~FUN??!!!?~

What is the meaning of fun i wonder?was it the dinner on Chap Goh Mei with the seniors who are going to leave soon??or was it a call to a long lost friend?or the farewell dinner i've been so looking forward to tomorrow??i dunno..for all i know,all these seems pretty baseless and not meaningful for the time being..what is life??i usually ponder,and i know i'm not the only one pondering this question for a long time...for all i know,going through all the usual routine IS the only mission we have in life..sigh..i'm seriously pretty stress up right now,even having dengue was the least of my worries...who would have thought there's so much to do for the dinner tomorrow??i confused myself with the figures and responsibilities thrust at me..what REALLY is my responsibility i really wonder??to help a friend in need or to sit back and study for me exam today(i din do well cuz)...i chose the former...really,is it my fault or anyone's to blame???guess its just myself..really,this chapter is killing me...missing lessons is one thing,having to attend a meeting,had to skip lunch to study for this stupid one chapter is another...ah well,it was over..as usual,i predicted low marks compare to the ppl u know who..sigh..stess out..have to pay the hotel tomorrow,go to the bank early in the morning..get the roses..stuffs,so many things,so little time..just hope everythinmg turns out great..how ironic it is,in order to make it a successful ecent,dunno how many ppl have to do so much and effort in it..just hope that sucess is sweet..i really pity,no,i understand May Ching's predicament now,and to think i am complaining while she is the director..how much more and heavier a burden she's carrying...sigh..

well,exam really is close and i'm damn freaking out..so,study now???nah,i'm looking forward to the event tomorrow..the others..i see a very lonely corner in my room and therefore,being a nice person,ichuck my problems and worries there for the moment..until i retrieve u,stay put ya "problem and worries"..thank you..did i mention,being a good friend is so not easy????i tried and tried but being a good friend to an emoional person is so not easy,really testing my limits..but then again,like what Alex said...hehe..i AM a very patient person,guess have to watch what i say around her..again,SIGH....fun??what fun???taking a step at a time lo..what the hell..

The seniors are leaving at the end of next month..really gonna miss them..not ppl in specification,but their exisitence..really..so nice,they have a bunch of 20 plus chinese while we only have a mere 12..and oni 5 gals,imagine that..can be really boring i would say.thats why i really enjoyed the Chap Goh Mei dinner with them,had a really cool game too..and so...relaxing and what you call that..nigiyaka.really,its was...FUN..yeah,i know not all of them click with each other but still,they can gather together and hang out..it was really nice...so,though i was late back that day (had math quiz the next day too),ireally enjoyed the large company..imagine,3cars full in one small room..haha...anyway,all in all..my legs are still "rashy",and i've not been getting enough sleep lately (thanks to myself and my roommates' set-to-early alarm clock) and i'm really freaking stress out..summary,done..the end.

~back to School~

yups,i'm back to school..early monday morning,mum actually fetched me all the way from home after dropping siblings..well,as expected,lots of ppl asked how was i doing,and the best and shortest answer..:i'm ok d"..hehe..well,its kinda nice that a lot ppl care for u but the thing is really have to each and every one of the questions is a kinda hassle,i think..hehe..like, ermm.:i'm not that fine yet,still have to go back to the hospital for blood test..."isn't it a bit too long??anyhow,class was fast,and before i knew it,it was time for me for my check up again..mum was an angel,waiting for me in school again,and off we went to the now-familiar hospital..

the results..at last!!!that was the last day i need to go,as i was deemed stabilised d!!hurray!!!i was jumping with glee and mum was like:u nuts??:anyhow,i was so glad,that though dinner was terrible,i enjoyed it anyhow..haha..even sms-ed a few close friends to share the news..(gotta control di,the credit i'm currently using is way pass my own...tariff??)anyhow,was just glad i need not to be poked or pricked by the dangerous needles anymore..a total of 11 times now..great..til now,my hands are still bruised,blue black with all the needle pricking..hehe..i'm now quite well,cheers to antibody..but there's still spots on my legs..hate it,its hideous!!well,its a good experience anyway..for now,its back to school..lots of homework to catch up and quizes,exam around the corner..great!(not!)hate exams..pressure pressure..die die...choy,just cure from dengue..ok then,good luck to myself..until the next time..mata.

~For Once Sleeping Is NO Bliss~

that's because its wat i do for the pass few days..i got the stupid,eejit DENGUE fever that's why..off all ppl!!!and i think i got it most probably in my mum's hometown..wasn't really feeling well di,got a doctor's prescribition and was feeling lots better until...haiz,due to my strategic sitting in class,my decreasing fever again raise to an alarming tempreture..thought i was better when i again popped my fever drugs until the damn thing didn't work at the fever rose at night..feeling hopelessly sick,i called mum..was in a sense of doubt at that time cuz i just felt strangely cold,but did it anyway..like all mum,mine is a lso a worry-wart so,she offered to pick me up from the hostel to go homw..after some negotiations,i stayed in the hostel..but barely 2 minutes later,she called again..this time i gave in ...

After a good night's sleep at home,i felt lots better and was preparing to go to school..until suddenly nausea hit me and i can barely walk..i collapsed at mum's bed..so,the plan was altered and off i went to PPUM,University Malaya Medical Centre..after waiting for more than 3 hours,finally got to see the doc,and blood test were down..great,i was suspected of Dengue,the proffesor was called and yeah,more blood test,for German Measels,etc..finally,after dwadling for 5 hors,sleeping on the cold room on the bed,i finally got home..all the hassle,really exhausting..i have no appetite at all,barely touched any food except for dinner,which was steamboat..after bath,it sorta got worst,the whole bod heat up..and again,i dosed off..

that was pretty much wat i do,sleep,eat more sleeping..suprisingly i can still sleep after such long hours of sleeping..this morning,again,another visit to the hospital to have my blood test..argghh,they cannot find my vein again,and poke my twice again..total,6times in 2 days wen i actually needed oni 3!!where are they gonna poke tmr????=(..now wat really worries me is my loads of homework,the disadvantage of being in a intensive course is that miss out classes,bam...u have lots of catching up to do..n homework too...test..arrghhhhh..great,i'll just worry bout that later than..hmm..all to be said,hopefully it'll get better on monday,can't afford tyo lose anymore classes..for now,where's my alamine lotion..the itch i realllllllyyyy killing..

~Valentines Day~

hey,i'm back after a long week at my mum's hometown..so what if its oni TV,TV n more TV??i truly enjoyed myself with the company of my relatives,the ever cheerful and noisy children..the day we head to my mum's hometown,i even got to drive at the "kampung" road which was deemed more dangerous than the highway..i was like,so excited cuz i managed to drive from there till home..got to cut a lot of cars too..whew,the thrill of it..haha..again,nobody might understand my excitement but hey,this is the first time i'm driving on a long journey,on a narrow road to top it all..hehe

Chinese Ne Year,the usual gambling,TV,eating..etc..on the 10th of Feb,my birthday,which coincidently is both my lunar birthday n my...ermm..english birthday,i received lots of sms by the stroke of midnight..i was so happy!!so many sms,even from friends i have no idea they remember my birthday..too bad my handphone have limited spaces,felt so heavy hearted to delete some of the messages..hmm..but was happy they remembered.then on that day itself,i went to Ipoh to look for a friend who showed me around,whole mum went to visit her relative n friend's mum..too bad i manged to go oni to 2 caves before she called me back..cuz its quite a distance to travel back to Ayer Tawar so..so nice of Chin Leong to treat me for everything and showing me round..not a bad person he is actually..th enext day had a lovely time at Teluk Batik beach..but mostly it was me looking after 5 year old Kang Kang..but i enjoyed it so..hehe.he's soooo cute..

too bad wen i came back on Sat,cuz mum started travelling at 4am,so though i had a towel with me (din bring my jacket home)the air-con was cold enough to kill my immune system by half..by the time i reached home,i was so tired,n sleepy,n by the time i swept the whole house,off i went to bed..oni to wake up..with a high fever n flu and diarrhoe..great huh??so for the next 2 days,i'm lazing around half dead,body felt hopelessly weak with a stupid headache..finally drag myself to see the doc yesterday after the doses of panadol didn't work..suprisingly,the medication that the dic gave worked miriculously..by today,i felt lots better but don't dare risking myself by going out to shopping etc..homework was a drag,and i pushed myself to finish most of it yesterday night n today oni focused on Physics...if not,i'll be dead by the time i go back to the hostel tomorrow..and oh,that's not all,all the heatiness of my body caused a variety of pimples,rashes all over my face!!!and i looked hideous!!lucky school starts on Wed,if not i drag imagining myself back to school in this state.sigh..hopefull,it'll turn better by the time it reached tuesday..

And,finally..yupVALENTINES DAY!!hah!wat about it??so wat if i'm still single?i received a few Valentine's day greeting from friends,and till today,still got ppl greet my happy belated birthday,can't blame them cuz my birthday was during Chinese New Year,not many remember..so,wat is this with this friend J whom i've known since secondary school wanting to be more than friends??firstly,though we are pretty close in school but i see him oni as a friend,nothing more..why does J keep on pushing me to accept him whenever he sees me??i have no idea..call me a prejudice,racist or watever u have in the dictionary,i'm so not into Indians for goodness sake!nor Malays..even Japanese,i might think twice,but Malays or Indians,never..seriously..i can't accept it..so sorry ok??

Great,2 more days,school starts,back to boring life..lots to study,exam coming near..pressure gonna build up again..haiz..stressful life..hate it..but til then..gonna rest more tonight n tomorrow..so till then..ciaoz...

Holidays no more =(

Hie
First five days of Chinese New Year has past, holidays ending and classes begining. Time does fly. Since Tweety can't online, I guess I'll just blog a short note for her. She's back in KL, finally got to meet her yesterday night for a drink (after so long) and we got to chat a little. It's so nice getting to see her again.
I'll stop here since it's not my world =P

Ps: To those who are sick... Get well soon.

~Let The Hols Begin!!!~

Yeah,today is the day where my hols begin, so why di i feel so depressed,or in a word,not excited at all??well,i did went out with my friends today for a show so hilarious but not till the extent of getting a stomache,the typical Hong Kong movie..but alas,it was so lame with no proper storyline..another just feel good movie with no satisfaction..again,MidValley,my second home in fact i would put it..so of course met a lot ppl from my secondary school..ppl changed aA LOT!!so wat if they are handsomer,prettier or are holding hands now??that doesn't mean i have to follow put right??what's wrong being single and available??gosh..well,after the movie, Edwin met up with his PRS members and me n Chee Wei talked with Ling Wei..yeah,Weng Holl came too,talked a little,u know the usual polite,"How are you??how are u doing in uni?"kinda stuff?lame and expectable but what the hell,this is life..wen u seperate from school,u just say hi wen u meet up somewhere,somehow..yeah,this blog is kinda jumbled up,with no proper headings or contents,just crapping,like usual..i dunno why i bother to blog anyway and not giving other ppl the URL to read,but again,it is kinda like my own world here where i can crap all i want..where is this heading??haha..no idea..

just spending time here at the cc again cuz there's no where else to go,KL..the city where i'm born and breed..where else to go???long lost..shopping malls,been there and bored of it..sick of it in fact,if it is not friends,lazy to go out at all..have no idea what to do oso after this..go home is worse,no Astro,or books,or any CD or songs..bored!!!!!and now,out of credit!so no sms for me!what to do!!!feel like just !@$##%$^&%#^*&(*&//hehe..crapping..at least,though short-lived it is more fun here,where i can type,listen to songs..haha..pure freedom..yeah,i love to enjoy and appreciate small stuff,easily satisfied i suppose..well,not going to on9 for the next few days cuz going to mum's hometown..ah well,live life cool...happy or not,it's always for us to judge no??

~A fast pace week...NOT!!~

well,time always flies here in PPKTJ..there u see,today is already the last day of school before i head back home for the Chinese New Year..well,it has been a nothing-can-be-more-normal week,topped with a dose of sleeping spell i would say..Monday was alright n Tuesday was the day where we have one day of due to the Federal Territory holiday..had a so-so time at karaoke,again,have a hoarsed throat after that but enjoyed savying the dessert again at Pizza Uno..never get bored of it..well,head back soon around 4.30pm cuz the gang wanted to catch the serial on TV cuz its the last episode..though it was nice,hilarious n heart-warming..but to me,should i have the chance to go outside,i wouldn't want to rush back just to catch some TV programme..what's the point?it defaults the meaning of going out in the first place,don't u think??as i said,we had a so-so time there,after dropping xin n Min at Popular,we went off to some window shopping..(Mayching nI)..we had a great time window shopping,though it take us quite long before i finally remember the shop which sells the stupid crown for Farewell dinner..at last,i found someone who can walk without complaining that she's tired oledi kind..muakks,love u may ching..haha..the pervious night,Min was bored so summoned by the responsibility of being a good friend,had to accompany my dear friend to get a drink,and to reload her phone at the kiosk..so off we went,while i kept on receiving miss calls from Akmal..i was like,what the??..until,i received a message that there's a meeting..so off i went again..the whole night spent at the canteen discussing about the Farewell dinner,ending with me offering my stupid pea-brain to wrap the hampers n order the flowers..not that i mind but mum has been complaining lately that i care to much for friends then family..oh well...

After the outing that night,after all the guilt start ti settle in seeing Jenny working so hard at the desk while i touched nothing of relevant or close to any Japanese language which our sensei would approve off,i finally settled down to read soemthing..until,a knock,and of i go again to accompany Min to chat..she's been really pressured nowadays saying she has become more stupid etc..i mean who am i compare to her when it comes to studies and results??but there i was after presenting earlier her birthday gift,cuz i can already sense she's not in a cheerful mood that day,so suprised her earlier after getting the card from the boys..the joy was shortlived though,so off we went again..talked bout lot...bout her inferior feeling compared to Xin,her studies detiorating etc..and tat night i felt that i seriously have the potential to become a licensed counsellor or phsychologists..haha.really,i had advised,suggested lots of stuff that i deam too mature for ppl my age..it was kinda serious hearing myself saying all thoses things..well,does it really helped,i dunno..she really need to open up her thoughts and not take studies over seriously..does this mean i dun care at all??not to put it that way,but in a way,like wat i said before,i sorta "opened" a little and look on the bright side of things already..optimistic is good for the mind..in the end,due to my responsibility (which cost me an early bed-time),my mood dampened a little in the end due to lack of sleep the next day..haiz..wat to do,this is what i'm oni good at i suppose..

Lots happened after my previous paragraph which was done in school,now i'm at the cc after a long happening day at school..as usual,we had sakubun lessons and dokai..wat suprised me was during bunpo for Usui's sensei's lesson,she actually cried today..that was after her lesson wen we had extra time.we were told to do our own homwwork and lo-behold,with a dead serious face,she told us that someone had the "curtesy" to add an extra comment beside other ppl's name wen signing the attendance name list..as usual,these jokers of the class thought it was funny writing some lame nasty remarks for others to "appreciate".well,it really shocked Usui sensei and Nezu sensei for they thought these students must have some serious mental or emtional problem to prone them to write these stuff..well,usually i just ignore these rubbish,but i dn know it had so much impact to the Japanese sensei until she had shed tears because of it..seriously..whoa..i mean,not to say anything,but ppl,why do u have to do all thses so call "fun" by backstabbing or writing irrelavant nasty remarks bout others?it really is a waste of time and serves no purpose at all..bullshit oni

well,besides the drama,there's nothing much else that happened the rest of the day..as usual,study hard for the lame weekly exam..slept another half hour then,exam time again..finally,its over..i'm home at last after some lame music lessons by Matsuse Sensei again..not as fun as the previous Japanese affair..boring in fact..well,a suprise awaited me at home though,my sweet secondary school-sisters gave me an early birthday gift,and i was thrilled!!!!i received a crystal bracelet which i'm gonna wear it for as long as possible,and like what she promised,Yann Yoon carved a paper design for me..something she learnt from Denmark..it was delicate and pretty..really nice,along with it,a card,an a photo frame..so nice.and i received anoth suprise Chinese New Year Card from Su Fang..oww,so sweet of her to remeber me..unlike Ben,met hime thrice and still he show no sign of recognisation...great..guys..can oni remember pretty gals..

ah well,guess will end here..looking forward to spend my time in ayer Tawar,celebrating my 19th birthday there,so..cheers to 19!!!