~Plans~

Getting myself busy for summer holiday plans.Spent hours in front of my laptop to get a credit card,book my ticket to Tokyo to go to Hokkaido,tomorrow going to Yokkaichi to see Teck Soon run,checking out ticket to Kobe..Man..So many things so little time.Had a tiring day today.After having a one to one with my Jap teacher checking my speech,gave myself some time out at McDonalds..While everything is almost done,I wonder what kinda obstacles will turn up.Those which,no matter how much we prepare,unavoidable problems..Hmm..We shall see..Damn,I have to go Nagoya to receive the credit card????daooooo...But I'm loving it...hehe

~A Taste from home~

I got a parcel from mum today.Got me Bak kut Teh,me contact lense,me favourite Indo mee,and herbs for soup..I can't wait to cook when its summer.Muahahaha..

Signing off..blekk..

~Rain~

Woke up early as usual,at 6am,went back to sleep and woke up at 6.50am,just as my alarm clock rings.No idea why I kept on waking up early before my alarm clock starts ringing.Woke up and found that it's drizzling outside.Imagine my happiness.Oh wait,you all don't know.I love rain..Especially now that its summer,the rain is a welcome to me.It reminds me of the rain in Malaysia,the hot humid weather when a sudden pour of coolness comes down from heaven.Its such a bliss..

I've noticed that my blog,unlike my fellow comrades,have been revolving all about my thoughts.And most of them aren't observations of how life in Japan is.Its all about me, me and me.My studies,my inner thought etc.I sometimes wonder why myself..Is it because I found nothing amusing enough for me to blog?Is it because I'm always lost at words at how to put things in a fun and enjoyable way?Is it because,my blog is my only exit from this world?Who knows..One thing is for sure.I can never write funny or interesting blogs.I guess its just me,my habit,me..No wonder I give others the impression here that I'm a deadpan serious type of girl.Maybe I am...

~Thinking again~

Been bumping into THIS topic the whole day.Started with my conversation with my tutor,where she dates,now that she has a boyfriend(started 2 weeks ago),how does Japanese people date etc.Then it was the English Speaking Society,with a title 'your Ideal boyfriend/girlfriend' which ended up with only 4 members daring to turn up.Our good-ol' Mr.Lawson asked us to prepare a speech about it and everyone kinda like,don't wanna turn up.

It ended up with us four gals chatting with Mr.Lawson,how he met his Japanese wife(my English teacher),how they dated for 4 years,married the next 4years til today etc.It amazes me that both of them are PhD holders and can survive an American-Japanese marriage.Although I enjoyed sharing with the 2 first year students and Tomoka-san and Mr Lawson,I can't believe I was so easily see through by someone who I've only met like,7times?(He gave an analysis of what kinda guy I would chose,my characteristics etc)Maybe cuz he is a PhD holder who is extremly smart?Actually its not hard to see through me I suppose,I am picky,choosy and have high standards and I've always given the impression that I'm the dead serious type...

So its not suprising that I believe in the one and only...primitive thinking

I don't have time to pick and chose..as if I CAN pick and chose.The thing is,I will take things at its course,when its right,its right.After all,some marriage and datings comes late.I don't mind playing the waiting game.But of course,I little small part of me wish to have a dramatical love story,like the drama I'm watching now 恶作剧之吻,hysterical and not the mushy type.Its a modern gal-chase-guy story and with a lot of eye-candies for both the gals and the boys..hehe.Enjoying.Where was I?Oh yea,haha..Drama's love story,always seems to good to be true.And it never fails,to provoke some jittery into my calm heart all the time.Sigh..My mirror like calm water of my heart is having ripples right now.After 2 more disc,I'll be back to the studious me..How boring....

~Slacking?~

Am I slacking?No idea why,yesterday as usual,I found myself with ample of time to finish up my homework.Yet,after dinner I spent 2and a half hour shopping with Soo Sing for summer clothings.Today,finished class early,and I found myself shopping for a full length mirror and a fan with my Vietnam senior.Now,having one hour free before dinner,I find myself sitting in front of the laptop typing craps.Before my first exam,these are the times I catch up with my homework,and the rest of the time,revision...Now???

I got to know my class position today.For the first time in my life I felt so happy.It has been ages since I'm anywhere near the top 3...Not since form 2.I've always felt envious of people who can be the top few.I'm lucky that this time,my hard work paid off a little.I shared the second position with my tutor.I'm so elated!really..I think that's why I'm slacking.I'm a damn egositic proud fella for sure..

But I find myself very tired..I can't wait for my rest,in the form of my summer holidays.But I'm going to Taiwan,homestay and another homestay in Hokkaido.Will I have enough rest for myself by then?After the hols it will be the next exam.People used to say,don't get extremly good results in your first exam so as not to worry about losing the place in the next exam.But I beg to differ,why restrain yourself from performing your best at all times?If you have given your best shot in the next exam yet fail to mantain,then it's meant to be.You gave in your best shot,so have the rest.Sometimes its down to pure luck.Fatigue and last minute study can always make an excellent student perform at their worse.I think...

～星期六～

好久没有发呆了。。。
夏日的到来，给予我一种既又陌生又熟悉的感觉。
暖暖的阳光照射在身上，心里的冷漠也开始瓦解。
没有想到，我竟然会因为朋友没有用尊敬的语法和我说话而感到快乐，暗爽。
没有想到，我竟然可以看到班上的人差一点打架的情景。
没有想到，我竟然可以吃到老师请我的美味寿司晚餐。
没有想到，我竟然有空闲的时间翻阅去台湾旅行的小册子。
没有想到，我竟然有时间听着雨滴的声音。。

发现到夏日的雨季，和大马的气候很相似。
当别人开始喊热，我却心情舒畅，欢迎着这梅雨。
它令我想起在家里无所事事的日子，那种无忧无虑的日子。
虽然想念那种日子，可是我不希望它是我永久性的日子，
因为，我会闷坏。
虽然我厌倦现在每天有小考的日子，但至少我的人生有目标可以让我前进。
有了忙碌的日子，假日显得特别有意义，特别值得去珍惜。

看到朋友写的“人生观”
人生中最永恒的幸福——平凡
生命中最长久的拥有——珍惜
我，突然觉得很幸福。。。。

~Tired~

It has been a tiring week...Felt emptiness on the beginning of the week.Called May Ching to chat and vice versa.Was damn happy of her TOEIC result..

Talking about todays' event,had dinner with Mr.Lawson and Tomoka-san.We had Sushi for dinner.Enjoyed myself eating expensive sushi which was so super nice.Nothing like the Sushi King in Malaysia with its misery portion,this is good!!But I've also noticed something else.While I really enjoy talking to Mr.Lawson,who by the way, is an American,I find myself stuttering.Damn..I'm not sure is it because I'm stuck in this Japanese world that made me stammer,or is it because I'm nervous talking to a 'native speaker'.The thing is,my English was such a joke.Reading back my journal(diary),I found A LOT errors.I'm starting to worry.Not only my Japanese is anywhere near getting better,my English and Chinese is deteriorating.I can't even speak Mandarin properly when I meet Chinese students from China during my visit to the Tsubaki Primary school..

What is wrong with me....

~Not again!!~

- The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
- Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
- Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
- If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
- Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

I hate being tagged!!so STOP doing it you people!!!!

The tag this time comes from my sis..Goodness.No choice,had to do it...I'm so bored

1.Smart
Yeah,I want someone smart.As in smart,quick to catch things that is happening around type smart, street smart,alert type not nerdy smart.If I get an idiot,who doesn't even know I'm in my blue or depression state,how can he provide emotional support when I needed him to be there?

2.Careful
A person who is really careful with his money,his time etc.Careful with words is of utmost importance.And of course,be VERY careful with me.But not til the extent of not sharing his thought and feelings with me.

3.Sociable
(Noticed what I describe almost sound like myself,gosh,I'm in love with myself)Being an Aquarius,I hate to admit but I love my freedom a lot.I hope that we don't have the world only around us,but also with friends who can share our laughter and tears together.

4.Understanding
As I have said earlier,I love my freedom.Should he be my one,he should understand my independant needs and not be a control green-eye freak.I hope that he understands that my friends are also a dear to me,and that I don't belong to him and him alone all the time..

5.Good looks?
It depends actually,I would of course love to have a guy with superb good looks...who wouldn't?But I prefer those decent looking.Actually,its ok to me.If I love him,I love him for what he is..

6.(3 more to go?I'm outta idea for an ideal guy ddddd)Financially stable
I know,I know..I sound so adult-like and materialistic but hey,going out on dates etc,you need money no?Sorry to say,I don't believe in the-gal-or-guy-pays-all thing.I prefer we go together and have a good time together where money doesn't become an issue.

7.Macho
I don't mind metrosexuals,but please,don't be a wimp or sissy,when you are a guy,be a man...

8.(AT LAST!!)Age
I have a age limit between 2 years above and 2 years below.I have no idea about the rest but I find that other than the age limit I set,I find it hard to communicate with them..Cuz,its like we're from different worlds...

Perfect lover?Duh..Must be a GUY lar...

I'm tagging:1.Eli 2.Vivian 3.Phooi Fun 4.Shengcui 5.Abel 6.Keat Yee 7.Kim Shing 8.Randy

I'm done..Time for class..Jyane..

~苦~

Very very bitter..The fact that I got back the paper I predicted,it was bad but at least I passed.At least..and there's small test marks that gives me about 10 or 20 marks more.That was a relief.But today,I was shocked.It was not all the paper's marks that shocked me,it was today's small test...

The hell,it was only the second day of class and I already have small test.Studied for it alright.Damn,I managed to put in all the words correctly without fail this time,and the calculations without mistake.The full mark was ten,and the passing mark is 7.The only mistake was drawing the Hollow Cathode Lamp.I draw the lamp exactly how the book shows,put in the names of the part correctly.But then,the tube was not closed,according to my sensei.There goes 4marks!!!Which means,FAIL!!Baka,it is just like drawing a torchlight where you were asked to describe a torchlight.Where got ppl thought of drawing til the end one?Just draw the tube,name the parts mar ok di lar!!!!You must close the tube one mer????

I have to redo the paper for my main exam in September.I hate this..ITS SO DAMN NUTS!!!I felt tears swelling into my eyes,I mean,come on lar,if I made nihongo mistake then I understand larno I don't wanna mistakes but I can't be botheredbut this time I really was sure can get full marks ler.Its just because of something so irrelevant?My GOD!!It seems that this sensei has the nick for getting C class gals to cry with his superb marking skill.Where got ppl if get 5.6marks is count as 5marks?Baka..

Got back my other papers today.Not even one got 100.My nearest is 99.For both English and Jap.Got a few 90+,80+ and 2 70+...No idea what will I get for the last 2papers tomorrow.I'm sick of the life hereI'm looking forward to summer...REALLY looking forward to it.

~Lament~

I can see myself by lunch time,with heads dropping,shoulders down,walking back here to online again.Today,I will get the paper which I KNOW I did badly.No matter how much I'm prepared to face it,I'm sure the disappoinment will still hurt badly.Especially since I understood what the sensei was teaching during our one to one lesson.The fact that I cannot remember clearly for that part was all my fault,I was focusing on the other part,practising hard etc.Damn,that part only consists 22marks while the place I'm marked 'DOOMED' is worth 30marks..

I'm pretty sad that I won't be able to make the trip down to Kobe and meet up with May Ching and Kim Shing due to financial restraint.Spending 2days of my weekends here yesterday was already a bore after getting my errands done.Well,I just found a place to watch drama so I'll just go on leaving my weekends that way til summer..

Summer...what a nice word..

It never occurs to me yet that I don't have to pass a 'wall' to wait for summer.Exam,WAS a great strong wall for me to climb.However,now thatI'm the on the other side,I'm pricked by rough grass of financial restraint and todays' result.I hope I can reach the soft meadows quickly enough and reach the end of the rainbow where a pot of gold is waiting for me.I want to be a bird,flying all over Japan within my capability,but due to some irresponsible hunters,they inflected injury on my wings,locking me in my cage.Hunters,cruel predators they are...

Anyhow,its time for me to start walking on the prickly grass,I assume I'll get used to it after awhile.Wish me luck...^_^

~成长～

我认识他们已４年．．
知心知己，一生中能遇到几次呢？

有人说男女难成知己，我却遇到了两位。。
当他们各自找到自己的另一半的时候，
我为他们高兴之余，心里却准备着要失去他们的陪伴。。
果然不出所料。。。

常常会在想，我对＂朋友＂而言，只不过是逛街的伴侣？
晚上去mamak的夜鬼？好玩的，爱看电影的＂女生＂？

来到这，
知心朋友？
言行不一，如何交？
。
。
。
。
旅行，是我的止痛剂。。
自己只不过是平凡的一个女生，
要远出，还必须考虑到自己的安全，
金钱状况，但。。。。我喜欢。。

至少，我得到自己渴望的自由。

被金钱约束的自由，
被压力压得喘不过气得来的自由，
被自己给自己的束缚中脱离，得来的自由，
是甜美的。

光阴似箭，
随着考试的到来，离去。。
期待着下一个假期，
计划着自己的下一站。。
反复几次，
我发现，原来，１年。。。
很短。

~New Layout~

Hope you guys like the new layout.Its pink,so not my colour.But since coming to Japan,my colour for clothes too,no longer limits to the usual,blue,black and white.A change in myself without realisation I suppose.Sometimes its good to adapt and change for the better.

I'm still trying to work out to put the comment word in front of the blog.But for now,to comment,please click on the title of each of my post..Thanks..Please,feel free to voice out your opinions on this layout..Arigatou..

~I'm back~

Tired out after my last exam.Really felt numb today after the last paper.Probably cuz I never expect it to be sooo difficult.I've tried my best,correct or not,will know when the time comes.For the other papers,I know I've got 89 for 2papers,while my tutor got 91 for both.Not really feel intimidated.Was like,oh,89,one mark less than 90 but almost 90.Almost like the Rm4.99 in Malaysia,why not just round them up to RM5?It gives the sense of begulling in a way..no idea how others are doing so,89 mar 89 la..I just pray the rest of the papers will be alright too..

The thing about exam period is that it heightens my focus and tiredness.I really never felt so focused on doing something so much unless its exam.It might be the kiasuism in me..Being in an in-between state now,I could almost swear I'm feeling at lost on what to do next.Finish up my report?But then the thought that,my,its just after exam man...Go out and spend money?With whom?And besides,I wanna save money right now ler..Go sleep??wkarahen...Hate this contradicting thoughts..Maa...toriaizu...Offline...chat at night..Lame entry...

~Tagged again~

Got tagged by Eli, so here it goes:

Four movies I can watch over and over?(who would do that?)....
None

I watch too many movies til I'm not really favouring any specific movies,got mood,watch,no mood,any movie pun tak guna

Four places I've lived:
KL and KL and KL and Japan

4 books I reccomend to everyone:
Tuesdays with Morrie
Harry Potter
Five Person you meet in Heaven
Chicken soup for the soul(not that I have any but its not bad)


7 of my favourite songs:
Sigh,(slowly hating this chain questions)I have no spesific songs,I just listen to what is nice...


Four sites I visit daily:
My own site
Friendster
The Star
All my friend's blog

4places I'd rather be rite now:
In Rome enjoying the sights of cathedrals
In Taiwan enjoying the food
In Malaysia enjoying the food
Anywhere but here where I just finish my exam with no where to go...

Four bloggers I'm tagging:
May Ching(for sure)
And 3 of those who is willig to continue this useless crap..(no offence to whoever started this)

~椿小学校~

These is what I did the Saturday prior to my exam week..haha..Yea,I woke up at 6.50am sharp again,not to study but went to this primary school for what they call 'Hello Friends!' cultural exchange program..I wanted to take more pics when they did the performance but too bad left it in the guest room..The primary shcool is about 45min car ride from my college..
I was assigned to the 6th graders meaning the 12year old.The actually treat us like royalty and with lotsa respect..This primary school is famous for their English education in this Mie prefecture.Other primary school doensn't really practise English as much as they do.



For their show and tell,the made us food..WOW..And to my amazement the described Malaysia with actual facts found from the Internet..Japanese,they really thought of everything..And they made sweet potato dessert to show Malaysians delicacy..

Some made chocolate creme which was very smooth and nice..Hmm,picked up a nice receipe..There were more Brazillians than the other countries cuz its a factory area where most Brazillians gather.. Had a nice time there..Oh,was kinda sad when I came back cuz Anuar's kid(we were assigned to a kid to take us around),was like...Oh my GOd,I thought it only happens in the movie...The scene was like..Anuar and I climbed up the van,waiting for Haibi,then his kid came running sudddenly to see us off..He waved non stop even as the van hitted the road..Waved until he cannot see us..I mean,I can practically see him chasing after the van at the school compound to wave Anaur goodbye...MY GOD...so touching.(Could almost swear I saw some glistening tears on Anuar's part)And
here are some letters the gals wrote to me,and 'my kid' made me origamies..SO touching(but wonder what to do with them after awhile..haha)All in all,nice time there,will go back if given the chance..In february..hmmm

~Heart attack~

You know the signs are there,when you wake up first thing in the morning suddenly remember that you forgot to study past year questions...I had a jump when it suddenly hit me I did not do just that...My heart was pumping like crazy while I spent the last 2hours before class studying that and refering my notes again..

Exam came...I got half what I studied this morning alright,the other half was a disaster.I made the same mistakes I made in PPKTJ,the same chemical equation questions which made me sweat like crazy.I was rubbing my palms to my shirt non stop.The humid weather not at all helping..30marks for that part,I might get say...8marks max correct..I'm ready for doomsday.Provided I get all correct for the other parts,I'm ready to get a B or C.It doesn't help when everyone filled that part with ease..SIGHHHHHHH>.<


My senior was lucky as the paper she worried today was a piece of cake for her.How I wish I can have her luck..my....My next paper is Jap.I'm going to use that to pull up my marks..Else I'm doomed...

~Don't ya~

Don't you all get bored seeing me posting another post about exam?CAn't help it though..I'm bored stiff,I can't really sit still and study 24/7..I had enough!!!!I've been crapping a lot,not here,in my blog but in my diary.Imagine how many crazy thoughts one can produce everyday huh??

DOn't want to have exam!!!!I hate exam!!!bakana exam.........

Back to crapping




想唱就唱 哈啊... 我的梦想 闪耀着彩色的光 张开翅膀 飞到想去的地方 我的梦想 伴随笑容而坚强 大声的歌唱 跳过辽阔的海洋 这世界充满了想象 唱着音符一起悲伤 经过所有快乐悲伤 谢谢你陪在我身旁 快乐是我的能量 点亮自己的光芒 想唱就唱 唱的响亮 不怕风雨的阻挡 快乐是我的能量 点亮自己的光芒 每一个期待的目光 都在见证我成长 唱得响亮

some song which has nice lyrics