~Wallow up gal...~

CAn't believe this..after my yesterday's super short entry,even telling everyone i'm fine...i cried..so damn f**king embarrassing..it must be the whole days mood,though practically i felt really...empty yesterday,not sad not angry..just empty...Then it must be all the series of misfortunes whoich always come in 3s...the last being that i've actually cycled with Min Ley to the cc yesterday of my previous entry.

Upon returning,i fell..not the hard,solid fall..i just...fell...yeah,blame it on myself for riding a bike taller than my butt,but then again without practise,i would NEVER ever able to ride a bike taller than myself huh??Its been like a practise theses days,when we dun feel like studying,Min Ley, May Ching and I will often get the boys to lend us thier bicycles to have a stroll around the hostel..sigh..well,it finally made its toll yesterday...i knew i would fall somehow,just didn't know it'll hurt my poor confidence so hard..i was devasted in fact..to exaggerate a little..

Yeah,u guys might be laughing cuz its such a small issue..but thats just a part of it..i cried,the whole 1 hour..Min Ley was such a nice sport and ironically a big bully all in one..sigh..she actually laughed out..LOUD when i fall yesterday,lucky its not on the main road for if so,good bye earth...(oh yeah,i'm currently in the LL room again waiting for my turn for kaiwa..and they are talking about me,trying to whisper but not making a good effort in doing so..sigh..some crap..talking as if i'm some diseases waiting for ppl to actually find out or cure..bull shit!!)Hell,all this bulkl shiting and cussing is really..fun...haha...then,she's so nice by helping me hide my stupid crying face on the way up to our room when Joanne abruptly came out from her room to find out what the fuss was all about (knowing us,shouting is a norm...)and she even called Teo to scold him for making me cry..(actually its not his fault,just that i've been through a series of bad mood and his "jokes" just triggered the tap flowing..)but she's also such a bully..arrghhh

She told eventually the whole world about it,making my crying a whole lot louder,this time its crying cuz of embarrasment..for all i know,it was such a relief to cry my heart out..i've not felt so much better in the long run..anyway,wanna thank Min Ley,for trying to cheer me up..May Ching n Xinning for accompanying me through the next 1 hour of wallowing..Thanks a bunch to Alex and Chee Wei for being such nice sport to actually called and smsed me..shoots..why in the world i have to be such a drama queen??i think,this once..will be enough thank you..just once..for now..i'm empty again,not talking to anyone throughout the whole day..thank goodness for websites and internets...