~Mature??~

Lots had happened,I should be taking an afternoon nap to get ready for more studying..2more days,4more subjects to go.Instead,I saw this..

有機化学66.5% and this hi dear, miss u a lots here...how are u there?? i'm doing quite well in ukm..sometimes when i facing any problem, i really hope that u are by my side n can give me some advices...keep in touch o...in my friendster testimonial..

I have lotsa emo thoughts right now..Just couldn't put them in words accordingly..I'll try..

I wonder if it is a curse,that everytime my first day of exam,my worst result of all subjects will come out.I thought the 78% I got perviously for this subject was bad enough,I was shocked to see this..66.5%.I already wonder if I can have at least 70%,but no..it was lower.Should I be grateful that I can take this test again,to add more marks?(this teacher is good in a way that even if you didn't fail,you can resit for another paper and divide the total marks of the 2papers,the only catch is..the other paper wouldn't be easy too and you have to restudy.)Or shall I wallow in self pity?I have to get at least 93.5% in the next attempt to get an A of 80%...Hard..Its not that I didn't try,I studied 4times on this subject.But guess,I should know more..

Reading this sweet testimonial from a close pal..I wonder if I really was the mature gal who can help give advice,to soothe her worries etc?Since when I have the ability?She was the one with better results,why did she needed me?Looking at my current situation,I wonder who am I to give advice..What a joke,I can't even help myself...(still,it is nice that someone still thinks of you and you knowing it)

Getting in to the hospital on Sunday night was no excuse.The test was on Friday.Please don't panic at the word Hospital,I'm doing fine right now.It was just that after dinner,I had stomachache which was too unbearable that I had to go to the hospital..It was not appendicitis nor food poisoning.What was it,even the doctor was not quite sure due to the fact I only had blood test and had not done scanning.Might be intestine inflammation due to fact the lower part of my stomach hurts.It was a scary experience alright,with me getting pale,short of breath and couldn't even stand all of a sudden.But all is well right now..

One thing I noticed upon this experience,Japan is just another country after all.Who says they will help you immediately and efficiently?I went there by cab,about 30minutes away from my hostel accompanied by a worried Soo and the teacher on guard in my hostel.Should my stomachache does not cease by that time,I could swear I can almost see 'the light'..Given an emergency,shouldn't you take the patient to the nearest hospital instead of seeing which hospital's turn is it for that day?(I don't know,they have a system that says which hospital you should go should emergency happens on which days..weird)Upon reaching,at the 'Emergency' ward,loads a people are waiting in line,and you have to first..Fill in the form..I could barely stand,what more write???(thank God Soo came with me)Emergency ward my foot,I waited another 30minutes before it was my turn..

I could swear,if my pain hasn't ceased,I really would have cursed right in front of them.

Done blood test,waited for another 2hours before the result is out..There goes my night revision..(reminded me when I had dengue in PPKTJ,it was exam period too..sighhh)

And the bill...Gosh,had I not bring my insurans card,the bill would have killed me there and then..total amount about 13400yen..after discount,4200yen..plus medication...another 570yen...haaaa-___-""..All paid myself..

So what's the big deal about Japan again???

Back to my exam..

This time...I'm going to do badly..Really badly..That subject I mentioned above(Organic Chemistry)..Sigh...I shouldn't and isn't consoled by the fact more than half of the class failed,I myself just slightly above the passing mark..the fact is...The minorities who scored...Scored more than 82 and above..One of them..My tutor...So why is it that I can't????I really should consider whether I wanna take Bio or Chem next year...

I'm really lost right now....

By the way,thanks for all the comments in the previous blog..Guess,its time for me to buck up..After all,4more subjects,4 more chance..(this is not matured-lah Mayc,this is kiasu...and medication only-mar,makan oni..hehe)