~Hell of a week~

I seriously have no idea why in the world my seniors were so carefree last year..This year it is hell!!All in this week alone!Serious,4-in-1,with full different ingredients of herbs and spices...=p

On Monday,(here goes my grandmother stories again)I have this weird feeling of this bus,how the engine sound extraordinary,it was more like an engine for sports car then a bus,so I didn't slept well..Right before the bus turned in the university compound,it exploded on the right side just next to us..White stinky gas leak started to fill the bus,screams from the student were heard,it was like horrow movie,with Min Ley clutching to my side..I wonder how I can be so calm,and just tried not to breathe in too much of the poisonous gas..Who knows how much damage it can do to me right??Then I quickly signalled Min ley to get off the bus,she was sitting on the outside you see and was not budging and we scrambled out as fast as we can,afraid it will explode or burst into flames suddenly..Luckily it was in front of the University,the guards quickly guide us off the bus,I saw Hana crying,I think she tripped or something..Then we waited for a while,when the guards when to retrived the books in the bus where some students,including Min Ley,hastily left behind in the spur of emergency...Some of them were covered with soot,and I stink!Bah...One day of class,disturb by the smell of the gas,oh well,just glad I'm alive..

Tuesday onwards was really hell..First we had to stay back to have dance practise to perform for Bulan Variasi Merdeka UTM..And that was at least until 10.30pm every night until Friday,the actual performing day..Tuesday was also the day I received my certificate for my speech,but I was a bit dissapointed to find it wrote I got 2nd place...I tried to tell Yoshida Sensei but I don't think she understand what I was asking..Well,I almost let it be until I told Matsuse Sensei,and he took it back and asked Yoshida Sensei(try my luck)..and now,the First Prize bold letters certificate stood boldly in my err...file of certs..haha..Lucky i asked again if not it'll be err,unjust?Yeah,it was rightfully mine what...

And I have to rewrite my speech for 3 times,even to the extent of asking Teo and Kim Shing to help..Luckily they had study for Thursday's testo..For me,it was hell,I was reading during Physics lessons,copying notes,not understanding anything..Besides battling with my dreaded tiredness and tried to stay awake,I was given a full dose of mental stress,having forced to collect my thoughts and put it down in words in my speech,recalling what Yoshida Sensei had said etc..Thank goodness for Chin Leong too,for helping me to develope my photos so that I can hand it up on the form for my contest,cuz the dancing took up all my time and also my mental capabilities to stay happy,joyful or even try to be nice..It was hell,and I was blabbering non stop in school,gaining lots of sympathy but not enough to ease the strain I felt.Even the short naps between lessons were disturb my people who just can't be bothered to ease their voice seeing there are ppl sleeping..Well,to say the least,I became quick-tempered..Of all things,the deadline for my corrected speech was on thursday,along with the testo,which also falls on the fated day..Did I mentioned dancing till late night?I see,I did...It was 1am,for 3days,waking up at 6am,it was too much..10minutes before performng yesterday,I was still dosing off at the couch..The performance was splendid but I was too tired to even remember what happned,with my handphone out of battery,I was battling frust of not getting home earlier,or having nothing to say to the Senseis,in other words,i was too tired to be nice and alert..i just wanna REST...

I cried a lot today,haha..It was a lot,this week actually..on Wednesday,triggered by Ayuni's tears,I cried too..I can understand how she felt actually,in fact both of us were the only ones with speech to correct,dances to practise,test to read and tonnes of homework to be complete..and in her case,she was forced in the contest just because she spoke like a fluent Japanese..However,she was dismayed when her hours of hard worked speech was rejected by Matsuse Sensei,giving a big cross here and there on her speeches..She finally couldn't take it and sobbed in tears..She felt uncomfortable having to be forced to do something which she cannot put her heart into doing.And finally after some talk with Yoshida Sensei,she backed out from the contest.And her usually cheerfulness was seen all day long after Wednesday,whereas I was becoming more and more quiet,tired looking..quiet cuz I don't want to think of ways to choose my words to speak,for I know words coming from my mouth would be impatient ones,thus,I chose silence as my companion..And today,it was because of the drama Full House..and a secret I found out just minutes ago,really made tears swell to my eyes..I have more things to worry from now onwards,my future,which revolves about my dropping results,my characteristics,my friends,my choices to make for my kousen,my speech,my coming Wednesday Physics test which I have zero idea about...and yes,myself....