~If U're in A go0D mo0d,DO noT pr0c3eD~

Seriously,this blog today is full of negative energy,so unless u are a really ardent fan/friend who is willing to spend the next 10 to 20 minutes of ur happy life reading my blog,by all means do not proceed any further..i mean seriously,wats there to read bout my blog anyway??just some routine journal-kinda blog which serves no purpose to the reader except to the writer who have no other means of releasing her stupid thoughts n energy,by blogging..oh yeah,n a friend (u know who u are,idiot!)even told me that my blog is boring..yeah,i know..i'm not a really good blogger,unlike experienced people with full of creative writing skills,i'm just doing like wat i have said earlier..writing a longer version of journal..

To get the ball starting of my recently,lasting negative energy..i'll just roughly,no screw tat,i will,blog in definite detail bout wat is the source of my negative energy for TODAY..(note:the word today is emphasized cuz theres lots more to come,so if u wanna back out now,its never too late)i guess,i am pretty down these days..due to exam or just in the mood for blue..i dunno..for sure today,i was kinda disturbed by a friend..its not something she has done,its something she has said(word are sharper than swords anyone?)..its part of my fault actually..the thing is i've heard from a friend of mine that my roommate wanted to shift out..i was suprised to hear of the news from others and not from my dear room companion herself,but seriously i was not aghasted..I mean,this friend i confronted was kinda close with my roomate u see,n yeah,she is well awared of my roomates decision..so,she told me it was not because of my ignorance of my roomate while i was too engrossed in my revision in the room..as she does not want to elaborate futher,i told her i understand..being caught in the middle is seriously not a nice feeling..But as i told her,i don't hold any grudge against anyone..even to my roomate,guess i am not a persuasive kinda person..she looked kinda disbelieved..Well,I'm not holding any grudge against her too for i know,its hard being the middle man..But then,if i'm such a vengeful person,i wouldn't be talking to u for the rest of ur life..trust me..i"ve done that before..So if I'm talking to u,however little,i seriously do treat u as a friend,just maybe i'm outta things to say or prefer staying quiet..yeah,i know,i sound like typing a hidden message to my friends who is going to read this but all i wanna emphasize is,I know holding a grudge is a tiring thing and to tell u the truth,i dun wanna pratice it in the present or future..so,peace??

Actually i dun really give a damn if i was to live in a room alone,im used to it anyway.its just that I dun want people starting getting ideas that I'm like some kinda freak forcing my roomate outta my room.(selfish thoughts huh?)Well,it does made me ponder though,do i seriously have problems?Seeking advise from my best friend is of no use cuz like wat best friends do,they stand by ur side..so,i dunno,we are going to be here for the next 1year and 3 months,why make the situation so serious n awkward??i have no idea..Oh by the way,this paragraph and the few lines of the second paragraph was written on another day,so all the moody thinking n writing seemed to diminshed a little..haha,guess its a good thing.well,its saturday..had a crazy night before..

Was on9 as usual on a normal Friday night blogging halfway thru,then found a friend who was also as bored as mua..so impulsively invited this friend of mine for a midnight movie at MidValley and know wat?WE even got good seats for it,yupz,we went..Watched One Miss Call,haha,seriously watching a horror during midnight is ecstatic..Just can't stand the woman at the front row,gasping at every startling(not scary)part of the show..A loud one too..sigh..control lar lady,its a public cinema..the movie is cool,best,i should say among all the japanese movies available.After that,drove wth my friend in seperate cars,(cuz we live far apart mar)went for the usual mamak..for the first time ever,i was out late (2am kinda late) and drinking Teh Ais till 3am..haha,was kinda fun,n lucky me,i was not scolded..Mum even waited for me around 2.45am till 3am at home(promised her will be back by then n i kept it),was kinda touched n secretly vowed not to repeat this late kinda activity again though fun as it is..an experience i should say..So had a 3hour sleep,woke up at 6am,in order to get my passport done..

Everything was done within,say 4hours?went home for another 2 hours of restless sleep,and yupz,homework..Thats the life we go thru,homework and more homework..moodswings were there the whole day,guess it might be due to my own fasting..(only had 3 quarter of a roti planta for breakfast,skip lunch).Had a Buka Puasa dinner u see,went just right on time as my fellow UTM mates reached the destinated place.Oh suprise (not!),i was the only Chinese gal who went for the function,and felt so out of place.its not like i don't know my Malay counterparts but still,awkward and out of place is the more suitable word than anything else..Dinner was fine,had the usual after-dinner-chat session with my Chinese male friends while the rest went for praying sessions..Had a hard time conveying in Japanese to my Japanese teacher who was also around,but it was merely small talks so,it was fine..wat made me uncomfortable is the Malays who usually love to tease me because of my so-call "beauty".(rolling my eyes).Everytime if i'm paired up with a Malay guy for group discussion or presentations in class,the whole Malay gang will give their trademark hootings n grinnings..sickening is all to be said from me.They even cheered out loud,clapping their hands when they found out,my friend and i are the only 2gals in the class..the rest,Chinese or Malay gals were divded equally to the amount of 7 in one class and 8 in the other.Can u belive this?2Gals in my class n 18 boys,and i can get soooo lucky.+( thank goodness changing of classes happens every 2 months...And so,yeah,received compliment from them on how i dressed today,just sometimes wish they will keep their mouths shut?And don't they understand simple English?When i said i DON'T wanna take photos with them,bug off lar!!And i believe my command of BM is not that bad till they cannot understand the word "tak nak"??geeshh,I'm just a normal gal,so please stop treating me like some kinda royalty or a fragile glass that needs lots of love and attention..

And wat is this lar??All my testimonial in my friendster are gone!!And if I comprehend it correctly,EVERYONE's gone..I seriously can't help swearing when i first found out,i mean...ARRGGGHHHH..all my nicely written testimonials from friends throughout my 18 years of life..gone,just like that..gone with the wind...sob,sob..nobody really understands how much it means to me that my friends are actually taking the effort to think about me and typed all the heart and soul-warming messages/testimonials for me..And it was all gone without a warning!!!!Really pissed la..so,after 6 hours of insufficient sleep..i'll have to end here..Weight gain problem or not,my priority now is to get rid of my Panda bags,though still worrying bout my uncontrolable weight gain..(the vast difference was shown today when i took my pics for my passport)Reality sets in,gotta exercise more from now onwards..sigh..netai desukara...jya ne..