~BBQ party~

Just had bbq party at PPKTJ,went there at 6.30pm,fire started only at 8pm,got to eat only at 10.30pm,reached home at 11.40pm,bathe and blog..Saw some Sempai,including Michael,and a few Malay sempai which I dunno their names..Went for karaoke with Min Ley and May Ching at about 1pm til 4pm,weekends session cost a bomb,paid RM 27.60 each.Saw Vivian with her brother,chatted..Felt bored with shopping,grabbed something sutable for trips,2 simple sleeveless shirts.cost RM30..Been spending like water nowdays,have to keep an eye on them.The cost of lving in KL,killing me quickly...JPA not yet gave us our allowance,I'm half broke..

Gained weight nowdays due to excessive food intake,I felt sick,lack of sleep maybe..My bruise on the knee due to abselling is hideous.

Tired out,tomorrow,no today actually,have to wake up at 6am later,going to PPKTJ again,taking the JPA cash,then heading up to Ipoh for 2days..After that heading to Sabah with May ching,Xin Ning and Chin Leong.Hope it'll be a nice trip,I've been very passive nowadays,dun feel like talking,dun feel like shopping..What is it that I'm feeling??I felt very inferior nowadays,that's how I really felt..No common topics with the rest of the people,cannot make jokes like they do,ever so serious,even if I could,it's always lame attempts..Not strong in my Chinese language,can never catch what the rest are saying when they use superlative Chinese idioms or well-known people of Chinese history etc.Not even good in singing,not even good at anything..Why I can't just be better than the rest and felt superior for once?Why do I always feel so intimidated and blue at all times?Why do I always blurt stupid things?Why can't I get my words right in ONE simple language?Why do I even bother????Time ended..1.15am,exactly 5hours and 45minutes more of sleep...