i know my sis listening to me,perasan abit..got confidence,or maybe its Matsuse,he doen't care how bad i speak anyway..hehe)then,after confirming that i can actually alter the speech as much as i want,i went on with memorising it..proves to be tougher than the first one cuz after all,these sentences,unlike the first,is corrected a lot of times and seemed unfamiliar..and i dunno if i should say this but,Matsuse,he gave me the impression that,nanka..watashino kotoo konondeirunda...errm,not perasan but..hokano otoko to onajigurai teido,watashito bakari hanashitai koto ga watashino mimimni todoketa..tomodachi kara mosoushi,jibun no kansatsu karamo souda..kowaiii....jiman jyanai yo,atashi...tada..maa,onasukino karewa,yapari kana...

Now back to yesterdays issues then..There was lots happened yesterday..We had our super sempai back here to give us more insight of Japan..they were pretty nice and I went in to hear about Bushitsu,though still deciding if i should really take this road..remembering the poem The Road Not Taken..again,Bushitsu looked like the road which " looked grassy and wanted wear.."anyhow,what they told us is mostly what we already know..and though they shared a great deal with us about their experience in Japn,i still think like what the typical too-much thinking me like to think,no matter how much they share,it's still up to us to experience everything ourselves..nothing they say can actually prevent and mishaps or mis-preparation when we go there,no matter how many times we'll check our luggage then...but then again that's just me thinking..Got to meet the famous (just me again..) Koek Seng Chye sempai,who seemed a lot friendlier then i thought he would be..i mean,in the yahoo groups he seemed lots,stricter..my mistake,he was nice..so is the rest of the sempai,except for one Malay Sempai who kept on wanting to know me,take my pic..(dun you go laughing May Ching..)

The bunpo lesson with Uematsuse sensei is really a though provoking one..again,its hard to describe in words but it was really "a soup for the soul",nuturing the tired soul and mind of mine..cuz it really made us thought about what is life?the usual,what does life take you and where u want it to lead you etc..all i know,it was a memorable lesson..like what a senior once told me,listen more to this sensei,for he'll teach you a lot of things that you'll really appriciate in time to come...how true that is..i'm at peace with myself,so though i'm frustrated that i cannot get as good results as min ley or whoever else,i tried my best..like the lesson i came to learn when the kohai of mine tried to commit suicide?i wrote my views in my journal and i was reminded that there are too much things to explore in the world for me to explore and experience in time to come than to wallow over things that cannot be changed..setbacks in life is the things we have to face,as this is after all life..think fast forward 10years from now,we won't be even bothered how well we scored at that certain exam or that someone in particular we are pissed of with..so..peace within?i found it..for the time being anyway..

Yesterday,after school Clement,Min Ley and i went to Zouk,or at least the place but not stepping in..first we were too early,so we went walking to KLCC..after pacing for while,getting nothing but lost in the group of ppl..and well,i realise i've been very cold to Min Ley nowadays,but we were back to our old selves yesterday while Clement went of to get his stuff..well,i came to realise i'm the one who changed the most anyway..maybe to her..i was a very active,noisy gal when i first came in PPKTJ,now..haha..i'm back to the almost silent person of my secondary school days..i just dun have the energy to be so jovial as i used to be in the first year,everything is saturated now..and i'm just more quiet but busy with homework and not thinking too much..think too much will not help achieve anything thats why..haha.so i can see her writing furiously in her diary in the room everyday.about me?maybe..but who cares,i prefer working alone anyway..seriously,i dun have the energy to please her that much anymore,cuz everything i said will be taken the wrongway..so,i'll do more studying..haha..hard to explain the situation here..i dun feel like doing much talking nowadays unless neccesary...end of story..

~A New Friend Made~

"How ironic of me.."i thought for the upteenth time today...i call myself not socialable yet today i just made a new friend..his name is Zhen Chi..or i think..cuz he told me in Chinese and this is a direct ranslation from it...it might be the Speech contest that proned me to actually say anything but..to clear the air i'll go step by step..
It happened today around 1.15pm..With Min Ley out to lunch and i din manage to ask her to pack for me,i went to the cafe behind the mosque to have my lunch..(which is a very mezurashi koto..since i've cut down on eating full lunch..usually munching on biscuits..)and Halim and Zulkamal just finish their lunch,kohai's table packed so..i ended up on a table with this Chinese guy...we started of eating in silence until it might seemed unbearable not to talk during lunch to him so..haha..he asked something like this..
"YOu first year??never seen u before?"as if he knows every Chinese in the whole UTM...anyway
"No,i'm actually in the second year..err...u ler??"
"YOU?SECOND YEAR??"ok,marks deducted..but i smiled on.."Yeah..."
"Oh,which course?....."and the list goes on...
Mind you,this is not a downhill conversation..it was so pleasant in fact i was glad i made the sudden trip today..I actually forgot how nice it was to get to know a new friend..maybe we are too locked up to our own safe womb,oblivious to the surroundings and fail to realise that besides us,there are other ppl living their lives too..how engrossed are we in our daily live here in PPKTJ??which shows how "mechanical" i've turned..bury myself with workload for exam is near again...why is it so fast?spend 2 weeks studying for that one lousy 1 hour paper...arrghhhh..
side track,side track...anyway,about the speech thing in the beginning of this blog...i think it might be also i'm practising my speech in reality,namely,to treasure every "meetings" in life..even though i might not see this guys again (considering the fact that UTM IS a huge place..)i was glad i got to know someone new,to make friends...hmm...and ppl wonder why i grinned the whole day like a mad gal today..haha..anyhow,it dows breathe something new to my dull life...
Oh.the main gist of this blog..not only the new friend...is that actually one of the Kohai..note,big news coming..TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE!!!!and its a guy too..according to some of my year,who stayed in the opposite room..said he was talking to his mum on the phone when he sliced his wrist..ouch..and told his mum.."i dun feel any pain oso.."spooky....they said he was homesick but then soon it turned out that he felt pressured..he was one of those super quiet ones and when the other kohai tried to approach him beginning of their sememster,he shunned away from them so they left him alone..Pn Ros said he was lonely and might be he is a perfectionist and when din manage to score well for the recent exam..he...thank goodness his roommate found him and sent him to the hospital..he was warded in the physchiatric ward before coming back yesterday..Sad case really but i salute him for having the courage...not that i encourage that kind of act but...i actually thought so myself too..in my life til today,i seriously gave it a thought 3 times..and one of them is when i'm here..sad huh? But i always managed to pull myself from doing such silly acts,remiding myself...no one will aprreciate myself doing such stupid acts and besides,i have the world to see..even if the ppl i'm with now doesn't really like me or approve what i am doing..i dun give a damn,there are lots more beautiful things in the world for me to appreciate and vice versa..so..i'm not going to die..even if i usually cried out loud"i wanna die arr.."haha..exas,really stressful...sighhhhh