~The bored syndrom~

I've been blogging,I should say..almost everyday since I'm on holidays..How ironic of me,making this a habit cum routine..When most of you all know how anti-routine I am..How can I blog that much?Its quite simple actually,you just need to accumulate that certain amount of boredom resulting oneself to turn on the PC everyday and voila,blogs are done..Even if its full of shit or craps..Blogs are to me,there to fill in my boredome,my frustration..I usually say..But actually blogs has a much significant role in my life,besides underlying all my thoughts and secrets,it's also..a place I seek myself and solace..

Again,a blog to rant about my trains of thoughts,with the thoughts being so random,I could say its all impulsive thoughts working out its way here through the tips of my fingers..So random,that people who read this,I've got no doubts may lost track mid way through..

I've been sleeping at 3am this morning,only to wake up shortly after at 4am to find my sister up studying again and I myself finally woke up at 6am..i have very troubling thoughts and it prevented me from getting my beauty sleep..The troubling thoughts are just too much til I have no memory of what it was about.Just worries,lotsa wories building up at one go and some distractions(namely seeing my sis studying?I dunno)just made it harder for me to get a peaceful rest..And up I was..Since it was a rare occasion that my sis and I were up so early,mum suggested we have breafast at OUG market..And I came to realise what my sis said was true,we practically visit the market like what?Once a year?gosh...bumped into Chen Yee and Jeffrey,though I was suprised Chen Yee recognised me after all the differnce in me..I reminised the years we had dedicated our time to "jaga" the classes together,and it all seems like yesterday..The memories of secondary school..My senior here waving at me gave me a short jolt back to memory lane,how my school and life once revolves around that area..

I've just read my seniors blog..It occurs to me that after knowing him,I've heighten my sensitivity to my surroundings and learned from him,the passion
and joys of travelling.Though however good it may sound to be,I've learned the cons from it too..for example,I've learned that I've always been sensitive to my surrounding and was often hurt for being too particular about it.Not everyone share the thoughts I have for others,and often I'm being labelled that I care too much about small matters and make a big fuss out of it.My passion for travel makes me don't see eye to eye with my mother at times,her,thinking its a waste of money whereas I,though understanding her will to keep me safe and spend more time with her before leaving to Japan,can't help being rebellious and stubbornly refuse to backdown from my travelling.Guess I'm just too strong headed too..

This hols,I've argued with her numerous times.Yeah,I know lots will advice me against it,but seriously,I can't help it,especially when it comes to going against my own principles of living..Easily summarise as,I hate being forced to do something against my will.Citing small insignificant examples of forcing me to eat when I've made myself clear I had enough or going against my plan to make a short trip with some Malay friends to Terengganu next Wednesday..Easily said,I've came back to relax and enjoy myself and I don't really like the package of "listen to mum's nagging" that comes with this hols.I made my world revolves around my friends,she used to say that about me.Yes,I have no qualms about that,I admit I have these selfish thoughts,often taking my mum for granted..But true to my rebellious blood,I just can't withstand naggings and orders from preventing me of doing something i would love to do instead..even how un-filal I might seemed to be..I just,pain-stakingly selfishly,like to do things my own way....Sigh,the irony of my life...

And thus goes on another paragraph of my blog though I had the strong urge to stop at the paragraph above.Again,can't help it..Does anyone believes in fate or coincidence?Like I said before,I've just gone through my seniors blog and the thing that I noticed was the similarities we had that happened within that same short period of time..He has just finished The Five People you Meet in Heaven and though I had finished it not too long ago,what I found was that we had the same thougts about the book.And recently,I noted, he had just finshed The Da Vinci Code.So have I.And between the not so different time frame,we had chased Love Story In Harvard and also Full House drama..Besides this,I just had a wedding dinner a few hours ago.Sms-in Clement made me suprised to find that he too,was at a wedding dinner at that exact moment..Just that KLs' wedding dinner was never punctual and again,I've complained so much I find it tiring to compiled the complaints from myself again..haha.And sad to say,Aunty Vivien was a pain in the ass tonight,showing off her wealth with words,her brilliant daughter going to UK etc,yakking non stop at the dinner table..I've always thought well of her,but tonight was a bt of disapointment..I had to bear 2 and a half hour of yakking and sore to my left ears...Goodness...

Anyway,my boredom has to end here as I have to bid myself goodnight and look forward to a hopefully different Sunday tomorrow..Bless all those who have managed to finish my blog to the end..Goodnights.