~Things on mind..~

I'm currently in the cc again,cuz i've slept enough the whole day.what happened?lots if i were to decribe in detail (which sorry readers,u know i love to do...=p)and so i'll start with today,hmm..I slept,left my handphone at my aunts place and hour ago..tomorrow have to attend my cousin's graduation day..My afternnon was spent sleeping and memorising the Speech which I cannot stand any longr and made changes to it..i mean,it was my speech alright but Matsuse change its contents so much,its almost not like mine anymore..so i gave him a call and..i suprised myself by speaking fluent Japanese..no pause no nothing,whoa..maybe its only beacuse i'm the phone,all the feeling of making ppl irritated while waiting for me to blurt out my stuff in chopping-pieces is not there..i talked with confidence(must be cuz i know my sis listening to me,perasan abit..got confidence,or maybe its Matsuse,he doen't care how bad i speak anyway..hehe)then,after confirming that i can actually alter the speech as much as i want,i went on with memorising it..proves to be tougher than the first one cuz after all,these sentences,unlike the first,is corrected a lot of times and seemed unfamiliar..and i dunno if i should say this but,Matsuse,he gave me the impression that,nanka..watashino kotoo konondeirunda...errm,not perasan but..hokano otoko to onajigurai teido,watashito bakari hanashitai koto ga watashino mimimni todoketa..tomodachi kara mosoushi,jibun no kansatsu karamo souda..kowaiii....jiman jyanai yo,atashi...tada..maa,onasukino karewa,yapari kana...

Now back to yesterdays issues then..There was lots happened yesterday..We had our super sempai back here to give us more insight of Japan..they were pretty nice and I went in to hear about Bushitsu,though still deciding if i should really take this road..remembering the poem The Road Not Taken..again,Bushitsu looked like the road which " looked grassy and wanted wear.."anyhow,what they told us is mostly what we already know..and though they shared a great deal with us about their experience in Japn,i still think like what the typical too-much thinking me like to think,no matter how much they share,it's still up to us to experience everything ourselves..nothing they say can actually prevent and mishaps or mis-preparation when we go there,no matter how many times we'll check our luggage then...but then again that's just me thinking..Got to meet the famous (just me again..) Koek Seng Chye sempai,who seemed a lot friendlier then i thought he would be..i mean,in the yahoo groups he seemed lots,stricter..my mistake,he was nice..so is the rest of the sempai,except for one Malay Sempai who kept on wanting to know me,take my pic..(dun you go laughing May Ching..)

The bunpo lesson with Uematsuse sensei is really a though provoking one..again,its hard to describe in words but it was really "a soup for the soul",nuturing the tired soul and mind of mine..cuz it really made us thought about what is life?the usual,what does life take you and where u want it to lead you etc..all i know,it was a memorable lesson..like what a senior once told me,listen more to this sensei,for he'll teach you a lot of things that you'll really appriciate in time to come...how true that is..i'm at peace with myself,so though i'm frustrated that i cannot get as good results as min ley or whoever else,i tried my best..like the lesson i came to learn when the kohai of mine tried to commit suicide?i wrote my views in my journal and i was reminded that there are too much things to explore in the world for me to explore and experience in time to come than to wallow over things that cannot be changed..setbacks in life is the things we have to face,as this is after all life..think fast forward 10years from now,we won't be even bothered how well we scored at that certain exam or that someone in particular we are pissed of with..so..peace within?i found it..for the time being anyway..

Yesterday,after school Clement,Min Ley and i went to Zouk,or at least the place but not stepping in..first we were too early,so we went walking to KLCC..after pacing for while,getting nothing but lost in the group of ppl..and well,i realise i've been very cold to Min Ley nowadays,but we were back to our old selves yesterday while Clement went of to get his stuff..well,i came to realise i'm the one who changed the most anyway..maybe to her..i was a very active,noisy gal when i first came in PPKTJ,now..haha..i'm back to the almost silent person of my secondary school days..i just dun have the energy to be so jovial as i used to be in the first year,everything is saturated now..and i'm just more quiet but busy with homework and not thinking too much..think too much will not help achieve anything thats why..haha.so i can see her writing furiously in her diary in the room everyday.about me?maybe..but who cares,i prefer working alone anyway..seriously,i dun have the energy to please her that much anymore,cuz everything i said will be taken the wrongway..so,i'll do more studying..haha..hard to explain the situation here..i dun feel like doing much talking nowadays unless neccesary...end of story..