~Weird~

I've lost my touch of writing in proper English.Looking back at some of my entries,I used to write ever so freely,so full of interesting points and sometimes using bombastic words which even surprises the current me.

Not to say I was very good in writing anything,but at least it was readable.Nowadays,all my entries are very lame attempts on trying to be interesting.I used to be able to write my emotions without thinking,describing the exact detail of fury,of melancholic,of happiness,of everything.Now,due to various reasons all my entries has to be censored and think over before publishing.

It has been a long time that I actually sit down and blog seriously.Actually,it is more of like..it has been a long time that I actually have time to sit down and think about myself,what do I want,what do I need,and where am I heading to.I'm not sure if this busyness is a blessing in disguise or pure busyness,because I realised that compared to last time..

Although I'm very busy now,I'm not as stressed up as last time.

Given the choice,I would still chose the busyness over my stressed up one year of studying for my entrance test the year before.But still I can't help thinking there are pros and cons to my life then..Though I was stressed then,at least my brain was functioning actively.Now,due to the busyness,I felt really dumb.I had not spend time reading novels,had not spend time on my text books or doing any revision.Sometimes,I even have problem writing word that used to come out without me stopping to think.

This laziness and dumbness has got to go.I'm not used to it..~~""