~集中講義~

Today's 集中講義(crash course) took 5hours..
And while I was paying notice in and out of the lesson..
I was thinking about other stuff for...at least 4hours..lol

4hours of pure thinking really helped me relaxed..
I have been too stressed out lately.
I guess because things have been crashing down out of the blue.
Really made me panicked..

But within that 5hours of lessons(yes,yes,I know I was suppose to concentrate in class)
I started analyzing slowly.
The jumbled up thoughts were put into line,one by one..
The stress was lighten,a little by little.
I say lighten,because the stress is still there,though not as serious as giving me headache anymore
(yes,I actually have muscle strain at my neck when I'm stressed which later turns into a major headache)

I start to think about happier times.
Like the recent spontaneous trip to Taiwan.
*Poked..The tummy I gained during the food excursion is getting smaller
*Rub..The sun-burned skin is finally peeling..
*Press..The crescent-looking bruised I gained during the baseball batting is gone,but still hurts when pressed..

And I thought about my Christmas.
1st one is the one with the broken finger..
2nd one is the one I spent in Cardiff..
3rd one is the one with fun-loving juniors in Korea.
4th one is the one I spent at the cake shop,lonely, when other people enjoys the cake with their love ones..

This year I was wondering..
Where should I celebrate my Christmas,no,actually count down the new year with?
With whom will I be counting down with?
What will I be doing then?

I look forward to it,yet..
There is always another side of the coin..
I might end up alone again here..
We'll see..

So many thoughts within that 5hours..
I seriously need more time for myself to work things out..