~Sensitive~

There's a price to pay for being too sensitive.You get offended at the simplest things,the slightest dust or noise.In my case,I'm really sensitive to certain words people say and certain actions people take.It doesn't offend me,but it does makes me wonder why they say that kind of words or take such actions.

I like to observe people and learn the good traits of each individual.So I'm always sensitive to how people react to certain situations.Only thing is,I learn and I absorb but I couldn't make it to full use.Being over-sensitive,I tend to hold back certain thoughts which might offend the other person I'm talking to and thus the silence that beholds.I've always believed that with no proper communication,any relationship would not work well,be it friendship,partnership or plain colleagues.Thus,it frustrates me when I'm not humorous enough,not intellectual enough etc but most of all,lacked a very strong point-of-view to have a smooth conversation.

Besides that,being over-sensitive,I tend to notice too,when other people tries to hold back what they wanted to say.I cannot stand not-knowing.When they hold back,it shows in their body language and facial expression.It really irks me when they wanted to tell you something but in the end thought otherwise,because I would start thinking that they have some secrets which concerns me but I'm not suppose to know.

There are other examples too for example,like when people goes "Do you remember the time we...blah blah blah".It's alright if everyone can join in the conversation,but if its only between A and B,I tend to wonder why they don't start a topic where C,D etc can join in too.Also,why purposely say word/words that you know the other party loath to hear?What's the fun of offending another person with the things they dislike?I fail to understand it.I tend to wonder why some people can chat with everyone without holding back too..I guess it's already a habit of mine,to hold back and talk less nowadays with sensitive issues that it's really amazing to see people talk with no worries and no strings attached.

In case you are wondering,there's no certain issue that triggers me to write this "Sensitive" entry.It's just another random accumulated thoughts of mine these days.Hopefully its not an 'over-sensitive' entry=P