Its always hard to write a blog because in the end..I usually write something which is far from what I intended to write.I'm no perfectionist in blog writing therefore I don't edit,delete and rewrite.I just go with the flow..
And as of always,this blog is just some jumbled up thoughts of mine which I delibrately wanna voice out somewhere.During exam week,that's when my crazy thoughts/questions reaches its peak..
1.I wonder why you guys read my blog.I'm no Kennysia,I don't write things that amazes people.I don't write about the Japanese community here.I seldom write about my life here.I seldom write about the news(though more often than not I feel like it when I come upon some interesting article)I just write what I feel like writing,my feelings,my thoughts and my travels.So what,exactly is the attraction of my blog that draws you back to read?My well being in Japan?Your concern as a friend?I wonder..
2.What am I going to do with my life?Of course I'm thinking of furthering my studies til University in Japan.But nowadays,I wonder if I should go for Tokodai.(Tokyo Institute of Technology)Basically,I don't have a strong passion for Chemistry or anythings else that matters,I just do what I deem is best or being told,what is best.I felt like I'm a puppet of myself.Of the virtues and discipline I was taught.But my parents never taught me to go overboard.Some 'workaholic-poison' is in our blood I guess,my sis was at home studying for her STPM til 11.50pm when the exam starts at 12noon.Reason?She felt like she haven't studied enough..*sweat
3.I wonder how people can just stay upbeat all the time..
How could anyone be so sure of their lives,when all I did is ponder?
How could anyone be happy all the time,when all I have is somber?
4.Why do I always 'draw-a-line'?Seriously,I could never get too intimate with anyone..My so-called best friends since secondary school never actually seen me cry,no one actually know exactly how I feel about things or my purposes of doing things.Because I always have a tendency to detached myself from someone before I'm being 'exposed'..I might say,I just lack confidence when I know that a certain someone can see through me,or my weakness.Its like a wall I built around me being broken..and I don't really fancy that.Even if I have a lot of close male friends,I usually try to stay wary that we wouldn't get too intimate,I'm afraid of crossing over that comfort zone,that the friend might wanna be more than friends.This tendency happened a couple of times,and I usually back away when I notice their intentions.I just wanna be friends..nothing more..
5.I feel like I'm such a drama queen.Reading other people's post,Mayc's especially,they don't complain about how tiring their life is,they don't brag about their achievements.All I can see is them having fun with their lives,working hard and living on.They don't burden people with their complaints in life in their blog,even though I'm sure they do have their suffers as well.I seriously respect these people.I have a weird thought that what I write or do,seems to want to attract attention to myself unintentionally.Weird..
That's all..Sorry for the long post.Just some thoughts.
哇!!梁文音被PK掉，好可惜!!可是我也真的真的好喜欢Alisa。
她唱歌真的好好听喔，林健辉也好棒。。沉迷与超级星光大道了。。
每看一次就被感动几次。。
歌,果然能牵动人心。
进入5强了，每次看到一个又一个被淘汰掉。。
会伤心，会失落，会觉得很遗憾。。
可是，会继续看下去，从他们身上学到的东西，真不少。。
真的是“人生如戏，戏如人生”。。
First place to visit at Bath, is non other than the Roman Bath..
Bath Abbey..One of the place I liked most..
Next we went to The Fashion Costume Museum and wondered along the streets at Bath for awhile..
The weather is 5℃ outside...and I just took a one hour stroll back.I have a habit of taking a short walk after dinner nowadays.I realised that winter's night is unexceptionally quiet compared to Summer.I'm not exaggerating when I say it's pin drop silence outside.I enjoy walking alone at night,to hear the crunch of my footsteps upon the dry and withering leaves.But best of all,I enjoy going out in the cold..It helps to clear my mind about things and helps me relax and refresh..
My tutor and I..
