Maybe it's all the farewells that hit me. Most of the people from my batch left, those who left behind are really scarce, and those who plan to work in Japan like me, even lesser. Separation is inevitable, yet it doesn't feel any better knowing that fact. I told MC that I considered putting in less effort and emotions in friendships, for then it won't hurt as much when separation occurs. But I guess why forgo the good and best moments of my life for the sake of not hurting as much?
I've met a lot of great people since I came here. Which could be one of the reasons I don't want to just pack my things and leave after the quake. I know in the end that people might not just remember my existence or the importance of it, after all, their lives never have to revolve around me. People in the end, will live their own lives, chose their own paths and in the end,comes separations. I guess it's just to my own importance that living among them,with them is enough. These are the people I'm meant to meet, meant to listen to, meant to be with at these times. I couldn't pin-point these emotions to a person, it's just a feeling of the moment.
I had been joked at for not having a boyfriend at this age. But more than regret, I actually felt relieved that I don't have one at the moment. For without one, I could mingle among these wonderful people, having to know that life has more to offer. For without one, I could consider in giving more than accepting what was not needed. For without one, I could learn to handle emotions and workloads instead of crying for help 24/7. I'm not saying I'm against getting into a relationship, I just don't feel the hurry to be in one for the sake of doing so.
I believe in..live life of the moment.=)
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