~Rainy season~

Ever notice that as it gets warmer,when Spring slowlys walks away and Summer stepping in,there's always some pitter-patter that goes along with it?Ever notice that during this time of the year,the weather seems very similar to Malaysia?The rainy season in Japan,is known as 梅雨 and it falls between the exchange from Spring to Summer,where it gets from warm to hot..

Why suddenly talk about rain huh?You might wonder..It might be because of the similarity of this rainy season with Malaysia's weather,the warmth and temprature,just the right 'feel'..It might be because of the similarity,so much so that it made me think of going home..Why do people say when it rains,one would get emotionally sad,I used to wonder,for I loved the rain in Malaysia..But know,I seemed to more or less understand...

Because of this weather(and maybe part of the reason that I've just finished exam and feel mentally tired),I suddenly have the thought of 'what if' again.. What if I'm not in Japan,and I could be for my friend when he needed me most?What if it is not Japan that I've reached,that I should further my studies in UM?What if.....I'm not going back to Malaysia til July 2009...

Being here in Japan,you could predict almost everything.You could plan your hols 2years ahead,1year ahead etc.Because the Japanese like to 'Plan well',to make sure that everything goes well,to ensure that accidents are decreased to the lowest percentage.So much so that when accidents do happen,they got their shocked of their life..

And thus,because I am in Japan,I have to learn to plan as well..I have to plan to take responsibility for my actions.My main dilemma of planning is the choice I have to make.Should I get into a averagely good University with a sensei' s recommendation letter and save the time and pressure studying so hard for the next 1 year plus get to go back by July 2008,or I should study hard and get into the top Engineering/Technology University in Japan, but in exchange,not go back to Malaysia til 2009 July?

The only difference is once I passed the recommendation interview,I couldn't accept nor chose other Universities..But should I forego recommendation, and take entrance tests for the University of my choice (and other Univerities as well),it means I have to study for the rest of my time here until I pass next year..Tell me,how long could you stand studying non stop???
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Guess,it's up to how badly to I want to go to that 'TOP' U huh??
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How I wish I'm back at my window sill,sitting and staring at the rain in my room at the age of 14,just listening to the patter of the rain and sucking in the fresh cold air along with it...