~Ha!~

It's really a saddening thought actually.
I have nothing to look forward to at the moment.
All the happiness and optimism I got from Eat.Pray.Love
All the "Hey,you are doing alright" self-talk
Seems like some funny joke to me.

A joke that could only make me laugh sarcastically.

This is the time where I am most grumpy.
Grumpy at the weather,ever changing like my mood-swings.
Grumpy at the internship forms,which requires me to go take photos with suits.
Grumpy at the slide shows I presented to my sensei,only to be asked to re-do everything.
Grumpy at my non-existence, whereby girlfriends now only talk to their boyfriends.
Grumpy at my non-existence again, whereby no one will miss my presence in school.
Grumpy at my aching body, because I hadn't been working out enough.
Grumpy at my character, for forcing and pushing myself too hard.
Grumpy at my character again, for being such a stupid perfectionist.
Grumpy at my character again and again, for being such an attention-seeker.

Yea,that's what I am.

A self-pity,attention-seeker..

Ha! I'm such a freaking loser...