~I'm back~

It's 9.20pm.Just had dinner with Mr. Lawson,Hirai Sensei,Soo,Shiori,Wakebe at Akindo Sushi..After dinner,I've been in a daze til now..I'm so dead tired after studying til midnight and waking up at 5am..(my neighbour woke me up with her door banging..shit)..Blur..

Exam finally finished today.Sorry for the lack of updates,I've been studying for the exam 3weeks ago,either that or my small tests..This is my 4th year life..BUSY..Numerous times I've thought of updating but I just couldn't find the mood or time to do so..

Of course,loads of things have happened.The most recent one(excluding my exam)is my dearest friend's sister sudden death.I was really depressed after hearing the news..I..I..was for the first time,lost at words of what to say to my friend..It hurt me so much to see what he have to go through..

I've met her once,and instantly I felt she's someone sweet and nice.That was in April 1st 2004,my one and only image of her.Although I don't know her that well,but I was really sad to hear the news,especially since she's my friend's sister..Be strong man..be strong..(if you're reading this)

Life....a never ending circle..along the way,we meet a lot of people,get and lose a lot of things,experience a lot of sweet and sour..So far human beings have faced and overcome lots of hurdles and obstacles,but sad to say some prevail,some don't.

Often I've thought,why do I complain anyway?Have I not gotten what I want and blessed with a lot of things in life that others couldn't get?Have I not met a lot of happiness and chances and interesting people,who cherish me as much as I do with them?So why,I ask myself at times,do I complain anyway?I have the right not to be satisfied,if it is to push myself to strive for the better.But nowadays,more often than not,I found myself to say 'muri muri'(impossible!impossible!),the way the Japanese do..I should not say impossible knowing the fact that no matter how difficult things in life seems to be,"When there's a will,there's a way"..

It's just one of those days,with fatigue and melanchonic music surrounding me right now..I feel really ...not myself..Don't worry,I'll be up and about by tomorrow..RIP gal,rest in peace...