~Word to self~

Today is 1st of September..Up til yesterday I was still in a semi-holiday mood,as in doing my research half a day,go to work the other 4 more hours then spent the rest of the night chatting with friends.But that was yesterday..

Today onwards,I have to sum up my work,discuss with my lecturer on what to do next,translate the long-awaited English thesis into Japanese,make slide shows etc.It sounds pretty easy,but I wonder why it takes me such a long time to do it.Nah,I think I have the answer.It's because I lacked the passion to do it.Simple as that.

People say when you know the root of your so-called problems,you can solve them.

But..what happens if,subconsciously you are trying to avoid dealing with it?

Simple answer again..Things won't get done.
Yea,things won't get done unless I start doing it vigorously.I have to stop procrastinating and start to work my ass off..If I want to have my pre-planned vacation that is..

I do,I really do wanna go..

But hell,guilt is so killing me and giving me a headache..I need to work harder then..
I think too much but not working hard enough
Being me is sooo not easy..lol..