~Fr13nD5hiPs~

Homesickness happens to everyone that somehow or rather have to leave the comfortable nest of home provided by our protective parents..In my case,it's happening every Monday.going back home on the weekends after the last lessons of the week is something I've always looked forward to.However,I don't know its just me or what..Once I'm back here,i felt that there's nothing really big-a-deal.Friends are busy with their own life which obviously I'm not a part of it.I can understand that its too much to ask if i come back every weekend and ask them to accompany yours truly..just can't help sighing that life still have to go on and the world..silly me,is still round.Its not that i do not get along well with my current roommates or classmates but people back here are the ones whom i've been through thick and thin with for the past..5 to 6 years.Being emotional is no use i guess,friendship are bound to be made and sometimes forgotten..A friend once told me.No matter what,I will try my best to keep in touch with whoever i knew, be it that they have a big place in my heart or just merely the guys who said:"hi!" in school..Its such a saddening thought that the loads of friends that we have now might not be the loads of friends we will have in the next 5 to 7years..guess we only appreciate our friends during our teenage years no?Adulthood will be,sigh,chasing for our so call material wealth (but essential right?).But as my mentor once told me,we are only spending only a small part of our lives,exploring the world namely Japan for 5 years..but as i said before and the possibilties are there..what if I decided to stay putt in Japan?I shudder at the thought right now because i know i will definetly miss the family and friends here but hey,again, a lot can happen within the next 2 weeks what more the next 7 years?Thinking to much is so not good..guess have to take one step at a time.To be a person who have to be good in everything namely a perfectionist is also a very tiring thing..Living in a hostel with people of different personalities really opened my eyes,but as usual,its only 3 weeks,people here are still very..how to put this,polite to each other.We'll see for the few weeks to come.the only drastic differences is the pace one can catch up in the lectures right now,sadly,I'm the few that is lagging.No matter how hard i tried there's always a gap between myself and my class's worthy opponentS..Which is why,*sigh*the supports of my friends here is so essential but its ok.I know they will be here if i really needed them,i think i should really give in my best shot and try my best.everyone should,in order to so-call succeed in life. Well,i'm blabbering nonsense again,guess will end here..cheers to friendships..

~Nihhongo O bengkioshimas~

well,if people are wondering what the hell is my title about,let me slowly explain..I am currently studying Japanese at UTM,doing lots to catch up..my roomates are nice and helpful and I'm really glad for that.however,life is very hectic there and very routine i might add.Not only i have to master the basic Japanese language within 5days,we have test everyday and week..So my life there revolves only studying,studying,doing homewok and oh!i forgot,more studying=0..And as the title says it all,its "learning Japanese language"..people who don't understand thinks that i'm having the time of my life,to learn a foreign language which is so popular and well-received here.But no one actually see the real hardwork and effort one have to put into it to really master the language..I, for one,dare not say that i can master the language well but at least now i'm trying and hopefully it will be fruitful.i have to add,the 'sensei' here are all tying their best to prepare us to sit for THE exam to go to Japan,but to me,i dunno,too much drilling within...5 days??!!!?..it is some people's dream to obtain a scholarship and go overseas and to learn about a foreign culture,I have to admit,thankfully i managed to obtain that..I have no idea what i'm complaining about but hey,as everyone would under certain circumstances like having pressure from studying too much,guess this is the most effective way of mine to vent out my feelings..Only on weekends i manage to relax by going home,hang out with friends..etc.Away from all the hustle bustle of University life and also life in the hostel where people tend to burn the midnight oil often..(not me though,i tend to get too tired and will automatically shut down at 10pm)..All in all,i sort of think that Malaysian education system sort of spoon-feed us too much,it's a drastic change at University..I'm trying my best to leap the gap of serious-studying from the spoon-feeding studying we tend to get in secondary school..and hopefully by the time i post my new blog i can have a more optimistic perspective of life?I'm crossing my fingers...sayonara people.....=p

~Some Frenz point Of view~

This is gonna be reall long , mite end up boring but read it till the END n keep an open mind bout this ya..coz wut i wana say today mite really affect ur life.

k , where shall i start..like i said , i wuz in ur shoes once..wondering bout life , n guess when wuz it... when i wuz onli 12...yupz...young leh.i wuz wondering ..is life all about studying , doin ur best in school , den go out , get a good job , get rich , den die? ..isit all about living , getting married , dying , living , dying , living dying? is life juz a routine? a life cycle? as of a butterfly? there were times wen i juz couldn find the answers to all these questionsla.. n i began to be afraid of death.. wut would it be like after death? is that the end? anyways, i go to church n all , but i din feel any .. u kno ... satisfaction in life.. i couldn find anything to fill my empty soul... i called myseld a christian . but i din relly kno wut i wuz believing....well ,dis state went on for quite a while la... until wen i came to form3, i joined christian fellowship. but things werent really changing anyway , still seee life as a cycle.. but then at a christian fellowship rally, yea, i gave my life to Jesus once again .. n i began to have a purpose in my life again.. n my purpose was for Jesus. i was created by God to live for God.. n i kno , i will be with Him for eternity. life will not end where it is. i would live forever, mayb not in my flawful physical body , but i will dwell with Him in his kingdom in spirit.pls dun tink tis is crap n stop now k .. now the important part is coming up.

wen God created man , Adam n Eve.they sinned against God by eating the forbidden fruit.n man wuz doomed to be separated from God.so no matter wut man do, no matter how man tried to reach god again . man could not.. because sin has entered man...(man as in us k ) because of wut our 1st father did, we're all filled with this sinful nature.. a nature of wanting to do bad..im sure if u look back on ur life.. im sure u will see there are points in ur life where the things which are bad are so much easier to do than the things which are right.. this is because we are born sinners. me n u ..its been passed down from generations to generations.sumthing like a curse... but God loved us too much to see us all end up in a place called Hell..Hell is real.. and thats defnitely a place u dun wana end up.God sent His one n only Son to die for our sins.for our wrongs.so that we do not need to face death.because in God's laws, the punishment for sin is death.n death here means eternity in hell. God wants us to go back to Him... to the relationship that we were made for.Jesus , by living a holy life , was able to die for our sins because he did not sin. dats y , because he died for us, we belong to Him. He is our purpose of life.He is the reason we live. If we believe in Him , and surrender our lives to him , things and life would have so much more meaning.its like u kno, dying isnt the end. i am 100% sure that if i die today , i have no regrets, except the fact that i havent told many of my friends bout this good news.coz i kno where i will be goin after my death on earth. i will be in my rightful home. in heaven.dwelling forever with jesus.

the next part is a muz read k .. its how i kno God is real!!

i duno whether u would take this seriously or juz tink im sum zealous , religious fool , i duno.. but seriously , christianity is not a religion , its a relationship with God. its the regaining of the relationship that we lost wen adam sinned. truthfully i tell u , my life has changed a lot sinced i gave my life to jesus. there were times i felt that life was no point living for n there wuz also a time (this was after i became a real "christian") i felt that God wasn real , serious, this happened last year , i began to deny God.. feeling hopeless all over again .. but the very next day , i went to church ...God spoke to me.. yea, i told no one bout my probs n suddenly wen we were praying , my youth leader said he wanted to pray for me n God spoke to me through Him, God was telling me ," in all your troubled times , i am WITH you! i will be there right beside you thru all your troubles" i juz cried n cried n cried...juz couldn hold back anything... God was sooo real to me from that point on ...coz i tell u la.. eventhought i see me happy happy, my life is full of problems la.. not minor minor probsla..relly relly big probs, even my youth leader said that about me, that i was wearing a mask.. coz i may seem happy on the outside but on the inside, im a depressed soul la..so thats wut "behind a mask" means... but God changed that. he gave me hope , joy , n love. all i ever need is Him.

thats my story.. or shall i say , His story in my life. u dun hafta believe wut i say, but this is wut i believe n nothing will change tat. u can choose to accept Jesus into ur life now, and have a meaning , a purpose , a goal in life.im not forcing u or anything but juz keep an open mind bout this la.. n tink about it

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A whole new life..

On Friday 4th of June,I finally got a taste of new life..no,not the gigantic changes in my life but enough to make me realise how adulthood should be.Its seem like an everyday life,well,to begin with let me just explain what has happened on that day..Like normal people,i was given a scholarship to further my studies..Have to do 2 years of foundation and language course before I can go overseas to further my studies.Well,during the briefing,i had learned and given the opportunity to see how my life would be in the next..7years.which made me wonder, is life all about studying,aiming for flying colours and to get a fulfilling and well-paid job?Is my life going to revolve around the fixed route of study,work,getting married?Well,it is life,one would say but hey what happens to all the things that comes with it? Say,will I be able to keep in touch with all my friends for the next 7 years? I doubt it..So,i dunno,i've been thinking too much about life,some irrelevant and maybe some stupid questions which have no answers to it..guess only time can tell,no?