~Crazy days..~

din blog for 2 weeks di...though not a big problem cuz i dun intend to come back last week..but couldn't withheld the temptation of coming home to on9,having to taste delicious laksa for dinner...its so much temptating than the lousy,routine of hostel life..drag ny best pal along cuz seriously..the whole week was about drilling n more drilling for the Sunday Nuo Ryoku Shiken..i had enough!!n potherwise...i've done stuying so...was more to do??was sure i'll pass but the catch is to score high...well,think i did ok...but was VERY down n blue wen i found out i actually changed 2 answers that was correct in the first place...blame myself for being such a fickle-minded person...n the 2 questions is very serious...cuz i made mistake at the part where its 3 points and 4points..as in,1paper have around 4parts...and each parts have different marks..the harder the higher marks..and lo-behold..mua got wrong for the 4marks one and the 3 marks one...and if have to average out n times 200 marks....for 2 lousy damn close answers..i lost 12 marks!!!!imagine that....fine lar..watever..was so god damn down that day..drag my friend to MV,had Secret Receipe cheesecakes,ice blended chocolate with whipcream..lasagna..haha..can't be bothered bout my weight gain for that day..as they say,chocolate is gals best friend n worst enemy??haha..consider that day,i fall in love with chocolate all over again...

this week i had to give my speech in english...for the first time the floor was mine..kinda relieved once its over but was pretty nervous before that..haha..talked bout bravery..prepared for 3 days lar,thanks to my friend who helped me altered a bit here and there,giving me examples,ideas n TEACHING me history..managed to pull thru..can say its kinda good standing in front where eveyone's attentively listening...haha..

which reminds me of an incident which i trully wanna forget..as i was writing,preparing for my speech..
my roommate came in..so,i asked her to pin in some ideas of the suitable word to use..and much to my suprised,she barked at me fiercely citing:"i'm not in a good mood,why dun u go n ask ur gf who is good in everything??who am i compare to her??i'm just a pile of shit mar.."and i was like"wha...???whats wrong with u?"n guessed wat?"SLAM!!"the door was shut right in front of my face and out she went!!!can u imagine how embarrassed i felt??as if i've done something wrong n deserved tobe humilliated like that??having a migraine is not an excuse to vent it out to mua u know??and if that is not enough(i forgotten bout it later on,haha),again,she had to go tell-tales bout me in front of the teachers in school...great!!if u wanna change room...go ahead lar!!!but why of all things in the world,u have to go to find the teacher??who like most japanese teachers or better still ppl do...gossip??words does spread like fire here..soon enough,my jap mentor came n ask my close fren about us..great...life is so great!!hahaha...not..get a grip lar,do wat ever u like just stop messing with my life!!

Life couldn't get better..(bitterly speaking)yesterday,my best gf came in with a happy grin on her face which,i soon found out brought a deep frown to my head...nothing serious..just that,she got back her results for all subjects and again she is the top after averaging out the 4 which consists of Japanese paper,english,physics n maths...and mind u..NONE of it is lower than..91%..for every subject..happy for her?ya...sure do..but i didn't forget i have MY results to find out..and of all days,that day was the day my class teacher have to come in in the last period..great..and i'm a very well known anxiety-type of person and the suspence is more than enough to weigh my mood down the whole day..of course,i do roughly know my marks but the eagerness of knowing wat position i get is really killing..so..last period came and....RELIEVED..it was not as bad as i thought,but the marks......really need to put in more effort next time around..sigh..

And..another issue of these 2 weeks...weird ppl lar here...I AM NOT PRETTY NOR CUTE...so dun flatter me into making me believe i am!!this weird senior,having to so-call show some interest,gave me a burger through another sempai,n kohai..as in treating me...not that i mind lar,but attempting to ask me out???NEVER!!!call me prejudice,but this Malay fella,is ok lar...usually say hi or greetings in school enough lar...dun have to stalk me till eat in the cantten HAVE to sit next to me..speakingto me at every opportunity given..and stop teasing me with him!!!!argghhh...ya,i'm PREJUDICe la..just say lar,i'm finally admitting here...i dun like him at all...

Look...i do enjoy being around with my Malay classmates,friends..of with we do chat a lot and joke around together..but this is a senior i'm talking about..who approached me with too much eagerness i should say..arrghhh...spooky...but anyhow,i got to know one of my classmates better this week..chatted a little,find him quite nice n pretty good in sports..helpful i would say..n today we had Jamuan Raya,been bc doing duties,decorating,helping out here and there..starved myself too,cuz not time to eat...it was an event not to be forgotten,fun n noisy..though the heat was unbearable,but it was kinda cool...just that been studying till late night yst so kinda sleepy the whole day..the part i enjoyed most today was...funny,but washing the dishes..weird huh??i volunteered to help my fellow Malay gals n gf..called the sushi-gals..haha cuz they were the ones in charged to make sushi for today..we actually joked a lot today,n i enjoyed being with the Malay glas..really funny n enjoyable,splashing water accidently,joking,laughing..with no language barrier,religious barrier,whatsoever..
it was nice..felt i know them better n closer..like wat a friend told me,we might get bored knowing our own kind and getting to know the Malays better is a good thing..they too have their own sense of humor and its kinda refreshing to know their culture,and stuff...haha..really glad i came in here,cuz in my seconary school last time...the ppl i faced is oh-so familiar till theres nothing interesting anymore..and being a rebellious Aquarian,i dispise routine life..

well all to be said...a lot has been on my mind nowadays...but like what my friend told me n i already knew it,of cuz...it is part of life and part of growing up..by facing obstacles only then we'll grow to be more tactful and experienced..so..i few more sleepless nights,here i come...