It has been raining again...I consider myself lucky for able to get a game of badminton yesterday when it was hot and sunny...I consider myself unlucky to get all the aches piercing through my joints and muscles today..
What to blog about?Actually I should have blogged yesterday,when I was downright depressed and a major headache to add it all.But no,I kept myself away from delivering yet another depressing blog..It really made me wonder,what IS the source for the infectious depression here?The soon-to-be Major exam?or is it the fact that everyone doesn't want to admit the fact that everyone is just getting fed up of each other or the routine-ness of everything?Or is it the raining season dampening everyones mood?My famous quote "I don't know..."
Everyone is starting to pick up their Physics text book..As the exam creeps nearer,the preparations getting intense,so is of course my tensioness and nervousness..I'm downright pessimistic about my results,I have no idea why.I can't help it,the more I see others read the more I tend not to study.Prefering The Wind-up Bird Chronicle.Yeah,the kiasu-ism is downright amazing here.Or maybe its just me?Again,I can't help it..I've been planning what to do on weekends rather than what to study each day.Slowly study,I can forget,that's why..I'm the typical last minute person..
I might look back after Monkashyo and laugh at my silly kiasu-ism,but that's an uncertain future which is still far from my grasp.I can only embrace this depression,indulge in it and in return blog more about it to remind me about it in the future.(No,I did not write this to make you feel sorry for me or make your day bad,sorry if it did anyway..)I must now find something to uplift my somberness,how I wish I could.Enjoy my weekend,that I will.But how many know actually that behind the smiling face,worries and guiltyness of not using the time for more revision is swirling in my mind.I hate to have these ironic thought engulfing me,not only it's tiring,it also make me not able to throughly enjoy my outings with friends and thus making their day not as enjoyable as well..Fine then,from now on I don't give a damn..I shall play hard AND study hard.The outcome will lay in the arms of God.That's it(suddenly full of determination..)..The hell with kiasu-ism..Study at my own pace,that's what I shall do..
ps:Sigh..can't help delivering a depressing blog after all...
歌如人生
5 years ago
4 comments:
Your depression must have came from reading my blog... lol.. The next time we meet, must play badminton with you!
So?? I recommended the right book right? So now ya have a new friend, Mr. Wind-up Bird to accompany you!
Btw, you surprise at how anyone can be that depressed and down that often and that many times.
Makes me wonder if you deliberately, purposely, intentionaly get depress just to impress your blog readers with your impression-ful blog entries...hmm....well, can't deny you can churn out good stuff on days you are not smiling.
Who in the world would purposely go and get depressed just to write a good blog?Goodness...Its very tiring to get depressed ok...Oh well,what to do,some people having sugar-sweet life in Japan what...=p
Have to agree with my ex-roomie! Too much depressing things. But isn't depression a self controlled syndrome? No, I don't think we are having soo much of a good time here in Jap....just that somehow, we manage to 'set aside' those ugly feelings until it desolves into a state of oblivion. However, its all up to u to choose....n trust me that it can be done, maybe u haven't found it yet!
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