The Cruel Reality Of LIFE

This is it..I have to face the cruel reality of life.Nothing big actually,its just that there's always another person better than you.No matter how hard i tried,i can never ever beat the gal next door..she's good in everything,a state volley ball player who can really excel in her studies too really made my shoulder all tensed up.Which is what really happening to me right now.I never knew that the stories of people getting migriane because of tension and pressure can really happen to me..i was really pressure by the whole study atmosphere in the University,not only i have lots to memorise for Japanese language,there's Physics and Mathematics testing my ability to apply the formulas.In my case,its also a test to test my limits of handeling pressure before i really go haywire.Everyweek i have to recharge,and my mental and emotional energy gets boosted with the company of friends.Its seems pretty hard that life have to be in this form,kepts me wondering is this life all about?Friends told me i only have to suffer for 2 years before enjoying life in Japan,but often i wonder,what if i really tried my best and yet fail to get through the entrance test?i shiver at the idea and dare not think about it..even the sensei agrees that we don't have a "life" studying there,with the maximum of 9 hours of schooling hours,we have less time to relax and rest much less to pamper ourselves. Sometimes i do envy the boys at the next block,playing basketball and soccer,enjoying their life having good clean fun.But as for me and my roommates,the only leisure time we can afford is the 6pm to 7pm slot where we watch TV while having dinner too..the rest of the time?One can easily guess,yes,studying or finishing up our homework..too much right?As i am typing this I can't even believe that this is the life I'm having right now.Study and more studying.Of course the results of our test that we manage to achieve during our weekly test is sweet but hey,the guys are not doing that bad as well. A week by a week time flies,things are getting tougher and more complicated.It sounds nice,that we are PAID to STUDY but hey,it does comes with a cost.The mental energy drain and emotional pain can sometimes be too much to bear.It always seems that this negative energy is passing among the 3 of us who is not up to par with the 1st gal i mentioned.WEll,anyhow,life have to go on,I'm trying my best and struggling to juggle my 4 subjects.i receive a call just now,from a friend I wanted to meet up with but actually found it quite hard due to her over-protective parents.As she also got a scholarship to join the teacher's training in Ipoh,we both talked about how life can be so unexpected.By receiving scholarships,our lives are planned hereafter,where we are going to be for the next 7 to 8 years. We both agree that it will be hard to keep in touch with all our sisters and that some people will be forgotten but whoever that really kept in touch,are those who really cherish the times we all have been through and will be a part of our lives for many years to come.The cruel reality of life is that,TIME WAITS FOR NO MAN..i just have to take a step by a step and face "LIFE".We both laugh as we sounded so matured and serious as we'e only 18 right now,but we were left in a situation where we can get a glimpse of our future life and therefore all the thoughts of how our life will turn out to be and where we are going to head in time to come.It actually brought tears to my eyes just thinking about it,silly me huh?Anyway,18 is just a mere number to me right now.But i do belive,"somewhere ages and ages hence",i would look back and regret for not enjoying my sweet 18 and yet,smile with relief that i had choosen a right path to lead a "LIFE"...