Finally home after 2 weeks of war..as one of the sempai used to say,and i can still remember..(why do i like to quote them??=p)"when u reach second year,u'll get used to sleeping late.." though my "sleeping late" might be a vast difference from theirs but to me its more than enough for me to plan to take a full day sleep tomorow..but it'll be impossible cuz i have errands to run tomorrow..sigh,MyKad schmKad...Medical Checkup...thank goodness i've done my passport earlier or else i'll die...i've been sleeping around 12.30am to 1am these 2 weeks,waking up at 6am..its pretty tiring after all the mind grilling,sitting for exam,go back slee..read more...i'm going nuts but pulled through..ask to asnswer my seniors question...the senseis said this years Monbushyo Exam will be lots tougher this year since the sempais scored so well last year...sigh..more drilling then...and well,it's finally over..i dun think i'll do well this time,even sucked at my stupid kaiwa today..i can feel it..shoots...anyway,its over..for the time being..even the senseis,before letting u off for the hols told us to study more during the hols,citing the seniors were complaininglast year that after a week they tend to forget most of the language..so its like..."u all better do more revision during the hols,cuz when u come back we'll be teaching more new things and no time for any revision..."i was like.."aww come on,give us a break..."in my heart....
Anyway,nothing much happened during exam period...except the major Haze..it was really killing..dah-lah we all exam,then have to suffer setbacks from the stupid haze..it does make us realise however,how much we take things for granted,the clean air we breathe in usually,the clear water that runs through the tap..(made me wanna scold Min Ley sometimes for running the tap at full blast even though she's just washing her face...but as usual,its up to certain people with their own ways...)but now,reading the paper everyday,crisis after crisis starts to croope up and it start to make me thinking that we should really be more thrifty in more ways and u know,start...noticing..oh yeah,when i tend to be more tempremental like this,i hate it when ppl give me this kinda comment.."whoa..Lien Ghee wor,or...Kelly wor.."or some sarcastic ways like..i dunno..make u feel embarrased for thinking that way,like trying to be GOOD...is wrong to be Good for awhile?or is Good an abnormality?i often ponder..is life all about studies?and when we start to show that sometimes,like for example..i dun give a damn what to eat,as long as its full or...how long i'm gonna sleep as long as i've slept enough...or i dun feel like buying something cuz it's not worth it..i'm showing signs that i'm having problems?something is bothering me?yeah maybe..the fact that i've no idea what is fun for the time being...what is it that i've told my "pals" here that i decided to spend one of my 2 weeks hols to stay at home and cook variety of home-cooked food for my family that they go like.."unbelievable.."or like what Min Ley said" she's nuts.."yeah,i'm nuts...just like "'i'm nuts" thinking of doing a bit of study this 2 weeks..or "i'm nuts" for thinking of paying for Jenny at Xin Nings birthday.."i'm nuts" for caring too much wat ppl think of me etc etc..
I've got lotsa complain this week and yeah,tired as i am i've gotta say this..i really hate some ppl who seems to make ppl hurt so effortlessly..again..Min...yeah,she's one of the ppl which contribute a lot to my negativity..ever heard of "word are sharper than blade"?yeah it hurts..what is it that when we were hungry and she wanted to eat the Kebab in the canteen (a lot of them got food poisoning becase of it yet they still eat it...nice mar...)and i volunteered to share since she's not that hungey but felt like eating..the thing is i asked her to go and buy mar cuz i dun really wanna eat but help her finish..know what she said"we all share but i go and buy?go eat shit lar.." i was taken aback by how selfish she sound...note,did i complaint when i walked all the way to the Pasar Malam alone once,bought her dinner oso even she didn't wanted to go then?i offered to buy her dinner even though she didn't ask..all the way to Sri Rampai..or again,i washed the toilet al by myelf?swept the room for the upteenth time of the week with her barely lifting a finger and instead told me "dun sweep near my bag,taisetsu kara.."fine,i dun give a damn.maybe what Clement said is true,i'm over sensitive,care too much what pl thinks and do..yeah i admit i do care..and i cannot,seriously tolerate..sloth...well,i even stayed backed after school to study before exam,just to avoid being in the same room,facing the mountain pile of clothes and books strewn over the floor,chair,table..how can someone trip over her things over and over again and yet cannot get it that it's time to clean up and store some things away?why does ppl have to do laundry once in a full blue moon,and yet collect the laundry after for like a week or two,taking upall the places,leaving no other place for the other 3 ppl sharing the limited hanging place?i seriously cannot understand...i can only tolerate..cuz i've said enough already..
Holiday holiday...Usui Sensei and Yoshida Sensei told us not to waste time and must do some studying...yeah..if only i have my book right now...anyway,i feel like dying now..of exhaustion...oh my..fainting..
歌如人生
5 years ago
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Hey girl! Don't say you are dying laa...then what about the rest of us here? Yea, you sound really frustrated and more moody nowadays. It's not really the Lien Ghee I know last time. What's with the big changes? Or am I too sensitive? I guess NOT! Even all our pals back here think you are really pale-looking and seem to be suffering a lot...Don't pressure yourself too much. We are always here to give you full support! *CHEER UP*
Anyway, since you are living in a hostel, every dorm mates have to tolerate with each others. It's a kind of training for whatever reason it is and most of all, you will have to face this when you enter Uni. So, why not try to accept your dorms' deeds instead of keep on complaining? Anyhow, you still have to live together for another half a year. Sometimes, life isn't always smooth...ohh,i better stop my crapping from going any longer...piss off here then~!
okok...i'm trying here..thats why i kept quiet,but here cannot lar..i have to put it down somewhere lar..since i dun write a diary..this is the oni place i can go.!$@^@%&#%& ma...hehe...thanks for your support gal..
sniff* i sorta terasa oso.. cos im one of those who were surprised by ur sudden affection for ur family.. maybe cos i've never seen tht family part in u before.. though i know tht u care about them in ways diff from normal ppl.. er, u know wat i mean.. sorry..
on the other hand, try 2 chill out during this hols k.. dun bring ur sour face frm times sq back to home yah.. (i know) n hor, even ur frens think tht u r pale.. forget about books, forget about everything..(except me la..:p) eat more, dun give weight any damn.. ~take carez~
Long and frustrating...(i meant your temper) Well, it all comes to this day...not that I wanna say anything negative to add up to yours...but with another 6 more months to go, roomates seem to start having serious problems...(if u don't know, it happened to us senior too...u should know who-who la..)I dont think your being too sensitive, just that sometimes, say it out, don't keep it if u just can't....u promised to last the entire year, but with another 6 more months to go & u r already on the verge of having schizopherenic....better do something to face it then...anyway, since monkasyou will be 'harder', good luck then! C ya in Japan!
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