~time to think~

As off my other blogs,sometimes,I just go blank at how to start..But of cuz once I get started,I couldn't stop..(with the exceptional stop-to-chat of cuz)So here,I shall type bout my outing yesterday before going to the more serious tone after that...

Had a great day with Eli And Vivian yesterday.Eli they all picked me up at 10.50am,headed to Mv,managed to get the 11am ticket for Nanny McPhee,and was counted as the early birds so paid only RM6.The show was really enjoyable but had some idiots behind,a couple somemore,who doens't know the meaning of switching the phone to silent mode in a cinema!After the boyfriend got a cal(who he deliberatly tried to act innocent and ignore its ringing,like duh..as if we dunno that's his handphone...We had to stare at him until he sheepishly pick up his cal) then next was the girlfriend.Talk on the phone loudly too..Idiots them!!And to think they'll learn their lesson but no...they had more calls,and were talking(and I mean talking,not even trying to whisper!!)to each other at some parts of the movie..Damn EEJITS!!!

Aftew movie we strolled around,then went to Oh Sushi where we found that there was no more Kaiten belt so after sitting at the nice sofas,we dashed back out..And with the waiter and waitress greetting us in their oh-so-loud ARIGATOU GOZAIMASHITA in an all wrong slang,we were embarrasingly walking out fast,using the usual they-don't-know-us-anyway attitude to take us to Sushi King.^_^"..Got comfortable and started eating..I had no idea why but I took 5dishes from the beige colour before I finally decided,no,for the colours sake,I have to take something of different colour..so yeah,lame me..First time eat Sushi King without green tea,and the poor Chi gal was having trouble explaining to us in English that I politely spoke to her in Canto and asked her what's the prob.After all,Eli they all can understand what...Seems the hot water system was out of order so we had to order fruits drinks or canned drinks instead...Eww...spoilt the taste..

Had Baskin Robbin's ice-cream(How nice of Vivian..*ahemmm)Got myself(finally after 3months of scouting)a NiKe sports shoe,Eli got nice err...strappy sandals?for herself..Talked to Sook Fan at Vincci while the other part time workers was wondering why a customer was so closed to their permanant worker.Met my relative there too.Then we head back to Eli's house,watched American Idol,blog hopped and went to Pasar Malam which also meant to Steven't corner to them..NOW I know...thought they really go to the Pasar Malam..Hanged out with Eli,Vivian,Khai Chee and Li Shean,then Li Shean left,Pui Zhan came..Saw a lot juniors from Sentosa who always gave me trouble back when I was the prefect and they,the "gangsters" of the school..From the looks of their face,they must be wondering why in the world or how to be exact,I've gained so much weigh..But maybe they wouldn't care less anyway..hehe...

Thanks to Eli who had been so nice chauffering Viv and I the whole day out,I arrived home contented an HAPPY!!Cuz Eli gave me a super sweet-and-thoughtful gift of body cream from Body Shop and a quaint neat daily planner.I'm not one of those who pamper myself often and with the climate in Japan,her body cream gift is such a welcomed and thoughful gift I've ever received..Thanks a lot....

Ok so now,I'm home again..Its 2.34pm.Had a restless sleep no thanks to my mum who woke me up with her usual routine in the kitchen at 5 something in the morning,my sister heading out at 9am in the morning,and my brother's coming back from Sports Day at 11am in the morning..Had a chocolate bar for lunch..So then people,ready for my thoughts??haha..nothing much actually but here goes....

The day before yesterday,I had trouble sleeping.A good friend of my companied me through SMS whilst my sister took over the pc,cutting me out of communication with the rest of my circle of friends.I have been worried actually.I guess I'm really suprised how limited time I have left,unlike a senior of mine last year,after going out with friends for some weeks,he resolved to stay at home a few days,or was it a week?Well for me,like today for instance,staying at home proves to be quite some challenge too..the challenge of looking for something to do,and when I did manage to find something to do,it really irritates me that before I can complete what I was doing,mum will ask me to do some chores or go to the post office to send in my sis's scholarship application or something.Call me nuts but I hate to do something half way or was interrupted,whoever the other party is.I dislike that.Thus,I become grumpy and of course will start to complaint or better still in the adolescent's well-known skill,completly act as if I couldn't hear anyting or just scowl..I know,I know,people who knows my mum thinks that she doesn't deserve this kinda treatment but I can't help it ya know?Try being asked to do things every time you're at home and wanted some time to relax and rejuvanate and was instead,asked to drive around town etc,get yourself doing other people's job while the person who IS supposed to do it is leisurely working at an air-cond office,surfing the net and getting paid.I know she works hard both in her school and in the office,but it'll help more if she can get her own things organised instead of asking mum and I be her runner and send in everything(all her scholarship applications) for her in the last minutes,just in the nick of time before the closing dates..Take today for instance,I had to go to my mum's office to send in my sis's bank account book and searched high and low at home for that and her copy of results in order to get the reward for scoring excellent results.Not only was the searching difficult(I'm not the person who keep her things,how should i know where she puts them??),I had to get my father to fetch me to Jalan Raja Laut where my mum's office was located,got stuck in a jam,and with mum calling non stop,I had to scream at her..I mean,I know the bank closes at 4pm,and it's already 3.30pm,but I'm stuck in a jam dammit..You think we can fly?Well,got there in time alright,I can't help putting a sour face cuz it took us all the trouble to travel,stuck in a jam etc,just to get a RM300 reward which my sister wasn't even bothered about.That's what really pissed me off..I called her to ask for the location of her things,took the effort to go to the city,nagged by mum who called non stop,and all I get was:"so ma fan,nobody ask you to go oso!"I said,"RM300 wor",she was lke.."So??"..shit,as if I can get any cent of that RM300 I spent my time on..fuck...The only good thing that she's working that she doesn't have to ask my mum for allowance EVERYTIME she shops,or eat,or buys..And piss my brother off for getting to spent more than anyone of us...Gosh it has been long I've last write a complain blog,and it feels...nasty,evil but good..I don't give a damn if anyone who reads this tells it back at her..To all of you,she might be the A-star student,getting splendid results,the extra jovial gal with a huge range of friends,from mine to her's herself,and I always seem to mistreat her in front of you all.But...somethings never shows unless you are family....

The thing is,I didn't intend to write this in the first place,I was about to write about my worries to live in Japan etc,(actually I continued my draft,stopped at 3pm,continuieng now at 8.30pm,thus the happen-ed)but come to think of it,sometimes,I can't wait to leave,to be able to actually get control of my life,not being ordered to do something or doing something just to please someone,to avoid getting irritated looks or grumbles when I don't do something when asked to,to feel guilty for hanging out with friends too much and not being at home,to even spend money..I guess thats how discipline is formed but hey,I'm already 20,a gal capable of doing her own things and need no more nagging.I EXTREMLY hate being told what to do and in return hate it when things does not goes smoothly or in an arrogant way,not the way I planned it to be.I'm proud and like to get attention,that's what my Aquarius star use to signify,now come to think of it,I guess I am...I told the friend of mine(the one whom i sms-ed the night I couldn't sleep)that I'm a stubborn gal and does not like others see my weaker side and thus,I vowed,NOT to cry in Japan.And with the issues(some might even say it's irrelavant to call it an issue,but it is to me nevertheless so...)at home,I guess it's a better catalyst for me to stay strong and be glad of what my scholarship has to offer me..So homesickness?haha..for now...SCHOMESCKNESS.....