~A Thought-provoking Outing~

Early morning i got up,exactly 10 minutes before the alarm goes off..another day of my hols,another outing.Today's took place at Times Square again,that's 3 times in a week..whoa..and today's movie is Hitch..first up,the comment on the movie,it was pretty hilarious but being used to the lame jokes of English movies,i didn't really had the laugh-off-my-head jokes but polite and catchy ones..u get the idea.it was a really feel good movie,and again,it's really worth another of my RM6..haha..though,i'm slightly amazed that it can actually get through Malaysian Censorship board without being snipped off here n there..cuz there was really a countable amount of liplocks..but should they do so,it would have "killed" the "magic" of the movie..i sincerly think so,anyhow..and my partner for my outing today was,Chee Wei..the last time i saw him,it was 2 months ago,i think..through all sorts of modern day communication,i kept in touched with my dear secondary pal and i knew he sports a new haircut..but saw him today,and i was bewildered...i know he's really into this hairstyling thing,but today the Chee Wei i saw really made me took some time before i can finally get used to his new image,or to be more specifically,his new hairstyle..Details: the left part was partly bald,the right was still thick and spiky..and the back,was let shaven towards the right side..yes,a very punk look..seriously,if i have not known his characteristics of being a fashion lover but otherwise pretty harmless studious fella,i would never have thought of wanting to know him with his now-image..should have taken a picture of it..haha,as rememberance..well,talked to him a lot today and as usual,we talked about things we seldom find other ppl understanding,but its not any top-secret or anything..just some ppl dunno us well to actually hear all these stuff..i'm sure somehow or another,u all have a pal who can really talk about anything..and luckily i found him..

Understanding that to him,his hairstyle is everything..so though he can be pretty shy tackling gals,he can be pretty bold and passionate about his hair..one of the few ppl i have met that is really passionate about something and actually do something about it,unlike me,with no special interest,and thus,leads a dead boring life..anyhow,meeting him today really made think about a lot of things,sometimes in the mid-conversation with him..hehe..(sorry for not paying attention but i think vice-versa oso lar)well,to me Chee Wei is still the same-old-same-old.I guess having to be in the same comfort zone of friends,school and family can't really change one's characteristic(him being in the same Sentosa for 5 years,now 7,doing his f6)Or is it just me that changed a lot since i started studying here??to me right now,unlike the me where i usually share his thoughts(a little) that being single is really a not-so-good thing?now,seriously,i find that it really doesn't bothers me at all,and sometimes,i think that kinda thinking is really immature and primitive.(hmm,some interruption now,my secondary school mate started a 7 ppl chatroom and i find it pretty "noisy"..so i left to continue where i stopped..distrupted my flow and mood just now..hmm.)all i can say that,Chee Wei is still Chee Wei,still looking at those lala mui,crack some jokes..but to me,i think i have started to drift a little.My prorities have differed and now,i prefer to enjoy life to the fullest by travelling,and not stuck and restraint myself from the oh-so familiar comfort zone of my KL city..What really prones me to think like that?

I think,after graduating F5,things are not so simple anymore..getting to know other people from various parts of malaysia,really set me apart from my familiar surroundings..sure,KL is still KL,the department stores,bowling alleys are all still there,but here,its a whole new world in PPKTJ.To compare my life here to the reality game Survivor sounds pretty harsh,but it does have some similiarities.for one,ppl here are not so friendly like the way they potrays to be..i for one,fallen victim to one of these ppl but now,things are changing for the better..it seems like a whole new different world,ppl are more,emotional and ever so beguiling at times..really made me looking after my back at all times..how i wished to get the same friends in secondary school,where everyone gives n tolerates each other n not "kill" each othr fighting for the deemed-so-important positions..though i would love that,however,if given the a second chance,i will still not let go the chance of accepting this course,this path.So wat if my girlfriens are in Sentosa,to me now,i have adapted to the situation here and enjoyng my new-found hobby of travelling..and thus,sad to admit,like the poem,homecoming,i have found and gained experienced from all these travelling,and i dare say,if i were to be at F6,never will i have the chance to open my eyes to see the beauty and wonders of malaysia..that's because sad to say,to me now,my girlfriends in secondary school follow the book too much and restraint themselves too much from really experience and enjoy the fortune around them..true,some might disagree that through travelling only that we can experience the true meaning of life,but hey, tell me,is it through blindly accomplishing ur daily work,without resting even on weekends and holidays,u'll get what u want in life??not oni that,my mind oso drifted that,by the age of 25,will i still be able to be,like today,sitting in front of my pal,chatting freely whilst we are sipping Starbucks,giving comments about every lala gal we see on the street?i doubt that,so like what he said,while he is still young,he can't be bothered about ppl's stares at his unique hairstyle and likewise,i can't be bothered about ppl saying i hang out late at night or travelling too much though i'm a gal..society prejudice...that's wat i think.

Not only that,what really made me worried is the importance of friendship..however wide my circle of friends is, i really doubt i can mange to keep in touch with allof them n it scares me to think i'll lose each n everyone of them..but mainly now what really confuses me is,who will i miss?i wondered,should i be in Japan then,who will i find comfort in calling when i get homesick??i have no idea..i'm woried i will no longer be of importance to them,that my call will just be a burden to them,interrupting their oh-so hetic n packed lifes..i dunno..i seriously dunno..ah well,i guess only time can tell,and no point worrying about the future if my present is not yet done well enough..luckily,i still didn't run out of things to chat with Chee Wei,shud that happens...i will really wonder what has happened to me n where my friendship bond stands..