~Not much..~

Not much is to be said except that i'm so not into thinking or talking to myself a lot these days..i dunno why maybe its because there's no Blogging to fuel my emotional paranoia or something..i've been kept really busy and to make things worst i've been looking for homework to do these days..and i managed to resist the temptation to online during school days..sounds so not like me huh?and i even going cukoo by choosing to go home then to go out with Min Ley for shopping..haha

But then today really cannot tahan and went to MidValley cuz its the Sales again and after trying out 3 very suiting pants..i din buy any,dunno...not in the mood to buy..well,its like forcing myself to get something new..after 6months?yeah,i din buy any new clothes for half a year,unbelievable..well,mum actually bought me a nice er...shirt?i really dunno the names for tops..its been really long since i actually went through the process of trying out shirts and find something i really like cuz usually i usually go for the Decent looking and yet,cheap...i prefer quantity to quality thats why...dunno what has happened to me...today finally got something really cool and affordable..haha..

This week i've been really going damn busy besides looking for homework,i've been busy preparing for the speech Contest..yes,i was voted to get in..along with Ayuni(expected..)Shobri and James,who got in because he really wanted to not because he was voted for..haha..anyway,after spending 3 solid nights preparing a new speech,fighting with chiang Shen on the way..my speech was rejected and i'm back to my first speech...damn,i was speechless.....i spent 3 days doing it though i really believed myself the first one was better...guess i tried too hard on the second one..

tokorode...i really hated it when ppl accused me for something i've not done..its was like this,i heard and everyone agreed that Chiang Shen's essay was really good and after reading 3 of it,i was damn impressed...so after confirming he din enter the speech contest i actually had the nerve to ask him to check my speech for me..(now rejected..ouch..)he goon naturedly agreed but then...the next day he heard that i gosspid about him when i didn't..no thanks to James..who added salt and pepper here and there..i was mainly prasing Teo's essay was superb yet Teo got it that i say he was "lan si"..what the!!oh James said that Teo din bother to help him with his speech when Teo told me he help James changed 4 times!!Now who's at fault?no need for any genius to do the thinking here...Teo and I,aftyer several sms and one call,we finally found the culprit and we are now back on talking terms..however i doubt there will be anymore encounters for through thisincident,it shows he doesn't trust me enough and dare to accuse me?oh my...i was damn pissed off when ppl accused me for something i've not done..hmm...guys,can't imagine they are so two-faced too...blah..

Maybe its just the Chinese guys?i'm getting along lots better with the Malay guys..went and saw the badminton match with the Utm students,really happy that Halim won for the singles,too bad he lost today..it was fun cheering for them and hang out with them sometimes..rhey dun backstab you etc..nice omoide with them..hopefully i won't get any kousen near the Chinese these year,no offence...but i prefer alone..or maybe with the Malays...

~Speech Contest~

It really pissed me off that i've blog a full half page of this last week and due to the lousy connection it was all deleted.so after a long break due to hectic schedule and packed itienary (actually its mostly exams..)i finally got to blog here,now...on a Monday..lucky there's no homework and no one to chat so i can actually go crazy typing at a super speed for i sacred it'll just go.."poof!" again...

Anyway today we had our class speech contest,more of a elimination round to enter THE contest at IBS..our class only James really desperately wanted to enter so he's in already..(though most of us agree there are better ones..sigh..)oh well,we gave in our best shot,some desperatly dun want to join so opt the I-dun-wanna-join-so-i-dun-give-it-a-damn option and plainly just carried out their duty and read the whole article..what lar,at least there's no harm trying?i salute Ayuni,though she doesn't wanna join at least she gave her best and performed well..i voted for her..hope she'll get it..i seriously do,for she can really speak fluently and confidently..did i mention she's damn powerful in her nihongo as well?respect giler...oh well,only tomorrow we'll know the results so..

Yesterday after a relaxing weekened,i came back and went out for a badminton game with clement,saniy,aizat,halim,arif,fairuz,ley and we went to Jelatek station..regret din sign up for the badminton game at Kolej Kedua,will sure win..not to self boast but looking at the rate Min Ley and I play,we can catch up with the guys,i consider (assume)it's good enough?for the gals i see downstairs squirking,screaming at their shrilly girly voice,i doubt they're really in the game..(no offence)oh well,closing date over d so..maaa...it was pretty fun playing with them and i've never laughed so much in a badminton game before..With Min trying to catch every shoot Aizat shot and..its hard to explai.it was fun..bottom line..oh,i'm pretty happy cuz i scored pretty well for my Chemistry too...happy happy...hehe..til here first lar,dunno what else to blog after a long departure..haha..just..why is weekdays so tiring???

Copy from friendster

It took me 2 hours to complete that blog so i'll just copy n paste..hehe...will blog again if i dun feel too tired tonight..about BON ODORI..

Except for lessons yesterday,there was not much happened..during recess,i went Niji to get the newspaper and Xin Ning told me about a speech one of the sempai wrote..because her class,Yoshida SEnsei has rejected almost every speech and she printed out a copy of this sempais' article to let them refer..after reading the article,i can barely concentrate in class(at least i din go snoozing as usual)during Physics..the article was very good(in my opnion),and i was truly er...disturbed..though its not a sad article but..its really hard to explain in words but i'll try..the speech was about how the sempai went over and over writing a speech just to be able to deliver it at the speech contest..he(i assume its a he..)wrote about the tribulance and emtional barrier he felt everytime his handwork was rejected for numurous times..and that it was due to..one,apeech is about sharing and not telling..next,its about experince,not about making a lie just to be able to get in the contest etc..i was really touched by how the article,though all using short lines,but each of it delvered the image well and impressive impact fell o me..seriously..Even Xin Ning said after reading this article,she really have the urge to know the senior better..she had a rough idea who the sempai is,cuz she talked to him about it last year but i'm not naming him for fear i might embarres myself should i assume wrong..all i know,i never knew ppl can use a different lanugage and yet deliver a clear message so well..i dun wish to be able to write like that for one,I'm not a person with high emotional-quotent and second,i know i can never do that..ever.its not about lack of self-confidence mind you,its about i can never write anything about my emotions in another language except English..
Today we had a super sempai came back with his Japanese girlfriend..i was impressed by the way he can speak in fluent Japanese yet,its a dissapointmen tto here that he din even graduate fourth year..though he was humourous and behaved well,still it cannot stop me from being a little dissapointed..maybe its the image of "what if?" i'm like him there?cannot even graduate or worse still,i might not be able to go to Japan at all?i really hate all these anxieties and worries of tomorrow..pretty energy zapping i would say..anyway,i was upbeat from then on..
During the 3 hour break for the Malay prayers,we performed for the senseis to see what we'll do today...cause some of them are not going due to the fact that the 1st years are going to have their exam next week so..wat i really cannot tahan is that the boys are even more NOt sporting than the gals..what,is it that hard to just perform for our friends and teachers to see?what about the big crowd tonight?sigh...anyway,we performed anyhow and it was pretty embarrasing after i found out that some of our friends say it was not really synchronised cuz some of them..felt awkward.sigh..never mind lo
Then it was Fantastic Four movie..it was superb!though it was kinda short at the part where they fight with Victor Van Doom..essica Alba and Chris Evans are really pretty ppl worth watching..really cool..i dun wanna go overboard describing them or ppl will start calling me er..nvm nvm..and after that we had a fantastic time at the..taxi..the driver was really funny and we all joked inthe car all the way back to Kolej Kedua..my my..and the night was still young so..we watched Beutiful Life til 3am..until i have no voice ler...i really dunno what happened but i was like...cannot speak after the final CD we agreed to watch..my..and i was damn shocked and nearly had a heart attck when i on my lapyop just now with a black screen facing back at me..omg omg..then Min Ley suggeested restart the whole thing and was i relived to finnaly see the beatiful colours..so..now i gotta go..get ready for Bon Odouri..siao,kicks off at 7pm..we gotta go at 1pm..well...
Ps:thanks YY for lending me your yukata!!

~!@)#*@$*&%~

Know why?heck these UTM ppl is damn bloody stupid and crzy,moron ass heads!!Before i go on let me explain...well,this morning we had our annual fire drill and guess what?its conducted really early,i dunno,for the real effect?bloody hell,its held at 1.30am!!!siao errr..u know what an average-everyday-kena-mind-drilling student need how many hours of sleep?at least 6,and what i got,err...not enuf of 6 hours!!the thing is they really off every electricty available,ring the damn shrilling alarm and hell,the AJK went banging the doors of each and everyone like desperados..what are they?commanders?are we in military traning?and yeah,everyone dashed down some scandily clad as for some,well dressed enuf to go out cuz these are the morons who already have wind about this sudden "training" and dressed well with their tudungs and jeans..giler babi..oh,it doesnt end there,we have to squat like prisoners,bear an half an hour speech before we were allowed back to dreamland..morons..130am til 2am wasted..i wouldn't be so pissed off if it wasn't for my headache which was so unbearable yesterday..when i wanted to head to bed early,Intan and Hana came to my room to use my precious laptop for their project..the only thing is,the stupid wireless won't work last night and there goes the waiting til 12am..with me switching from sleep and awake,checking if they're doing alright..blah blah..i dun mind them,i blame the wireless network here..

Everything is really speeding up here..with a lot of us working and cracking our heads off for endless Math questions cuz next week we'll be sitting for a test which,according to the senseis,will be commented in our recommendation to the Monbushyo ppl..sigh,and its not oni 1 subject..it also includes the Physics and Chem,just...math is the hardest so..no homework oso find homework do lo..now i know why the sempai last year are so "pia"..heck even the kohais now are very "pia" everyday studying..well,they're having their exam next week too so..

On the cheerful side,i'm really looking forward to tomorrows Fantastic Four movie..jsut hope Look can get the 7 tickets..and the Bon Odouri on Saturday!!but the sad thing is,i'll not be able to wear the Yukata cuz they (no idea who) want us to pay a RM25 rental fee!!nuts,i wouldn't want to pay for it to wear it for less than an hour...in the end Usui Sensei and Yoshida Sensei have to offer their own Yukatas..so the "dancing ppl" cannot wear lo..cuz there's oni 5 for galks and 3 for guys..zannen..sighhhhhhhh

~New home...~

Yesterday i did on9 but was too busy chatting til no time to actually blog..yeah,i'm currently online in my new home..Taman Abadi Indah...in Taman Desa..haha.I'll begin with issues from kino.Yesterday,we had a great Japanese affair,mainly its because its kinda new and it involves everyone..For Japanese Affair yseterday,we had Bon Odouri dance lessons..Our dance instructor,Sube Sensei(or i think something like that..)who taught us every week at the Japan Club came and gave us an hour daning lessons..woohooo..it was really fun and well,when there's a pretty gal around..sigh...u know what happens to the raging-hormone guys in PPKTJ will do..the group of instructor that came was aboutn 5ppl and theres a teenage gal with the usual brown-dyed hair..and well,everyoe almost look at her like some angel from the sky..gimme a break..especially james,with his camera,like...cukoo di..exaggerate a little no?But why is it every tme i caught them staring (the guys here) at pretty Japanese gals,they wud all look back at me and smile like one kind one?goodness,i dun mind ler...dun always say like i felt threatenend by other gals??wat is tis?""-__-

Well,as we all know,we need to form circles in performing the dance so wen its time for the 2nd dance and stuff,Yoshida Sensei started to pull students from the outer ring (oni 2nd year cuz 1st years all on the corridor upstairs)to join the instructors in the middle..no suprise when Halim and James stood between the pretty one..selang seli one male and female,so i stood between Zulkamal and Ito Sensei...at first whne i thought we were to hold hand at the 4th dance,all of us will be embarrased but everyone sportingly hold hands and dance cheerfully...can imagine the hootings and cheerings when Halim and James held the gals hands?ah well,the whole event was fun with the ichinensei above us noisier than those downstairs..

Today however i went for another meal at Legend Hotel..i dunno whats wrong with me,but it could be the pessimism in PPKTJ made me felt awkward to go ahead an chat with ppl i used to know namely those ppl i knew though not from the same class..well,i finally plucked up the courage after i found Sze Yin dearest..haha,she was the closest friend i had last time so no suprise there right..how sweet she was when she accompanied me throughout the whole day..the part where i asked her whther she'll see me off next year?Though it may not mean a lot to others but i was touched when she say she promised she'll see me off..work or not..and even asked me who else i wanted and she'll make sure the person will turn up oso..so sweet *sob *sob..awww...anyway,the food was not as good as the one i had the other day but it was just well..managed to fill my stomach up without feeling like puking anymore..yea! That resulting in...i took oni 1 meal today!once thats it..and i'm not even hungry now,at 1am...haha

it may be fate but our past Head Prefect Eric Yap was there having lunch with his gf and family too..though i recognised him,he din...4years apart and im a nobody in school even in the prefectorial board so...when i told sze yin,she waved to him at once,not bothering whether he recognise her or not..wow!well,he saw the teachers and went over first,well my mum did told me,we might not remember our juniors or friends but we'll never forget our teacher..but he remebered jega and phooi fun alright..well,we did greet each other,me n sze yin at once.how coincidently,sze yin met her primary school fren there too..hmm,reminds me about my speech about the daily "deai" namely meeting or bumping into each other,is really fushigi(unbelieveable).thats why i really appreciate every onimginable meetings...just like life,full of unexpectancy..why did the idiots bombed London anyway,i often wonder,who are they to take other ppl's life?life is a miracle and not to be taken light off..

Anyhow,i'm damn geram with my Math and Physics shukudai now..cannot do..though i really dun want to but no choice lo..gotta ask for help from geniues d..how to survived in japan???

what am i gonna type about?dunno actually..jsut that i've been on9 for the whole week di...argghhh gotta control myself..i wanted to do my project but then silly me left my details n info in school so..

REad my blog in friendster..quite a lot of comments..the oni disadvantage is that i cannot really name anybody or sound too weak there..thats just me,i do not like ppl to pity me or whatsoever..even pn ros written some advice in my journal..i really have to buck up di,cannot be in the dark forever..now its like a dark zone for me,aimless n only self pity..really pathetic..i tend to compare a lot,even to my seniors..wonder how all the 7 gals can score so well in everything???

well,now what i really need is some time out,n the dreamland gateaway is just the perfect place..so,weekend is the time to recharge..now..sleep..

kawaii deshio?? 

~Almost never ending story..~

its been a long time since i last blogged and i have no idea where to start having so many ideas bursting to come out..sigh..let me just begin with complaints?so skip if u want for this whole paragraph.currently i'm on9 in my room in the hostel after several attempts to online with this lousy connection but at last i got it..finally..but thats not the point,what is it with my roommates with super loud radio?she can hear i'm online here with me own songs but i purposely turned it softly as not to disturb her but no,she gotta get her own way n on it loud!!n she's sleeping already occasionally popping up yet she need to here the radio so loud??cannot understand lar..argghhh...

And i got my damn results today,scoring a lousy test n got a lousy position..but still thanks to English,i managed to climb up a little..sigh..what suprised me is that i got 23/25 for kaiwa which is really rainfall!!i'm so happy!!i never ever thought of getting this much since i practically crapped that day..and my goii,100%..super happy..i mean,its a little "medicine" for my D math n C for physics lo..wait i give up listening to BoA with her now,bombaring her songs..and i mean LOUD!!Fuck..wait,polite,polite..sigh..lucky today i have no homework,can blog all i want..

Last Friday,we had Japanese Affair again,and everyclass have to choose 2 daihyo to wear the yukata..and Usui Sensei looked splendid in hers..for our class,actually its decided that I wear but i can see that Min Ley wanted so,used the reason to jang keng to decide..when she won,she showed a glimpsed of happiness but changed her mind (as usual) wen she saw the guys had to go up on stage to "parade" or to "exhibit" how to actually wear the outfit...so wen its her turn to go up,she was like..sour faced Min Ley again..sigh,again,eberyone asked me whats wrong with her..like tak rela..i dunno lar,but whne take pictures,can see she's happy..fickle minded ppl i've seen lots,but not til this extent..here's one of the pics..

And then after that we went to Malacca for TEO's birthday party..we went there on Friday n arrived late at 10pm..watched some Drama and went of to bed at 2.30am.the next day was more lazying around doing nothin n even Mahkota Parade is so boring to me...i mean i can always go MV,but to get Fasihah's present,no choice lar..n i cannot actually trust Min Ley to buy,who,as a fickle minded person,she might end up buying nothing..i might be over reacting or to sensitive but during our stay at Malacca the first night,it was freezing cold n yet,selfishly she took all of the only blanket we have..mind u,she is a light sleeper n she woke up several times that night to the toilet n yet she wrapped herself up with the blanket,leaving me in shorts freezing like hell..if its not selfish i dunno what is it called..and so,running nose the whole morning..and she knew that after some 1 hour walk at Mahkota Parade,i wanted to go home to rest,but no,after hearing that the guys might wanna go for the Chiken Rice,she din even bother to tell me that they are not leaving..so circles we went at Mahkota doing nothing.. silly huh?and we were all so tired..siao..the party was nice,with BBQ and loads of food..its kinda nice seeing Teo with his frens,reminding me that everyone here actually leads a double life.with our own set of friends in our own world at home..

Which really pissed me off..James shouldn't have gone to Malacca and should stick to his own plans instead..he and his dance..he wanted the earliest bus at 8am when Malcca is oni 2 hours max away..and the dance is at 4pm..what lar,waht we gonnado for the rest of the time??and know what,i wokeup at 630am,that guy at 730 am!!the bus arrived promptly at 8am..siao llang,arrived at KL??10am..wat to do?Min Ley dun wanna go Petaling Street n James ever eager to go back,so off i went..bid them ggodbye,walked away alone to Petaling street..went to popular,bought some staionaries,n even tried the porridge next to the chee cheong fun stall..the stalls there are pretty famous so with a sense of freedom,i ate all alone,walked to Ocean and took a cab back to help shift to the new house..on the way i met Chai Yong too..so long din see her,din changed much excpet for her wavy long hair...din managed to say much cuz she's in a hurry..funny meeting her just whne i wrote my speech about the "meetings" of pp in everyones life,whether just brushing by the shoulder or true best friends,we should appreciate each n everyone..

Finally finish shifting yesterday,lucky i went back to help n managed to salvaged some precious stuff..they really throw everything ler!!!and watched them dismanteled all the furniture,sakit hati..but i enjoyed throwing the large bits down the lorry througt the window on the second floor..good way to release stress..haha..and my the dust!!really too thick!!after shifting for 3 hours,my father took me to a taiwanese restaurant,but iwas too full so..nice but,cannot masuk di..wasted..at night after dance(Min Ley skipped cuz too tired) igot another steamboat dinner and when came back to the hostel,Fasihah's birthday cake n jagung..super sweet corn from hafizah..ncie but..i'm bloated..no dieting today n tomorrow,cannot lar.. gotta sleep now,been on9 since 7pm..and i have not slept well since Friday..gotta catch some sleep di..jya..more updates..if possible..