~FUN??!!!?~

What is the meaning of fun i wonder?was it the dinner on Chap Goh Mei with the seniors who are going to leave soon??or was it a call to a long lost friend?or the farewell dinner i've been so looking forward to tomorrow??i dunno..for all i know,all these seems pretty baseless and not meaningful for the time being..what is life??i usually ponder,and i know i'm not the only one pondering this question for a long time...for all i know,going through all the usual routine IS the only mission we have in life..sigh..i'm seriously pretty stress up right now,even having dengue was the least of my worries...who would have thought there's so much to do for the dinner tomorrow??i confused myself with the figures and responsibilities thrust at me..what REALLY is my responsibility i really wonder??to help a friend in need or to sit back and study for me exam today(i din do well cuz)...i chose the former...really,is it my fault or anyone's to blame???guess its just myself..really,this chapter is killing me...missing lessons is one thing,having to attend a meeting,had to skip lunch to study for this stupid one chapter is another...ah well,it was over..as usual,i predicted low marks compare to the ppl u know who..sigh..stess out..have to pay the hotel tomorrow,go to the bank early in the morning..get the roses..stuffs,so many things,so little time..just hope everythinmg turns out great..how ironic it is,in order to make it a successful ecent,dunno how many ppl have to do so much and effort in it..just hope that sucess is sweet..i really pity,no,i understand May Ching's predicament now,and to think i am complaining while she is the director..how much more and heavier a burden she's carrying...sigh..

well,exam really is close and i'm damn freaking out..so,study now???nah,i'm looking forward to the event tomorrow..the others..i see a very lonely corner in my room and therefore,being a nice person,ichuck my problems and worries there for the moment..until i retrieve u,stay put ya "problem and worries"..thank you..did i mention,being a good friend is so not easy????i tried and tried but being a good friend to an emoional person is so not easy,really testing my limits..but then again,like what Alex said...hehe..i AM a very patient person,guess have to watch what i say around her..again,SIGH....fun??what fun???taking a step at a time lo..what the hell..

The seniors are leaving at the end of next month..really gonna miss them..not ppl in specification,but their exisitence..really..so nice,they have a bunch of 20 plus chinese while we only have a mere 12..and oni 5 gals,imagine that..can be really boring i would say.thats why i really enjoyed the Chap Goh Mei dinner with them,had a really cool game too..and so...relaxing and what you call that..nigiyaka.really,its was...FUN..yeah,i know not all of them click with each other but still,they can gather together and hang out..it was really nice...so,though i was late back that day (had math quiz the next day too),ireally enjoyed the large company..imagine,3cars full in one small room..haha...anyway,all in all..my legs are still "rashy",and i've not been getting enough sleep lately (thanks to myself and my roommates' set-to-early alarm clock) and i'm really freaking stress out..summary,done..the end.