~Homestay~

With only one week of my summer hols left,I opted to put down my research and joined my junior for homestay instead.Wouldn't want to spend my whole summer 'working' so I let myself enjoy a little pampering.I've already known Takasu Sensei before so I felt at ease at her company.Seeing my junior,I saw myself 2 years ago.Worrying about my own Japanese language,trying to be polite as possible and trying really hard to make a conversation go longer.
For the first day,we went for tea ceremony experience after which all 3of us almost limp in agony due to the sitting position which we had to endure in pain for 45minutes.(Kamarull joined us for the 1stday).Then we had a very good Nepal Indian food.I was bloating.Next was to Nagashima Spa land,too bad we didn't had time to go to the theme park.But we (foreign students)intend to go soon..I really wanna try my the roller cosater!!

Next day we went to Kooriyama primary school for an insight of how teachers in Japan work hard to teach Japanese kids to learn English at primary school level.Unlike in Malaysia,where we were sort of 'forced' to learn English,teaching English in Japan means that first,the teachers themselves have to learn the right pronouncation and make the lessons fun.No canning,no scolding etc is allowed in Japan.But the meeting was really interesting as not only Takasu sensei spoke about how the Japanese kids mentality is and would be,she also did a lot of research on how children overseas learn English,enjoying English,the right way to teach English to children at different age stage etc.We even had our part for a small show and tell and we told them about Malaysian Mangoes which Najwa brought back from her trip back home.Unlike Japanese mangoes which are forever sweet,we let them try the different version of mangoes,the sour kind.And boy,you should see the Japanese teachers face when they try to say 'Oishii' when they try their best to mask the unpleasantness of the sourness in their mouth.I tried to sprinkle a little salt to the mangoes to cover the sourness but....well,I guess its part of experiencing something different..

On the last day,we tried our hands on baking croissants.Man,it was good!!First time I had freshly baked croissant that almost brought tears to my eyes.I could taste the butter in the bread,salty-ly delicious combined with the custard and peach fruit.Man,freshly baked croissant out from the oven is unbelievably GOOD!!!Gosh,if only I can bake like that...but the flour,specific butter it too expensive for me so..Sigh..I can only settle with the bread in the supermarket.So sad...

Then all of a sudden I was sent back to my hostel....I actually thought the homestay was til Friday,but I got it wrong..Or should I say,when Takasu sensei invited me,she mixed up the date and told me it was til Friday..~_~""So suddenly I got one day extra..Curled up on my bed and read Judith McNaught's book again..RELAX!=)

~The story after~

It's raining this morning.Quite a rare occasion seeing that it's summer now and it rarely rains.The weather now really reminds me of Malaysia.Not to say I'm homesick what-so-ever,but sometimes small things like the weather or food can jolt back some fond memories I had in Malaysia.

One more week of holidays before my school starts.Unlike the 2years before where I went to Taiwan,Hokkaido and China,this summer I spent only 3days in Osaka relaxing.And that was also because I finished my Osaka University entrance test and opt to stay there to chill out.Coming back here to my hostel,I find myself facing 4bare walls and most of the time in front of the laptop.

On weekdays,I go to school from 9am to 6pm doing research for my graduation thesis and the rest of the time...finding something to do.And it usually just revolves on cycling around the neighbourhood,do some homework,room cleaning and online chatting.2 years ago I would dread the life I'm having now,but now living through it,it isn't that bad after all.In fact,having more time to do what I always wanted to do,to do things I've put on hold and also to give me more time to evaluate how things have turned out to be and going to be,is really something I need right now.

For 8months I've been studying for my University entrance test,I've neglect a lot of things or should I say been put on hold.Using the next 2days,I'm going to try to make everything right again.Before class starts,I'm going to enjoy my relaxing days.Chill people,I'm already looking forward to going to my new University.No worries=) Have a nice day

~The End~

Finished all my Uni entrance test..
Thanks for all your support..
But I disappointed not only all of you,
But myself the most..
I didn't get into any of the top Universities..
But at least I have a Uni to go..
Instead of going back to Malaysia..
I can't find words to say anymore..
Let's just say..
I'm only up to this level..
I should have known better..

~Study~

People don't usually blog about how many hours they study,
either because they don't or they just don't find the need to.
What's there to brag about how many hours we have studied?
Many hours of studying doesn't mean that you are good,
that it'll guarantee success.
In fact,sometimes I think,in my case,because I'm too slow at absorbing facts,
that's why I need so much time.
Or maybe because I'm too much a perfectionist,
that I have to cover everything from head to toe,resulting time consumption.

University entrance test,
doesn't mean you have to get 100% to pass.
This I know,
But it never hurts to put in 120% of effort,
For we will never know what type of questions will turn up.
Even with 120% effort,
I still might fail.
If I panicked,or the questions is out of my league.

Sometimes,I wonder.
Will my brain fry-up due to too much work?
Will I be a hunch-back by the age of 30 due to my sitting position everyday?
Will it be worth it to spend so much time on this exam?

For the last question,I asked myself back..
What would you do if you weren't studying?
Instead of studying,the thing you might do,will it be worthwhile?
Somethings are meant to be and some not,
I believe I'm meant to be here at this moment,
Studying.
Because that's the way I chose to be.
Because in the end,that's the only thing I'm good at.
I can't sing,I can't lead,I can't draw.
So,though tiring...
I can only study.

Time,
can really slow down if you want them to.

~Irked~

I actually wanted to write something which really irked me today but after typing it out here,it shows how immature I am at handling stuff so I decided against it.It's not the actual incident that made me look immature,its the thought that I'm actually writing bad about somebody makes me feel so immature.Not very long ago,I actually used this blog to talk bad about a lot of people,thinking that the other party never know that this blog actually exists.Well,people find out somehow or another and at one point I almost lost a very good friend.

Sure,its my blog and I am entitled to my own opinions but I realised no matter how pissed off I am at that person,spreading words about that other person does not make me a better person.In fact,like what I said earlier,it only shows how immature I am myself.I realised its better to keep what is worth remembering and not dwell on past events that might hurt more people or myself.Everyone has their own weird habits or weak points that might be an eyesore to others,who are we to judge that our own bad habits are not as bad as other's?

That said,I still can't believed someone actually call me when I'm studying,all the way to show me a cockroach on one occasion and a spider on another ..*Sorry can't help it...