~Aggressiveness~

I have noticed recently i AM pretty harsh with my words,i wonder why..guess its really rude of me..i can't control it and overreact at times,citing an example,i was talking on the phone with Emerson yesterday and mum satrted quipping in now and then wen i mentioned i wanna go out,i think she din noticed i was on the phone..so i was damn piss off cuz it was damn irritating and i blurted :"would u all please shut up??"all the ppl in the car fall silenlt immediatly..i know its my fault,but my tempers do flare up suddenly at times but most of the time i can tolerate it but dunno wat went wrong yst..haizz...then all the screaming ang talking to loud also caused my mum to shoot daggers at me..really guilty,have to repent..must watch my words now,being to agressive n active is not good..

today,mum din wait us up early enough and the Genting trip was cancelled..i know she meant well,seeing us so tired out and slept like pigs,so wanna lets us rest more...but i was dead dissapointed wen she suggested the trip was cancelled,thank to my sis who have to attend her oh-so-important singing classes ler..nobody fetch her wor,cuz father went to Raub..haiz...i arguedwith mum again at first til then end i dun feel like saying anything anymore..so the trip was cancelled cuz its too late di,and 1 day u can't possibly finish all the rides..so postponed to tomorrow lo,lucky Clement suggested..haha..then,after agreeing,we went to pick up some of his clothes n spent the rest of the day at KLCC..haha,with Min at Kinokuniya,Clement went for the F1 roadshow,i end up watching Constantine alone..really enjoyed myself cuz i can't stand spending my day at the bookstore so..not bad wat the show,cool..iwas so eager to watch it for a very long period of time di and since everyone has watched it,try watching alone lo..not bad the feeling of it..haha,at least i won't be disturb by some sudden remarks from anybody..no,no,not saying that i dun enjoy the company of friends or my friends are script repeaters,just saying,that watching alone is kinda cool too..not bad lar(have to look at the positive side of everything right??)...all was enjoyable,even the two plump ladies and thier husbands squeezing me in the middle..all was well except for the bastard behind that kept on switching his leg or plain shaking it..damn!!wenever he tries to shake,i'll turn my head a little to show him i mind and thank goodness he got the message and stopped..until his habit kicks in again..DAMN!!ignorance is bliss they say,and well,it kinda work..at times,wen the part og f the show went into its peak..dun these ppl read the paper about bad habits in the cinema??or simply they dun read The Star??or plainly left their brains at home and their civic mind?goodness.. really this is wat dampens my mood to watch any movie,and being a frequent cinema visitor,i really wonder what can be done to give a piece of my mind to this selfish movie goers?aren't the advertisements enough??

ah well,then spent the rest of the day reading a book (in the end i did end up reading)at Kinokuniya inside Isetan,din know there's one there..and lucky me,i found a book in English (duh its at the English corner)the whole store was selling Japanese reading material only and picked up a book about the insight of Japan from the view of Kay whats-her-name..soreee,really bad at remembering names..a foreigner who lived in Japan,and still does,i think.The insight she gave was about the lifestyle of Japan,and something that really humour me and really gave me a rough idea about how life would be in Japan,the ppl,the culture etc..and to say the first chapter always leaves the strongest impression...its kinda true,haha..the first was that the KITCHEN is a good place to bond and communicate,be it for the Americans or Japanese..and its kinda true,its a place where u do all the talking while savouring a decent meal..well,the next feel chapters were mostly about Japanese cultures and her perspective anout Japan..how she assimilated with them after staying with them,teaching them English etc.among the topics were the things to say or do,how the Japanese are well known as one of the most polite ppl in the world,perspective of foreign woman towards the Japanese men...and i find this quite true,Japanese man or not,they are better listeners compare to the American counterpart,where by they are trained to listen to u first before giving their opinions...as for the American men,they are brought up to interrupt u and proving u wrong and over-eager to express their thoughts..haha..and the phrase "i'm in the bad mood today" are always uttered by the Americans when they first meet the ppl they know at times,as if it really explains everything,are found quite hilarious in the world of Japan..to the Japanese,usually they will often greet ppl in a warm and nice way instead of expressing thier negative moods and pour their feelings out..i think there's good and bad points in this case..its good to channel out ur frust but not to the extent of pouring out to ur friend without acknowledging whether they are in the mood to listen first..and its not good to bottle up eveything too,its just plain not healthy..

besides that,she also mentioned about ppl often not noticing their own oddness when it comes to their own culture bout often noticed bout other country's..citing an example is that nowadays,the youngsters in Japan prefer marrying in church although they are not Christians and the foreigners or GAIJIN felt weird about that..din they notice that most Americans are having their weddings in church though there are some who are Protestants,Buddhist,muslims even?are some of them are changing the words in the vows nowaday,especially the woman part with words containing something like "loyal,trust and obey"..thats the word,and i'm sure u noticed..OBEY..so some couples are changing the vows to custom written ones which to some are more unique and romantic..and for equality rights..well,that's why since they themselves altered so much of the traditional wedding ceremony,its just the same for the Japanese ppl,only to them,church wedding seems more romantic and easy..

there are lots more,and i wanted to buy the book but it cost a hefty RM 39.95..imagine that for a book i manged to finsh within say,1 and half hour i think..goodness..so,sayonara book..and off i went for Secret Receipe..funny huh i can have second thoughts (triple even) wen it domes to buying a more than RM 20 book but for food i can use as much withought wincing..really have to get my priorities right di and from now on control the flow of my cash,so far not bad lar,if i were to compare to Min n Clem..hehe..and oh,wen i was at KL Central,this creep tried to "eat my toufu" by brushing as if by accidently againts my hand..wen i look at him,he gave this damn creepy smile..lucky it was just a brush through,try to do anything and i'll...i dunno do wat but i just won't let him off the hook so easily,and i was cursing so loudly in Chinese so the damn fucking Indian creep won't understand..DAMN!!..okla,calm down,so tmr will be the substitute Genting trip so..nites..tired out..dun intend to stay in the first place but someone blocked my car from leaving and wanted me to wait for 5 minutes and then there's place here finally so,as fate wants it..i stayed to type this..hahaso..bye bye