After finding out that I'm not supposed to bring a backpack,a hand-pull luggage and a laptop bag as my hand carry,I resolved to getting my backpack to my handpull bag..My,it was hard and tough work,not only I have to move some clothes out from the 20kg bag,have to re-squeeze and rearrange everything..SIGHHSSS>.
spent the rest of the day chasing Stairway to Heaven,went to meet Keat Yee and Chua Kok Keong for dinner.Rained heavily so went to for dinner at some Hong Kong styled restaurant,didn't check out the name.Din manage to visit the pasar malam.Rushed back before 9pm,beating one red light,almost did another.Got my sister's photos from photoshop that CLAIMED closes at 9pm..Shoots..Rush for nothing.6more days..meeting Phooi Fun tomorrow.thusday going skating..Friday,maybe Sze Huei.Sat..dunno..then sunday family day.My days here are slowly ending..sighhh
People looke dup to me saying "so nice ler Lien Ghee,going Japan,how do you feel?"
"er,nothing?Worried actually"
Them:"worry what lar,bet your excited right?"
Excited?hahaha..They looked at me as if I'm the luckiest gal in the world....
But I know better,that everything has its own price.I have to earn this scholarship,its not a windfall for goodness sake,so don't look at me as if its one.True,I might be a bit lucky,getting paid to study,to go for a new experience no other can achive,but along with it,the bitterness of being alone in a foreign contry,the uneasiness of trying to adapt,the sense of leaving everyone you've known for years,how can anyone be in MY SHOES to understand that?studying abroad is not as sweet as candy as everyone seems to think,look of the other side too..The worry of not being able to do well in studies is in every student's mind,but try being a JPA scholar,where you have to worry not only about deteriorating grades,one have to worry about upholding the country's image as well as being the minority in another country.And in my case,I worry A LOT about talking to any japanese there..Even here in PPKTJ,the words in Jap barely comes out more than a few sentences from my mouth to Senseis..so how can I survive there.....I wonder..
歌如人生
4 years ago
3 comments:
yeah, i roughly know how it feels, the burden of this and that. don't try to handle all at once. take it day by day.
Sigh...I know how u feel... But it's still okay for me though, somehow. I duno why?! Maybe I dun miss home that much? Haiz...XD I really duno!
Btw, the more u talk to jap, the better ur jap will be. so try ur best to mingle ard with japs ya!
Anyway, I'm having "fun" learning jap here. OMG! every week also have test. I'm dying here soon. Killing me =.=// Shall I say it's good?! The sensei seems to like to ask me to speak up in class. Probably im too quiet gua...(but u know im NOT!)
Worry? Err, I think I am qualified to say that I there is nothing much to 'worry' about Japan...I mean, what is there to worry about? NOTHING! & I'm dead serious when I say that. 4 'worry' words in 1 paragraph, thats ALOT LOL!
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