~Dizzy~

For the first time I had no control over my body...I realised all the symptoms were there,hearing voices two rooms away,swaping between real life and dream-like fantasy,thus being really restless...And true enough,for the first time I'm here,I don't feel like getting up and was lazying around on my bed early in the morning after the beep of my alarm clock...

It started of as warning.a mere ant bite pain..But it grew worse at the same pace of the weather as it gets warmer.The warm weather felt good on my skin,and for once,I need not wear a jacket over my top to class.The Monday lessons were the most boring and today,the dose of boring-ness and sleepiness enheightens the pain.I had a terrible headache...

Bearing it for 4hours,I went back to my hostel as usual for my lunch.Todays' serving however,was in the form of a 15-minute-nap.Woke up feeling better and head back to class,my face getting warmer and flushy,thanks to the welcoming warmth from the sun.However,the next lesson was a bullet-train one-on-one lesson and within 45minutes,I was taught and had tried to absorb the 1st and 2nd year syllabus of Organic Chemistry.If that is not pressuring enough,try having to do exercises there and then while the sensei is breathing down your neck,checking if you really understood what he had taught amidst all the "haik,wakaramishita"..

I nearly collapsed when I went back to my class for the next lesson,jiken(experiment).Did the experiment with full concentration,holding back every ounce of throbbing pain in my head.Even managed to correct my partner and she in return,told me how to do the report.Went back to class about 4.30pm,the paon now intense,and I found myself not even bothered to hurry for my Japanese class.Luckily everyone was late..

Half way through answering questions,I can no longer withheld myself thus I asked my Japanese sensei if she have any medication for headache.She in return looked at me in a very concerned face and told me if I was really only having a headache for I was really flushed at that time.My face was hot and unusually pink at that time.She made me went to the clinic in school,stopping me from continuing the lesson and I was showed the way to the clinic by another nice sensei.Had my temprature taken but I was not ahving fever.

All I felt was nausea and a killing headache.I almost burst into tears when the doctor asked me how I was,saying it must felt hard to cope with the pressure etc.Actually,I'm fine with the time of the lesson here,having longer hours back in PPKTJ.In fact,I find it quite relaxing having short periods here(though the Jap complain it was long having to had 40min per period back then,now its 50min per period).The reason I had tears swelling up is that the pain was killing and having someone speaking to you in such soothing and concern voice in a state of pain,I had no idea what hit me.Luckily I managed to look away and blink back,amazed by my sudden emotional attack.Sigh,headaches are great mind conquerers..

Had no appetite for dinner,munched a few salad,took a few bites of noodles(the first time I feel that the canteen food sucks),chatted with Ben but could no longer withheld the nausetic feeling and excused myself.Sure enough,within minutes of reaching my hostel,all the food I had for dinner came through my mouth,even yesterday's dinner.Vomitted all in 3 go.First,dinner I just had,second yesterday's dinner,third,pure yellow liquid.Felt much better after vomitting and went to bed.Worried about my small test tomorrow but too weak to care..

The medication worked miriculously and within one hour of nap,I woke up fresh.Took the effort to get something in my stomach,cursing those people who doesn't know how to control their volume and their way of walking with loud thuds in their clogs.Tried revising for tomorrow and now,after waiting for the daily annoucement of "tenkou time""lights of time"..Its finally quieter.Hopefully,I can have a peaceful sleep tonight..Else,my journey to Tokyo will be a disaster.