~On a day like this~

Another weekend where I have nothing to do in particular..Again after errands,I really have nothing,absolutely nothing,ditto to do..I really wanna chill,just sleep,rest and relax but I can't.I have to do something,I can't just face the bare four walls all day can I..

So on a day like this,I go back to my addiction.Drama..Watched 'My name is Kim Sam Soon' on Youtube.(A handy tool to kill boredom and more addictive sedative than coccain).After salivating over handsome hunks in that drama,I've manage to kill off Saturday.Here comes Sunday.

Woke up at 8.30am again,like yesterday..And contemplate on what to do..Room,cleaned a million times,online..Done that til my eyes cannot tahan.Which resulted to eating..Eat also no mood eat,no appetite.Bah..Wanna chat also no one online..

Blog...It has been a long time since I can blog well..It seems that my blog has lost its lure it has on me in the first place.Gone were the days where I can rant all I want,bad mouth about anyone and complain til your ears(eyes) pain...Now,everything I write,I have to think twice,for fear of offending anyone or someone dear to those who stumbles upon this blog.Or getting comments/feedbacks that sometimes my ego or my oversensitive heart can't take..I sometime feels tired of doing this..SCREENING of my own blog..Where's freedom of speech?Where's rights of voicing your opinion???Where's this-is-my-blog-so-I-can-write-anything-I-want freedom???

I guess I have to..have to learn to find my balance somewhere else.Or better still,just learn to be a better person and stop complaining.I know how it feels when someone complains too much and you as a listener,no matter how patient,will get fed up once in a while.So I shall learn to stop cut down on complaining and learn to take initiative to make something work instead of waiting someone to make it work,to learn to look at the brighter perspective of things and believe that if there's a will there's a way,to learn that its better to walk the walk than do the talk.On a day like this,I have to learn..and learn,and learn...