~Since when?~

Wanted to type in Chinese,but my Chinese is only a form of limited verbal-communication skill.Typing in English seems odd too,nowadays..As I read back my previous post,I can almost laugh out loud at the simpleness and bareness of the passage.Since when,I'm really desperate to know...Have I become such a loser?

Deteriorating in English,verbally wise,I can still accept.(Being surrounded by Japanese language all the time has its affect.)But writing wise?Unacceptable.Its like I'm already at MY peak,can no longer get better.Now,its only limited vocab,stagnant standard.I miss the times where I can read a book a day,picking up words along the way.

Japanese language wise.Ha..another huge joke.Went to homestay,can barely understand three quarter of the words the family is trying to say without asking them to repeat.After 4 months all together.What do I get??Except the fact I spent more money on travelling and gaining the pounds,I also lost my grasp on my languages.Even when I went to Taiwan,I sucked at reading the Chinese characters.I can remember either the way the to read the character or write the character without knowing how to read it.Pathetic,I say...

Since when am I good at anything anyway?I'm always half good,never good enough at anything..