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yst日本語、すっかり忘れてしまった。。本当のことだ、これは。。だから今日本語で書いてみて。


マレ一シアでの最後の新年,どんな気持ちになっただろう。実は、今の私？weird...very weird feeling..(thought of continuing in Japanese but using it will only jam up my pc so..I give up..)

I usually use Jap,to describe my low-moody feelings,dunno why,must be the words I've learnt has lotsa effect to bring out that kinda feeling whereas English lacked the pinch of sadness..anyway..

I came back early from my mother's hometown in Ayer Tawar,Perak.Early as in,to be precise,I've only spent 4days there..And I wanted more..I might say its because its my last year here in Malaysia but actually,I felt nothing.There's no need for me to do anything extra for things will never change,I will still leave,they will still celebrate their CNY,with or without me..Its just the pang of sadness never fails to hit me everytime we have to leave that place.Year by year,I have to experience this deja vu..What actually I miss most,I cannot put my finger to it.It's just there,the sadness of bidding my relatives goodbye(though most of them are in KL but some are working in Johor and Singapore),the thought of leaving the carefree live of no studies,loads of food in-take without worrying about anything and the GAMBLING..sure,we'll win and we'll lose,but the cheerful and nigiyaka atmosphere of everyone cheering and jeering,nevertheless,is something not to be missed..And yes,the local dishes,ishhhhh...Super nice,cannot live without them..Haven't manage to try them all this year..

But still,I came back and managed to go mamak-ing with Emerson,though it was cut short due to sudden blackout at Yusoff and I was pretty tired after 5hours of journey back all the way from AT..5hours!usually it takes only 3,but the jam was killing..then the next day,yesterday to be exact 1st of Feb,I went house hopping with my secondary sistas,and had great fun!!Its my first time I got to celebrate part of my CNY here in KL where most of my friend's hometown IS KL..So,early morning went KM house,met up with SY and WT,then WH house,then YY.Tried to pull away SY from WH's mum but without success,they chatted like old friends..^_^"..WS joined us at YY house..Next was mine,where they learned how to come so that they can come to my birthday party..hehe..WS and YY lost their way,had to find them and get them in.Leave my car,car-pooled in SY's car while WT and YY in WS's car.Next was Rosalind's where I had 3 rounds of Mahjong then mum called and scolded me for not noticing the heat meter,which was at H already..She said it could have burst in flames had I continued using her car..-_-""..Sorry-lar,didn't notice mar,just see the fuel meter only..err errr..To think I'm almost THIS close to face the grim reaper..err errr...*sweat..

Then walked to SKK's place,had a bottle of POP,watch Lin Chin Ling on TV,super thin..PF then joined us(looking splendid in make-up and corset-like top),we went to HC's place next,met her BF,Mr Eng was eating when we were leaving so no ang pow there.Next was THE STORE in Sri Petaling,went to visit Au Yong,Sharon and CKK but CKK went dating with his gal..Gave AY her belated birthday from Chee WEi,Edwin and Mua..Then head to Vivian's house.AWkward situation there cuz I was the minority who spoke in English with her..Last was PF's house..lotsa house hopping was done when the glas called it a day.KM had to leave early to go to her sister's house.So WS was about to fetch me back when we thought:"came out play,dun go back so early larrrr",so I called another potential free person,YY changed car at WH's place..WE head to One Utama after some discussion,made a wrong turnng and then spontaneously picked up Kwok Bing..Fellow Sentosarian,dunno name before this.Nice guy,VERy funny..WE went to 1U,got our there-and-then decided movie tickets,split up,the boys cari makn themselves whil YY and I got KM's birthday gift and had dinner at Shakey's..then...

YY found that all this while,she didn't carry her wallet with her...very very zha dao.."-_-.Cuz the gift I paid first so we didn't notice anything until when its time to pay for dinner..Lucky I brought extra cash,or else we have to call the guys to help the us and become damsel in distress..(Which I really very anti one-lor..)Then we met up with the guys and went for Kung Fu Sweetheart..It was hilarious but not worth to go cinema for it,prefer watching it on TV as a CNY comedy..got special seat,one level higher then the rest..hehe..After that we selamba-ly went to CKK house for CNY visit,long time never see him,still looked the same.YY broke record went out whole day..Went to Sri Petaling's Kinrara.Sms-ed Alex,he misunderstood the place I mentioned so didn't join me.YY and I were Cinderella so left at midnight.YY had a stomach-full of west-north wind while I had my trade-mark drink..WS good-naturedly agreed to my crazy idea and let me drove his Kenari to YY house.I stayed overnight at her house.

Felt sad seeing that's she's leaving in 9 days time..That's why I came up with the crazy idea of staying overnight at her house..hehe.Had a nice time chatting a little but dunno why,it could be I'm too tired,I can barely remember what she said..Just fuzzzy thoughts all night..I remembered how envious I was towards her,beautiful,neat,rich yet humble.She's one friend I truly treasure.From her,I noticed that I've learnt to be more organised and neat,and I'm sure thankful for it.Through projects we had done during or Form2 year,I really picked up some neat hand-writting,cleaner and more organised way of doing things,a more practical way of thinking,the virtue of thriftiness and the right time to spend my money etc.On the verge of her leaving,will I cry seeing her off?This is one thing that I could not assure..Well-known for my cold-heartedness,once breakdown,it hard for me to stop.And worst of all,I hate letting people seeing me cry.In other words,I prefer the me with more ego and strong,independant chracteristics then the more feminine and softer side of me..But hell,this is one of my best friend here..LEAVING..and with minor holidays clash,I really wonder when can we meet again..sighhh..

That's why the sudden melancholic feelings,NOT because I've lost RM50 just now due to gambling(ishh,Alex and Jason..kena belanja!!+p)..After all,I've got extra ang pow from a rich aunt..She gave me to buy some necessaries I'll need in Japan..muahhaha..its just..I dunno..the sudden fast-forwarded thoughts I have right now I guess,the ability to adapt in Japan etc..Yea yea,I worry too much..But every moment I have here now,is enlarged,slowed down to every second,every bit..I shall try to grasp,every single memory of it..Before I head to the unknown world..