~Graduation~

The Awards Ceremony

I looked back at the pictures,the sms-es and e-mails I have received.Even reading the same e-mails again from my tutor bring tears to my eyes easily.The loud 'byebye' shout when Sakuya saw our bus off and her waving frantically,trying to hold back tears,the sad look when Yuri and the rest got down from the bus,Pon-chan,Maki,Eiguchi and I hugging each other and sobbed non stop when we were the last 5 to get off the bus was still playing vividly in my mind.I couldn't believe it has finally ended.The 3 fast years,the 3 memorable years,the first 3 years of my memories of Japan.This was where my Japan life began,and it ended with tears I never knew I had.

Graduation

I'm still running around,getting my errands done,meeting with my host family for lunch,change my address etc..But when night comes,the hollow never fails to set in.I no longer have Yuri around to teach me about the right pronuncations and to share the mutual understandings,no Gento for me to bully but yet always so composed and never showed his temper,no Waki to explain to me how things work,no Araki to share about the ever funny-talks of Miyazaki and Basshi,no Mossan around to listen to my craps,no Eguchi to compete with,no Asu saying she loves me,no Maki to talk about her latest boyfriend,no Tomoko to envy,no Sakuya and Rie to see their blurness,no Pon-chan to listen to her blunt words,no Tomizawa-sensei to show me the right way to do experiments..

謝恩会（thanks-giving party to the teachers)

Who would have thought I would have found my own group of friends here.I thought when I first came in,that I'll only graduate with the foreign students as my friends.The 'smaller' shorterones..

It never occured to me I would go Onsen(hot spring) with them,go for drinks with them,went to America and Malaysia with them,went to see hot air balloon with them,went for lunches and dinners and have suprise parties with them..and to graduate with the best results I have ever imagined.I haven't leave but already I'm missing all the times I've had here=(

~表彰式~

Today is 表彰式 also know as Awarding Ceremony according to my electrical dictionary.I'm not even sure if its a grammatically correct English word but well,if the dictionary says so it must be,I assume.

Anyway,I was invited to attend this ceremony because I was told that I was entitled to two awards,namely the award for perfect attendance and the award for perseverance of good results in my course.However,when I went to this ceremony I was shocked when I was not called out for the perfect attendance award.

I still came back with two certificates though,the other one being my diploma cert,which I'm entitled to when I graduate from this college.However,I was not satisfied because I was told I could get the award for perfect attendance so I asked the office people and was told that because I'm a foreign student I'm not entitled for the award.This award is given to those who had perfect attendance for 5 years and in my case since I started in the 3rd year,I'm not entitled to get that award even with my full attendance.Bullshit..

If its that case you guys shouldn't have asked me to check my attendance list to make sure we are given that prize.You guys should have told all foreign students earlier so that we can always 'ponteng' when we want to.Although I'm not saying I would,but I wouldn't have forced myself to go to class when I broke my finger the last time and still got to school with bandage and cast etc.Well,some of you my think there's no point getting over angry over small things like this,some might even say this award is not important at all.Sorry to say,I mind.A LOT!

It's about getting what is rightfully yours.This award might not affect me now,but I heard that in Japan society every cert counts,especially when you are looking for a job,a perfect attendance award will be quite important.Its not that it'll be the key-point of getting you hired but at least it helps.But most of all,I'm angry because I have been deceived to believe that I could get the award and in the end wasn't given anything.And when I asked the office guy,I was told I should be thankful I got the award for good results.Shit you lar,I got that award is not because of your mercy man,I got it because of my own hardwork duh..

Man,this is a really unhappy 表彰式 I've experienced.And who say Japan is good??To those people in Malaysia reading this,the grass always looks greener on the other side...Try to face those Japanese who speak extremly nice to you with a smile on their face but trying to shrug of responsibility all the time,you'll be grateful that at least in Malaysia,people are quite direct in showing their dislike of you etc...Man,I'm pissed.

~Soon~

Going back soon.Saturday night flight to be exact.Some of you might be reading this,some might not.But all the same I would like to say thanks to Alex and Chen Li for sparing some time to take my Japanese friends and me around Malacca,to Chee Wei,Keat Yee,Phooi Fun,Terk Rong,Kai Mei,Eugene,Sze Yin,Wei Song,Poh Yee,Oi May,Vivian,Elizabeth,Pui Zhan,Li Shean,Khai Chee,Shengcui for taking your time amidst all the busyness to meet up for a drink,for lunch and for dinner.To May Ching and her sister for the 3hours plus ice-skating.And to Yeng Yeng,Kok Keong,Wan Hong,Wan Teang and Rosalind for trying to make it to the gathering but couldn't in the end,thank you very much.

Thanks to my mum and dad who took the effort to fetch me and Japanese friends around KL and also for everything else.To my brother who shared with me a lot of his PC stuff,his time etc.Time to head back to Japan where packing-for-house-shifting,visa-making,graduation,class-trip,new-university-orientation,application-of-motor-license,choosing-of-furniture-for-new-house awaits..Hope my luggage is not overweight with all the Malaysian food=P

~逃避~

我。。
算是幸运吧。
尤其是得到这个奖学金，
能无忧无虑的到海外留学。



回到这儿，
面对家人及朋友。
从朋友交谈中听到他们即将面临寻找工作的烦恼，
Assignment队友的不和，
也有许多已经换了多少次的男女朋友等。

突然觉得自己真得很幸运。


需烦恼的只是考好自己的成绩。


虽然我可能比他们少赚一点，
可是我宁可这样也不想那么快浪费自己的人生苦埋于工作。
也许我不会比他们更早认识这个社会，
可是如果说人间是险恶的话，
我想早日步入社会也未免是件好事。

当然也要考虑到自己的年龄问题，
如果说我27岁踏入社会寻找我第一份工作，
被录取的机会可能会比较少。
到那时候我也只好任命了。
可是一方面我很单纯的相信
这社会必有我容身之处。

而话说到家里，
相信每个家庭都有他们各自的问题。
我，
潜意识的把日本当成了我的避风港。

回到了这儿，
最终须提醒自己有些事是逃不了的
不管隔了多少年。
身为长女有需要负责的责任
身为姐姐也有自己该扮演的角色

清楚的了解。。
可是没有勇气承担。

我，
比我想象中胆小。
比我想象中自私多了。。

~one week~

One week has passed.I had fun taking my Japanese friends around,even happier to see that they enjoyed Malaysian food so much=) I also enjoyed going to tourists spots in KL as well as Genting Highlands and Malacca with them.Thanks to Chen Li and Alex we had a really fun time in Malacca.Last night,after one week it was time to send them back to Japan.It was really sad when I sent them to KLIA and they waved to my mum and me til we leave through the exit.The next time I see then it'll be on gradtuation day..sigh..

Today,I finally got to meet Chee Wei and Keat Yee for lunch at Pavilion.Had fun chatting with them for about 4hours.Time really flies,soon they'll be graduating and looking for jobs.My my..and I still have two years in Japan before getting a degree only.Sigh.They didn't changed at all and it was really comfortable to chat with them.I was once worried that we'll run out of things to chat about and the situation would become awkward.But everything was smooth and I was glad that though I was not around for 2years,they fill me in with about everything=) thanks guys.

Next I left with Keat Yee to Sri Petaling and waited for Phooi Fun.Had a really good dinner with her at Fusion Heaven in Sri Petaling.Not only the food was good,the converstation with Phooi fun was even better=p..Anyway,I really had an enjoyable time with her.Hope you'll have a good time in Pahang dear.

Tomorrow,ice skating with May Ching..yay!

~Back~

I'm back!!!!
Its really hot here..
But the food,good as usual..
With good food in my stomach,
I'm so cheerful all of a sudden=p

So relax at home..
Til the extent I lazy wanna go out..
But later have to pick up my Japanese friends from KLIA lar..
Then bring them around for 1 week..
Get tan again=(

I'm so going to make full use of my 3weeks here=)