~A New Friend Made~

"How ironic of me.."i thought for the upteenth time today...i call myself not socialable yet today i just made a new friend..his name is Zhen Chi..or i think..cuz he told me in Chinese and this is a direct ranslation from it...it might be the Speech contest that proned me to actually say anything but..to clear the air i'll go step by step..
It happened today around 1.15pm..With Min Ley out to lunch and i din manage to ask her to pack for me,i went to the cafe behind the mosque to have my lunch..(which is a very mezurashi koto..since i've cut down on eating full lunch..usually munching on biscuits..)and Halim and Zulkamal just finish their lunch,kohai's table packed so..i ended up on a table with this Chinese guy...we started of eating in silence until it might seemed unbearable not to talk during lunch to him so..haha..he asked something like this..
"YOu first year??never seen u before?"as if he knows every Chinese in the whole UTM...anyway
"No,i'm actually in the second year..err...u ler??"
"YOU?SECOND YEAR??"ok,marks deducted..but i smiled on.."Yeah..."
"Oh,which course?....."and the list goes on...
Mind you,this is not a downhill conversation..it was so pleasant in fact i was glad i made the sudden trip today..I actually forgot how nice it was to get to know a new friend..maybe we are too locked up to our own safe womb,oblivious to the surroundings and fail to realise that besides us,there are other ppl living their lives too..how engrossed are we in our daily live here in PPKTJ??which shows how "mechanical" i've turned..bury myself with workload for exam is near again...why is it so fast?spend 2 weeks studying for that one lousy 1 hour paper...arrghhhh..
side track,side track...anyway,about the speech thing in the beginning of this blog...i think it might be also i'm practising my speech in reality,namely,to treasure every "meetings" in life..even though i might not see this guys again (considering the fact that UTM IS a huge place..)i was glad i got to know someone new,to make friends...hmm...and ppl wonder why i grinned the whole day like a mad gal today..haha..anyhow,it dows breathe something new to my dull life...
Oh.the main gist of this blog..not only the new friend...is that actually one of the Kohai..note,big news coming..TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE!!!!and its a guy too..according to some of my year,who stayed in the opposite room..said he was talking to his mum on the phone when he sliced his wrist..ouch..and told his mum.."i dun feel any pain oso.."spooky....they said he was homesick but then soon it turned out that he felt pressured..he was one of those super quiet ones and when the other kohai tried to approach him beginning of their sememster,he shunned away from them so they left him alone..Pn Ros said he was lonely and might be he is a perfectionist and when din manage to score well for the recent exam..he...thank goodness his roommate found him and sent him to the hospital..he was warded in the physchiatric ward before coming back yesterday..Sad case really but i salute him for having the courage...not that i encourage that kind of act but...i actually thought so myself too..in my life til today,i seriously gave it a thought 3 times..and one of them is when i'm here..sad huh? But i always managed to pull myself from doing such silly acts,remiding myself...no one will aprreciate myself doing such stupid acts and besides,i have the world to see..even if the ppl i'm with now doesn't really like me or approve what i am doing..i dun give a damn,there are lots more beautiful things in the world for me to appreciate and vice versa..so..i'm not going to die..even if i usually cried out loud"i wanna die arr.."haha..exas,really stressful...sighhhhh