~xtra..~

this is something i posted on fiendster bulletin board..well,i just think its better if i paste it here too..so here goes:

And so,the sempais have all left..while i'm typing this,they are now on the way there already..this bulletin is just to tell some kohai about some insight of the scene from what i saw while i was there with May Ching..if i'm not wrong,we were the oni 2 kohai there..most of the sempais went with their families,a handful with friends..they all started crowded early though their flight was 11.30pm,some as early as 7pm.everything was in chaos as some were busy weighing their luggage,some still making phone calls while some talking in soft tone with family members,most of them,in a somber mood,smiling only when photos were taken..there were more photo taking sessions and some last word were exchanged when its time to leave at about 10pm..as they slowly went down the escalators,friends and family were waving and bidding their last goodbyes..of cuz tears were flowing,especially among the woman folk namely mothers n sisters..the crowd was extremly huge and they soon dispersed when their loved ones were merely a dot after which they soon dissapeared to the barriers of the doors..and so,off they went..we shall meet again hopefully next year.All the best in Japan,smpaitachi!Good Luck!

~Sayonara..~

Sempai,sayonara..those were the words I shouted out to some of my seniors a few hours ago..yes,they're gone now,on their way to Japan..the atmosphere was,as wat i have expected..grand..with lots of ppl n loved ones sending off my seniors..well,May Ching and I reached there around 7.45pm,dunno wat to do at first,havin to take the Transit all the way from KL Sentral..well,managed to say a few awkward hi then i dragged her to dinner..i was about to say,"we went all the way to KLIA just to eat Mcdonalds" wen i found how pathetically stupid we sound so summoning up some courage to build some thickfaceness,i soon start taking photos with some of the seniors..(cuz have to pull them away from their family for awhile is kinda like...weird)and well,even said some good luck,have a safe journey to some Malays sempais cuz we were like,seriously some lost sheep or something,waiting for someone to lead us or simply in this case,talk to us..ah well,at last we managed to see some familiar faces and began more picture taking and let the conversation flow at more ease.

How exactly did i felt right then?seriously,i dunno..(my favorite quote)all i did was trying to take more photos,as if they can keep some memories of the seniors i have barely spoken to for the past 9 months or so..well,lucky Jeremy they all came later cuz they took a flight from Penang Airport so they are like,came without families..managed to hang out with them and more photos taken..at the last few minutes before their departure,all the formality came up,they,playing their role as seniors,advising us to do better in 2nd year,and us,wishng them a safe journey,good luck and stuff..Suprisingly more of the male seniors were crying then the females,and the Chinese,lesser..i duno wat is wrong with me,i felt not a single urge to cry at all,just a little lost amongst the tall ppl around me..haha..blame my height..well,guess this is what will happen to me 1 year from now,with all the huge group of ppl..maybe lesser cuz we only have 61 ppl this year..saw Usui sensei too,and conversation with her made me felt weird cz having not to touch any Japanese texts,i felt a little struggle speaking..guess i'm just too tired?i dun have the urge or feeling sad at all..well,like some of them said,its not like we cannot see them anymore,just lesser only right?so did i cry?cuz not..no need to anyway..and well,the sempai i'm closest with?might not be as strong as he looks,din meet me at all during the last minutes..some ppl are like that and i respect that,meaning in this case,he don't want to say goodbye and dread the feeling of the seperation and thus left quietly and as quickly as possible,trying to avoid any family or friends tat might trigger his emotional button..and so,they are on their way now..reaching at around 7am Malaysian time..goodluck to sempai..all the best..we'll meet again..

Tokorode,May Ching n I watched 2 movies today having to cancelled our plans to ice skate..Sepet n House of Fury..both equally good though from different genre..Sepet,a real warm-hearted show,really good n touching..House of Fury,a better-than-usual story line n action..all in all,both worth my money again..again,who will watch Miss Congeniality with me!!haiz...k la,gotta sleep,been getting less n less sleep these days,gotta recharge already..so,goodnights..

~The Shortest Trip!~

Like wat May Ching said and i find it really super fitting:"we went to Langkawi just to buy chocolates!!"u know why??another disaster!on Monday after my previous blog,i arrived safely at Langkawi but there was an uncomfortable feeling in my guts as compare to my flight to Kuching,this time around,the air turbalance was more frequent and the plane was not as steady as the previous..and my,how my ear hurts wen i landed..really really painful,and its oni on the left side ear the window..Well,the disaster was another earthquake at Sumatera,and parts of the Penisular can feel the tremor too,yes,including my dear holiday spot..Langkawi islands..goodness..it was 12.09am,while all of us just finished watching Wong Fei Hong starring JAckie Chan,and were about to fall asleep due to tiredness (and some drunkness,me,hehe,tried a bottle of gin n lemonade,nice)wen i felt tat it sudden shakes too much..i woke up and asked the others in the room whether they fel it too??and lucky i spoke too cuz mum,may n mis...wan tought they were dreaming..soon,the rest of teachers at tat floor were all questioning each other whether they too felt the tremor..and all agreed its best to go down to the lobby..WEll,seems we were not the early birds,lots of the teachers were already there..one looking practically silly cuz he mnaged to get his bag,luggage n all,but clad oni in sarong n wthout slippers!!haha..anyhow,the teachers start to quetoion n like wat they are well known for,make hell of a noise there,chatting about the tremore,demanding to see the hotel manager,the authorites for not taking action etc..may ching called her father and we got some latest news bout the earthquake..ritcher scale 8.2 and all..my gosh,when i heard about the new that there might be a tsunami in 2 hours or 3 hours later,i start to panic..

Maybe they think i'm some kinda paranoid but,arrghhh..this is our life man,why sit there and wait for the almighty killer wave to arrive??shouldn't we grab something,and move to higher ground??though its just a warning but the authorities..walau,they rather sit there,talk about the possibilitis,the quake n stuff n not budge!mom!!if u had let me rent the car that day,i wud have moved before u can even say :"tsunami!"arrghhh,frust..and so,we sat there,feeding the mosqutoes for 3 hours,occasionally going up the room again,hear the stupid newscaster repeating the same old news over n over for the 4th time..well,wen she said,its advisable fo ppl includng the LANGKAWI islands,then oni mum start to budge,great huh?walau,i really panicked gila and been sms-ing friends around..one stupid fella think i'm playing a joke somemore,another 2 din reply at all..and another one...dunno wat to say lar..some really sweet friends like Ghai Leong,Min Ley n James really called to check upon my condition,and really appreciate Emerson,Chee Wei and Kar Yee's concern too..like what May Ching said,it really is the most suitable time to ask silly questions about nature disaster tat we thought will never befall us like:"What if a Tsnami hits right now,wat will u save?"hah..believe me or not,i was wearing my contact lenses at that moment,and i said,CONTECT LENSES!!haha..well,it was a good experience,having to do some many stuff
in the name of emergency evacuation,like i was really suprised that i packed some chocolates,water n even changed to sports shoes (run for my life marr..)this is the time where nobody really cares how u look or wat silly gimmicks u are doing,ppl have no time to care..well,as usual,the Malaysian authorities gave word that immediate action will be taken but lo-and-behold,the van of "superior" authorties oni came like..2hours later?Malaysian style..anyhow,after everyone was quite certain(i don't)that the tsunami won't hit the hotel(or just plain stupid ignorant)we all went back to our rooms,watched the news..as the newscaster play a tennis-match-like of passing here to u,Nizam,back to u,Charles thing,we were getting too exhausted to care and doozed off..stupid newscaster..(no points for guessing who stayed the lastest to listen to any updates about the earthquake)

well,we had no choice but follow my "super" mom's order and come back with her by bus.(of cuz not without some "battle")that cost us,2air tickets,and an aching butt for sitting in the bus for 10solid hours!gosh..and my all-wrong sleepng time now..gotta faint soon..well,due to my lack of sleep to this worry-too-much-syndrome (woke up a few times of any sign of tsunami or strong winds)and the bus was too bumpy,slow and made too many stopsi'm gonna dose off now..so,just glad to be back..like the show in the Million Dollar Baby,we "fly there,drove back",and on the way back,i thought of many things..If i were to die at the tsunami(God forbid),moments before it,who wud i like to meet and what wud i like to say?scrolling down to family and friends,and i found that the answer..no one..(sad to say..)no one is really that dear to me right now,that i felt really care enough for me and will deeply miss me shud i be gone..sad,really sad...

~hmmm...~

yeah this is wat happens wen i can't think of a title..i'm just plain bored a home already..wel,getting plenty of rests,on9,music and sleep!!well,one day one event will be enough already,i'm getting tired out for doing so many things at one go..well,today,send my sis for piano class wen she can actually just walk there!my she's such a fussy fella,its just a 10mnutes walk and i have to fetch her,well usually it'll be mum but she's at Langkawi so..i mean my sis is practically practising this habit for long already..its such a walking distance but no,gotta make full use of the car..shit!ah well,i think i'm pretty perky due to the lack of sleep..anyhow,had been at home all day..slept more,think i'll be a pig after the hols..well,maybe its oso the late night movie i watched yesterday..the movie ws The eye10,pretty nice i think..agian,i repeat,i'm NOT scared at all,just STARTLED..there's a vast difference k?you know nowday the movie gimmicks,no longer have the pure horror(i found it again at Hide and Seek)but instead the so call horror movie nowadays,tend to use the effects of music (with sudden loudeness n stuff,lame..)and plenty of blood n darkness...to me pure horror is wen the movie get to feel the suspens,sometimes not knowing something will lurk up..arrghhh..its so hard to explain..well,the movie was a good one i suppose.now..whos gonna go Miss Congeniality with me???yea,yea,too much outing etc.nagged by my father already,for my own good?hah..tell him that lar,dun go out late at night?he himself comes back at 4am!good example?smokes n drinks,not a responsible family man..look up to him?never!kk,sensitive di..change subject..now i'm looking forward to meet some secondary school friends at 8pm later..Kai Mei sis is gonna get marry..

And she's only 24!nono,her sis is not the peabrain type of gal who marry early due to.ahem,some unforseen circumstances..noo,her sis is (like all the siblings in the family)a top scorer in every academic field..well,she just happen to find her first love in secondary school,graduate together,mantain a steady job etc..and finally they are tying the knot!so much like a modern day fairy tale..envy...hehe..and oh,i wud like to put a small note here that to those who cannot understand what i've written at the botom part of my previous blog,dun mnd cuz its really nothing important..anyhow,gotta get dressed already..so..matane..

~watashino kangae~

Ok,lets just finsh of with Day3 before i proceed wit thoughts of the day..

Day 3:
We woke up lae having to sleep late the day before..and once we got up,i received a message that Jeremy was alredy on his way back from Ipoh,so James took us for breakfast,near the bus station..Though the SP river is such a sad n pathetic sight,and it even has a smelly odour but there,he let us tried these super delicious drinks,which i think can make Starbucks company a run for their money..seriously..it was like all the ice blended drink,oni this,they used the ais-kacang scraper machine to make the ais so fine that wen blended with the juices,it was smooth n cream-like..very delicious i wud say..tried the milk,watermelon,carrot and their specialty and my personal favourite,GROUND NUTS flavour..we even ordered two glass of that and was brought to heaven..with chocolate (milo i think)powder sprinkled on top of it to give it the look and it certainly taste well with the drink too..really love it!!(when can i go back there again???)anyhow,after breakfast,James drove us back,miss a turning and went...to Bandar Bahru where we made a detour after realising that the roads were far too unfamiliar and it took too much time.(it was supposingly 45 minutes we can reach Penang but he had drove for more than one hour,and he was speeding too)Well,we made it finally and after a short rest,off we went again..Cheong picked up his friend Chris (who had been innocently dragged out,missing his guitar class).So its the four of us then,and Kek Lok Si temple we went..feeding turtles and alighted steps again to get to the top of the temple..and whoa,it was magnificent..of all the temples i've visited n seen,this was the hugest and by far,nicest..there was a huge pagoda and a big Kuan Yin statue too..overlooking the island of Penang,ever so magnificent.Well,of cuz while i'm up there might as well pray for my family too and therefore lighted a lotus candle to pray that my family will be safe n healthy..although grand,what really disappoints me is that everything was so commercialised there..every nook and corner u can see vendors trying to sell the so-call crystal bracelets,amulets,statues of variety of god etc.And they wil ask u to donate this donate that and build a wider and more beautiful temple.Chris has a point,why spend so much to make the temple bigger n nicer than it already is,using up so much of the donation money?instead they should,maybe donate to the orphanage,welfare homes etc,wouldn't it be a better idea?we went up to the Pagoda,and to the statue and took more pics..really exercised a lot and all of us were sweating like pigs di. haha..anyhow,after we came down,warding off aggressive merchandise seller along the way,i finally got a taste of Penang Laksa..it was not bad but May Ching prefer the Petaling Street one?Well then,after that we went for some water sports,clwmsy me knocked the car again..ouch!i'm seriously geting large bruises on my head di..ah well,wen we were resting in the car,namely sleeping,that jerk chris took our pic with his handphone..May Ching managed to delete hers,as for mua,not so lucky lo..it is now in the hands of jeremy,using it as a tool to black mail me..haiz..anyhow,when we reach the common beach,we were sad to find that it was closed..cuz it was 6pm already..we were a litle dissapointed but managed to find ourselves further down to the hotel beach for our water sports..though more expensive,it was worth it..and that was the first time i tried canoeing.i was relaxing at first,wen we managed to row quite far from the shore i start to dip my hands in the sea,enjoying the coolness..until my eyes (thank god!) spotted something slimy-looking translucent a little...u guessed right JELLY FISH!!immediately i start shouting happily like a small kid who found an interesting object.outta curiousity i suppose..well,the whole sea was full with them,much to my horror,brown ones,transparent ones..eughh..they even tried to pick some up.gross..stinky jellyfish aside,i really enjoyed rowing the canoe slowly while enjoying the sunset..the horizon was just so beautiful and with the serene crystal clear waters..i just wish i cuz capture the moment n save it forever..(but cannot lo,cuz camera left in the car,scared dropped into the sea..)felt so small n insgnificant right at that moment,peace n calamity at once too..soothing.anyhow,back to reality finding a bathroom was hell cuz they have oni one lousy pipe while the ladies were under renovation..we managed,somehow,by walking in (trespassing) to one of the hotels and took a quick change..dinner then we went to check whether we were able to catch some movies..thats where the list of crazy stuff begins.pool was normal lar,but i was lucky cuz managed a few shots,so wat if my team Chris-kelly lost to cheong-may ching?it was fun and a good pracitise..haha.and thanks to my now getting-better-speaking skills,we dragged cheong to give karaoke a try..well,i was little taken aback to hear that for the past 20 years of his life,that was his first time going to a karaoke..the crazy thing was,it was now..11pm,we sand til 3am in the morning..it was a first to me to,having o sing numerous tmes but not midnight!well,went off key few times but really did enjoyed going crazy and let hell break loose..the next crazy thing?by the time we head to the carpark,its all empty..and guess wat?crazy idea of mine,we tried to drive cheong's car..haha,i always wanted to try out cuz it has been a year and half since i last try any manual..well,din make it,barely moved at all,then May Ching tried too..with lots better results..(blushing)ah well,i can always drive an auto so..(trying to find excuses)imagine.3am,practising driving at a car park at a shopping mall.well,the day did not end there as we went strolling around in Cheong's car..after we had no choice but to go home,we oni managed to sleep..at 5.30am!!wow!it really is my first..and,we woke up at 8am too..my my..i was so groggy that i slept throughout the entire 5 hours home..slept like a baby,the bus was pretty comfy,or is it just me being too tired?anyhow..end of day 3 with me,skipping breakfast an lunch..all in all great trip,just wish it can be longer..

ok now,back to my thoughts for the day..ima nihongo de kaita hoga ii to omou.renshu dake dewanakute,choto himitsu dakara,gai gokgo o tsukaunara,tabun aite was yomnai karada.aitewa futarida.sorewa watashi no ryoshinda.naze watashiwa ryoshinno koto o itaino darouka?watashinitote jibun no mondai o tomodachini shiraseru nara moto ii to omoteirukarada.hajimete,kino no koto..watashiwa kino hahani iwazuni,tomodachito mamak e ite,soudanshita.ano otokonohitowa,watshino kokono ichiban seisekiga yoi gakuseda.watashitachino au baiai wa totemo totsuzenda.(tabun bunpo ka kotoba o tsukaunowa machigaetaga,jibunga wakareba mo daijyobu to omou)tzusuku..ano hitowa omoshiroikotowasomshiroiga,hanashisugi toomou.watashiga hanashibaai was totemo sukunai..haha,demo,iiyinda.hashino kotowa omoshirokereba omshiroihodo,jikanga kakaru..dakara,watshiga ie ni kaetekitanowa,asa nijihang guraida.mochiron haha ga betsuno hini watshini shikareta.sore dake wake dewanai..haha to chichino kankei wa itsumo yoknai node,moshi nanika watshiga machigaetara,hahawa itsumo okiikoede,chichi ni watshino machigae o shiraseru.watshiga ichiban daikirai nowa,hokano hito wa jibun no kotoo mamozni,hokano hitono kotoo jyamasurukotoda..watshino kesunoyoni,konbanno yoteini tsuyoku hantaisareta.tokuni chichida..watashio tomodachino kuruma o okuru tochewde,nandomo urusaku advisedoo ageta..hontoni urusaida!watashiwa moe kodomo jyanai,jibun moe kangaerareruyo!!nandayo?otokonara daijyobu,onanara yoru gashyutsuwa ikenai?nano kisoku?watashiwa wakaranai!yurusanai!likaidekinai!moiya,watashiwa eiga mo mita shi,tomodachi mo ata.ashita,imotono drivern naraseta..haiz..totemo tsukareta..nerutsmori..jya ne..

ps:can't be bothered about he bunpo or anything lar..jst for fun try out..hehe..dun laugh

~And the Story continues...~

Day 2:
Day two,as i have stated earlier,was not at Penang but SP instead..early morning James woke us up and we went for breakfast,and we actually had to get a number for our Wan Ton Mee..it was delicious and tats how i know why all the numbering..really nice,the noodle was home-made kind..really awesome.Hmm,after breakfast,we spent time in the car scoting around while James showed us around..but like always,i can't really remember which company is which,where is where..etc..but took the effort to try..then we went to Central Square for some shopping,seriously being born n breed in KL,shoping malls are the last place i want to go when travelling around..and thus,May Ching n I were like,walking pretty fast cuz we did not intend to buy anything and everything that can be found in KL.And guess wat?Like Malacca trip,i ended up reading again,and wat else but Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul?this time part 3,finished part 2 in Malacca thats why..while killing time to wait for lunch,we had it at James house,simple but nice..and oh,the baby at James house was so cute,but big!for a 1 year old,she looked like a 5 year-old..goodness,she's so adorable.Then we went off again after resting for 5minutes,i dunno why i'm such an impatient person,can't wait to go out again..maybe cuz to me,if i were to go on a vacation,i like to make full use of it,restng oni wen in the car orany form of transportation while getting to another destination,so i was like:u guy ready to go??haha..very imaptient of me,gotta change..well,rest we did in the car for our next destination was Gunung Jerai,an hour or so from James house.and the journey was such a rag,i want to sleep but felt weird cuz sitting in the front,felt like its not for me to sleep but have to talk to the driver instead so that he won't be sleepy on the road..=).anyhow,can see May Ching really had a good time sleeping behind,haha must be tired out i supposed,lucky i'm not the easily tired kind..attribute to all the long shopping n hours of walking at shopping malls,and frequent travelling..well,then,once we reached there we had to tent the van to get up,and my,the road was damn steep n windy..oh,the most embarassing thing?banged my head HARD wen we got in the van on the top of the van..i was like,OUCH!!!must be the stupid sunglasses,made me imbalance..it was dead embarrasing,and my head was alredy spinning..ouch.waaa,they still make fun of me say i grow taller di,hehe..i dun mind lar..well,went up there,really enjoyed the view again,the air there was much mch cooling then Penang Hill n the tourist there was less congested,not that its THAT congested in Penang Hill but at Gunung Jerai,we were the only few who went visiting..went n took more pics and began the exercise of the day..we saw a sign that lead to a water fall and went jungle trekking to find it..however the path came to an abrupt stop and thus,afraid of getting lost in the jungle,we turned back and ascended the steep steps n path agian..getting down was easy,going up was the tough part and we were like panting non stop by the time we reached back to the buildings cuz it started to drizzle a little..well,not wanting to waste our RM35,we enjoyed more of the view and went for a drink at the cafe thre..planned a little for our next stop instead,though he made a list(unlike Cheong=p)we managed to cover most of the places already..and so,after more chatting(though we din really got all the flowing type of conversation with Cheong at Starbucks,it was good enough,with James doing more of the talking then us..haha)even wen we head down,the driver jokingly asked me to be careful not to hit my head again,damn malu..this time around,i really snoozed off in the van,cuz it took arond 45 minutes to get down the hill oso..and ouch,again,this time it was my ear,din know that though its only a hill,my ears were painful like the time the plane landed at kuching airport..really cannot unblock it,damn painful.and the road was pretty bumpy towards then end,ouch ouch ouch..so well,this time around,all of us really snoozed off..i mean,i was dead tired with all th jungle trekking di,so while James drove,we slept peacefully..haha.we wake up to find he drove us to see the padi fields but too bad,all the crops have been cut n colected di..it was the time to replant again..so sad,but it as a pretty sight,to see the wide endless padi fields.made me felt so carefree and i thought,hey,studying that hard,wats the point,i'm here right now,watching the ppl living a fulfilling life playing their own respective parts and life still goes on right..take it easy next time..hmm,then dinner again,ate something light and rested..out we went again after the 6pm show cuz we dun wanna waste time at home..haha,guess where we went??next,we went Park Avenue to have a look around,and found out that bowling there only costs RM1.50!so dirt cheap that we had 3 games each..May Ching found a great sifu who taught her to bowl and she really scored quite a lot for a first timer,beat James in the first game too..super ler?u go gal..and to my suprise,i bolw better there too!!first was 123,next 100 and the last game,134!!ok lar,might not be so much to others,but to me,i was thrilled!was jumping gleefully and in no time,we soon started slapping hi5s..after the game,we were all super "high' di..then,eat again..haha,cuz james said the 2nd Street's food was good and closes late at night and lots of ppl go there..well,we almost believe him until,to his own embarassment,all the stalls start to close at 10pm and ppl were getting lesser..haha..happening place?i dun think so..we really shoot him to crazy di..so call SP person,duuno anything oso=>.then he took us to Laguna Bagan isit?soree,can't really remember names..the so-called (again) couples' port..haha,my foot.wen we went there there was oni some malatlo(bachelor guys)drinking beer chatting on the dock??not!!it was just a small platform overlooking part of the sea(or was it lake) oni..James was wailing n shouting in embarrasement di,May Ching n I was doing a great job!haha.so malu..the 2nd of the day..the third was the next day,wen he fetched us all the way back to Penang,he actually missed a wrong turning an we ended making a detour at Bandar Bahru..great huh??after travelling trillions of time to Penang he still made a mistake,so embarassing..anyhow,the last event of the day was a drink with his friend,who really can talk!!and interesting fella i shud say,talk at the speed of a bullet train..but very interesting stuff,actually met 7 times of accident..superb.then went home,not sleepy yet,looked through pictures at Jamess'pc of all the PPKJ ppl.Can actually see that a lot of the sempai changed a lot some thinner,some gained weight..n me?seriously gotta change my eating habits di,if not i'll gain some more..well,finally doozed off at 2am,and..the third day..to be cont..haha

~I'm Home..but not for long!!=>~

Yups,i've just came back an hour ago from Penang after a 4 days trip!!it was super duper cool like my previous trips..make a list first,Malacca,Kuantan,Pangkor,Singapore,Kuching,Ipoh(short one),Genting,Sp,Penang..whoa..hahaonly this time its my senior who provided all the essential "stuff" like a place to live,food n ahem,paying for most of the places or food we needed..hahawell,it was kinda rush thing bt we did have fun all in all..time really flies wen u are enjoyin them huh?as usual,this is going to be a dead long blog cuz unlike the Kuching trip,i din blog everyday so,summary here?

Day1:
Havin to wake up early to go to Pudu,i slept,considerably early the previous "on9 night".well,i was alone at Pudu Raya,and to kill time,i bought The Star.Then i was a little taken suprised wen the ppl i met a Pudu,was not the usually ,how to put this,usual situation onelar..K,let me explain..What i had in mind was,buy paper,get a place to sit,read n wait for May Ching..but then,ths newspaper vendor had no change and i found myself getting a chewing gum instead,then a person who i have no idea of wat native asked me bout the time,showed her,then she mumbled some gibberish,then there's this Aunty who spoke to me in Hokkien asking me where was i heading,when she heard i was going Penang asked me then,where to stop and stuff...i was like huh??cuz my Hokkien is downright lmited,then she went talking to me in Malay,and i think i must be blur and answered her in english instead,and she gave me the one kind look..haha.suprsingly she look like Chinese,speak Hokkien n Malay to me oni and she heard me talking Chinese..weird..anyhow,we soon take off to Penang..woohoo!!the journey took 4 to 5 hours,and wen we crossed the Penang Bridge,i was automatically awake..so nice lar,it was like,suddenly reality hit me(as always wen i go on a trip) that I'm crossing the longest in south-east Asia's well known Penang Bridge..i'm here!!Well,we nearly din manage to get off at Gelugor,lucky my instincts told me we shud ask the person whether tat was the stop and lucky we did too!!well,we waited under scorching hot sun and finally our "taxi" arrived..haha,as in cheong's car was a lot like a normal taxi so..he admit himself ler..first stop,food of cuz!!we were famished as for me having taken nothin at all since morning,the penang Char Kuey Teow was of cuz a welcoming sight!It was good,and really small plate..but then i managed to try other stuff as well lu.the Rojak was nice but i dun really like the Chee Cheong Fun which use prawn paste as well as sweet sauce,kinda thick though not bad lar.then we din head straight to Penang Hill instead,fetch cheong's cousin to tuition instead..reminds me that school starts that day and not everyone is holidaying like us,life still goes on for some..haha.Then Penang Hill here we come..the cable train was pretty neat,and i think its the only way the tourists can go up..though its pretty small,it was worth riding and we can see the scenic view slowly as it slowly crawls up..haha..took about half an hour to get to the final stop..well,i thought it'll be pretty cooling (which of cuz is,compare to the foot of the hill) but not as cool as i expected..still the air was crisp and clean,a vast difference from the all the carbon monoxide i breathe in that morning itself..din manage to see much though,just letting myself go and enjoying the air n freedom..lots of walking n picture taking was done too.the oni regret??din managed to see all the beautiful bangalows that was built there..cuz have to leave and shower..really,after all the sweat,i really longed for a good bath.To make matters worst,the cable train on the way own was so packed with ppl i could hardly breathe!and theres a fella next tome talking non stop to a foreigner,about the places he went,commenting about the ppl and countries etc..really nice to listen at first but later on i think it was quite a nag..he talked throughout the 30 minutes!!Next we went for a quick bath at Cheong's place. Felt kinda bad,just got to Cheong's house,bathe then leave di..din bring any omiyage oso..guilty guilty..dinner was next,n seriously,all the stalls in penang can really sell good food.i tried fried Dong Fun and it was good..met his friends oso,nice ppl they are..on the way there,Cheong told us about his sleep walking n sleep talking wen he was young?really scared the wits outta me..i mean,yeah,if movies i'm not that afraid at all,but real life thing?waaaaaaaa..dun wanna think about it while i'm here alone.then,tried some screwball and photo hunt..and stupid watch was tossed again,does that wen i fling my hand too hard..finally it was in pieces..yeah!!haha..actually it was pretty cheap and i have always want to get a new one,just can't find the excuse to do so..finally!!!Then,we went to Gurney Plaza for a starbucks drink..chatted the whole one hour till its time we leave for SP.so then,off we went to James's place..pretty neat and huge..luckily we have a room for the 2 of us..doosed off instantly..but had a bad night lar,May Ching..u know why!!anyhow..end of day one..gotta sleep now..to be cont....

~another long winded article,NOT!!!~

ok,so again,i got up this time,early..as in 7.30am..drove mum all the way to Cheras,going at 90 plus 100,cuz it was clear..went to pick up cousin who suprisingly aftr so many trips to KL,dunno how to take the bus from Pudu..cuz usually he take the taxi from Ayer Tawar which costs a hefty Rm30 plus..well, i got my tix to Penang anyway..again,have to quarrel,make it argue with mum over which tix to buy..why is always gotta be tis way??anyhow,all is settled at last,even meeting with Jeremy n May Ching on9..haha..finally i'm going to Penang!!!!huray..blog next time..woohoo..

~ Repeat...A Joyful Day~

y repeat??thats because i've written a damn long blog yesterday(or is it this morning to be exact??)at 3am.no,i finshed at 3am..but the pc was on too long i spposed so the whole blog din came up so there..i gotta repeat wat i've done yesterday cuz todays i'm home all day so there's pretty much nothing to talk about..so here goes..

Early morning i woke up,(did i sadi early morning??sory it was 10.45 am,haha,slept at 3 am oso the previous day mar)not a very good start cuz i was aken by the ringtone of my hanphone n oo the damn phone downstairs..however,it was Kok Keong,and he invted me to go back to school for a small reunion cuz it has been long since we last saw each other..(then i found out it was my damn sis using his phone to lure me outta house!!)anyhow,i also found out it was my cosin sister sook ching who called to invite me out,keeping her promise..after a few phone calls n arrangements,i haed to the school within like 15 minutes after i woke up..it was really super cool,al the phone calls,dressing up n getting a cab to school all was done in that 15 minutes!!i was like suprised cuz i manged to get a cab within like 2 minutes after i walked down to the normally deserted n quiet street,all the way praying i can get a cab quickly and soon enough it was,i really managed to hop in a cab instantly..cool..

Seeing Kok Keong after so long really have not much to say..the feelings of avoiding him n stuff is all gone,now we can chat freely like normal friends do..Thinking back i think i was pretty immature avoiding him the last time wen he,ermm,confessed..i'm really a cold person i suppose or simply ,not thoughtful enough..anyhow,he was lots thinner since i can remember and we chatted in the canteen while waiting for my sister who set me up to talk to him and oni he alone was in the canteen..so,i even offered to help to clean the art tools he used for the Blue House mascot thing..hehe,nola,like wat i said before in myprevious blogs,the school is still the same,the students there,(though now all oni di-di n mei- mei) oni i have changed,but hey,the world is still round..i guess compared to them,the oni diffrence is i've seen more than them a little of the outside world thanks to my new found hobby of travelling and my new study environment..

And then the rest of the days,i enjoyed my day at the karaoke at Neway,sang my hearts out..really cool..Like me,sook ching has always tried to look for a karaoke partner for this hols having been "ditched" by her sister who now found companionship to movies with her male friends,as for me,i can't "date" my F6 friends cuz they are all so damn bc with their school work,sports day etc..anyhow,i really did enjoyed myself cuz its been awhile since i can sing all i want..at first it was pretty weird,having to just get outta bed,not use to my voice yet,so its not suprising i get outta tune in the beginning..haha.lucky it ws just sook chind,sis n i,if not i wud have to look for a whole to hide my embarrasment..hehe..well,i was super happy cuz i did managed to get a few high notes correct,well,cannot compared to my already professional sister-lar,but i got some so i was thrilled in way,like small kid..haha.and oh,i really love singing at Neway cuz the food that is finger-licking good too..so wat if Red Box has all the latest songs??the food at Neway,unlike Red Boxs' looked-as-if-hastily-prepared food,really can cheer up ur mood more..all to be said,great time+great food=good mood..haha

Then t was weird but my day goes on with The Series of Meeting Long Lost Touch or Seen People..haha .First up on the list,Eugene..it has been almost a year,well,exactly a year since i last saw him while we worked at MV.funny,we were chattin on9 the other day,wanting to meet up but accomplished no agreements....haha,due to our hectic schedule lar..anyhow,i saw him while we were er,surechigau toki at the escalator so din mange to say much,just hi and henji wa,bikurishita kaoo shita..hahawell,then it was really concident,though we went different floors n stuff,will bumped into each other a numerous of times at Times Square..so i did managed to chat wth him a litlle lo..even managed to bump into him 3minutes before we (cousin,sis n mum now...)head o the parking lot to retrive our car..so managed a quick sayonara oso..next it was Kah Fai..dun think he say me though..while we were at Oi Mays' hous,or,to be more specific,below he flat..

My Sis lar,wanted me to fetch her to retrive a book she forgot from Kok Keong..and man,he walked quite a distance ler..cuz we dunno where he live mar,just that its near Oi mays' houe so we waited there lar..goodness,how can he walk such distance for a favour for my sis??really thanked him lar..then it was Hsiao Vern,looking every pretty..i really wondered if my sis n her were of the same age??in comparison,my sis looked so tiny..erm,she is tiny lar..hahaThen it was Mr Goh,Pn Yap..all at the pasar malam..whoa..well,to me its like very hard to see them cuz its like,i din know these ppl still exist..dun get me wrong,as n,never thought wd meet me F2 teacher mar.and the series goes on till midnight wile i was havin supper with mum,(yup,u read that right supper lar!!i felt good yst mar so tried a little lo,Emerson,u were right,the mee goreng was good!!!)met Joseph..goodness..not bad lar,having to see everyone is stil leading a great live,healthy,makes me felt good too..

The creme of the day that made me go on top of the world was,my new haircut!!its so bobby n short right now,i just love it!!Ricky really has his own touch and made my oh-so-flat hair into healthy bouncy ones..really,i'm not joking..ever seen the Japanese gals' typical short layer hairstyle,mine is somethin like that..oh i mentioned this already??i dun care lar,i just LOVE IT!!!i was so happy with it that i vowed,errrmm,in a way,decided lr,to go back to Ricky's for my next,next,next...oh,as often as i need to,for my hairstyling..now i know what Chee Wei meant by hairstyling is a real fashion statement most needed tool or simply,to put u in cloud nine..

And my,the world is really small i wud say..who wud have thought,wen i was at my aunts showroom, the one selling furniture,the customers was my bro's friens' parents..that gals' bro,who was there at tat time to(bc talking away on his phone while he was here 1 hour)actually knew Emerson as well..talked about coincidence..ok for those who is alreday blur,i'll explain in detail..haha..my brother's primary school friend is the gal,her parents,my aunt's customer..and now,the gal's brother?Emerson's friend,and me??duh,Emerson's friend lar.ok so some ppl wud think or say like,ermm.u live in KL,how many schools are there??just happened they went to the same school,meet with these circle of friends etc..i dunno lar,maybe its true,but i always find this kinda thing,the connection,i mean,really has some meaning in it and stuff..ah well,its just me..but in my case,i have have known 3ppl of this example of "miracle circle of connection",one,Vivian..two,mayching,now,Emerson..Vivian's connection is the closest,and also the earliest..and the rest,it follows by that order lo...i dunno how to explain lar,i just find that its a little miracle that everyone can know each other somehow or other through a big wide connection..unbelievable..

And oh,i can finally go Penang!!hurray!!!yesterday was hell,me been ever so pushy,but i was really eager that May Ching can go..this is me lar,mum also scolded me all the time for being overeager n active wen i'm excited over something..it was really hard yesterday,trying to convince Steve to go too..but all is well now,huuu...i'm on top of the world right now!!!yeah yeah!!love ya May Ching,for u managed to convince ur parents to let u go,u won't regret it..wa on seven heaven wen i received ur messaged that i was laguhing so loud n happily,mum was also smiling di..hehehehhe

anyhow,hopefully this will turn up in my site,if not,i can't be bothered to retype anymore..wei,i spent another hour on this ler..and now,i got a car to wash(have to bodek a little mar..haha)c ya!

~A Joyful day~

Ok its not a great start,having being awaken by my message ringtone..and it was Kok Keong,not only that,the phone downstairs was ringing pretty long..finally replied the sudden message asking me to go to school..later found out it was my sis using my friends' phone to get me to go to school..damn!well,b4 that i got to call mum n cousin,she really kept her promise and really hang out with me today..felt kinda weird but its ok..after making a few arrangements n phone calls, i finally managed to rush to school withing 15 minute,plus changing n walking down the road to get a cab..seriously,everything went smoothly n i manged to get a cab straight away from the usually very quiet street..suprised huh??i was like praying n hoping i wud be able to get a cab soon and soon enough it was,voila,i managed to get one,within 2 minutes???super cool..

well,manage to see kok keong n oni him i think,while i wait for my is to arrive..hmm,really all the awkwardness i had with him all gone di..now seriously,i wondered why i had tried so hard to avoid him the last time??seems pretty immature of me,to avoid when ppl starts to confess his own true feelings..haiz,but now its the past di,and like all friends,i can talk normally to him already..ah well,even helped him out to wash up the tools he used to paint the "papan" for Blue house..not bad huh?go back school still have to do stuff for it,but its a little contribution oni lar,so did it lo..he looked lots thinner than i can remember..but like my previous blog,except that i've grown,the ppl in the school have changed,other wise the world is still round..all the memories that was once there was just now,memories..no more avoidin him,just chatting like normal ol friends already..so nice..

well,spent the next few hours singing my lungs out,enjoying karaoke..like me,my cousin have been looking for a companion to sing for a long time di but vainly found non till today..she,usually hanging out with her younger sister was ditched because of an outing with a boy,and me,my friends are ever so bc with studies n sports day till i have no time to date them..well,at last we found each other n managed to enjoy ourselves..of cuz,having to wake up immediatly n not getting used to my voice just yet,my voice went off key at the beginning,and it was dead embarrasing..if the room ws not jus cousin,sis n me,i wud have find a hole to hide..hha..well,really enjoyed a lot!!!especially wen i managed to hit a few high key notes,unlike my sis who is already a pro singer,i'm just glad to able to do some..haha.and the food at Neway is really good man,good!!though the songs are not as much as Red Box,i wd never trade places with neway,cuz the food is really not done hastily..all in all,great..

then begins the series of Meeting old-long-time-no-see Friends..first up,Eugene..we planned to meet up on9 a few days ago but negotiation failed..haha..hard to meet up due to our different schedule.well,saw hm on the way ermm...surechigau toki..while at the escalator.he was suprised wen i gretted out,however as we were at the escalator,wedin manged to say much..but lo-behol,aftera short walk,we met agin,on the same floor,and at last chatted a litle..but man,we kept bumping into each other after that,though we went different floors at times Square..haha.even managed to see him n aid goodbye 3mintes before we hea to the car park..

the rest were...Kah Fai,wen i fetched sis o pick up her undang book from kok keong,who,my goodness,walked a far deal to pass the book to my sis..cuz we dunno where he stays so can oni stop at Oi May's place..goodness..then it was,Hsiao Vern,ever so pretty,can' believe she's at the same age as my sis..in comparison sis seems so tiny,but then again,she is tiny lar..then Mr. Goh,Pn Yap..who i have no idea still exist..all at pasar malam..the rest of the day is..a day loh..oh,i managed to get a new haircut..thats what me so ecstacily happy!my hair is so short right now,my rubberband is having a hrd time staying on my hair..love it,really,feel so light,and Ricky never losses his touch and put a glow back to my oh-so-flat hair..really nice and my mood was uplifted that instant..i really really love it!!!and oh,shopping with mum for cloth,the ever boring routine of bussiness seems so much fun today too..cuz got to order a few ppl around,haha,not in a bad impolite way lar,but asking them to do a few things..cut cloth lar,in fact,and i felt a little..proud cuz i gotta buy without thinking how much it costs..oh,u'll never understand,its just plain gila me today typing this..even ate a nice mamak mee goreng,and really bossted my spirits,be gone with healthy food for today..i'm starting tmr,thats why..finally got "The Formula" already..at last..haha..anyways,its 3 am again,i have to doze off again..til tmr..byes

~A Thought-provoking Outing~

Early morning i got up,exactly 10 minutes before the alarm goes off..another day of my hols,another outing.Today's took place at Times Square again,that's 3 times in a week..whoa..and today's movie is Hitch..first up,the comment on the movie,it was pretty hilarious but being used to the lame jokes of English movies,i didn't really had the laugh-off-my-head jokes but polite and catchy ones..u get the idea.it was a really feel good movie,and again,it's really worth another of my RM6..haha..though,i'm slightly amazed that it can actually get through Malaysian Censorship board without being snipped off here n there..cuz there was really a countable amount of liplocks..but should they do so,it would have "killed" the "magic" of the movie..i sincerly think so,anyhow..and my partner for my outing today was,Chee Wei..the last time i saw him,it was 2 months ago,i think..through all sorts of modern day communication,i kept in touched with my dear secondary pal and i knew he sports a new haircut..but saw him today,and i was bewildered...i know he's really into this hairstyling thing,but today the Chee Wei i saw really made me took some time before i can finally get used to his new image,or to be more specifically,his new hairstyle..Details: the left part was partly bald,the right was still thick and spiky..and the back,was let shaven towards the right side..yes,a very punk look..seriously,if i have not known his characteristics of being a fashion lover but otherwise pretty harmless studious fella,i would never have thought of wanting to know him with his now-image..should have taken a picture of it..haha,as rememberance..well,talked to him a lot today and as usual,we talked about things we seldom find other ppl understanding,but its not any top-secret or anything..just some ppl dunno us well to actually hear all these stuff..i'm sure somehow or another,u all have a pal who can really talk about anything..and luckily i found him..

Understanding that to him,his hairstyle is everything..so though he can be pretty shy tackling gals,he can be pretty bold and passionate about his hair..one of the few ppl i have met that is really passionate about something and actually do something about it,unlike me,with no special interest,and thus,leads a dead boring life..anyhow,meeting him today really made think about a lot of things,sometimes in the mid-conversation with him..hehe..(sorry for not paying attention but i think vice-versa oso lar)well,to me Chee Wei is still the same-old-same-old.I guess having to be in the same comfort zone of friends,school and family can't really change one's characteristic(him being in the same Sentosa for 5 years,now 7,doing his f6)Or is it just me that changed a lot since i started studying here??to me right now,unlike the me where i usually share his thoughts(a little) that being single is really a not-so-good thing?now,seriously,i find that it really doesn't bothers me at all,and sometimes,i think that kinda thinking is really immature and primitive.(hmm,some interruption now,my secondary school mate started a 7 ppl chatroom and i find it pretty "noisy"..so i left to continue where i stopped..distrupted my flow and mood just now..hmm.)all i can say that,Chee Wei is still Chee Wei,still looking at those lala mui,crack some jokes..but to me,i think i have started to drift a little.My prorities have differed and now,i prefer to enjoy life to the fullest by travelling,and not stuck and restraint myself from the oh-so familiar comfort zone of my KL city..What really prones me to think like that?

I think,after graduating F5,things are not so simple anymore..getting to know other people from various parts of malaysia,really set me apart from my familiar surroundings..sure,KL is still KL,the department stores,bowling alleys are all still there,but here,its a whole new world in PPKTJ.To compare my life here to the reality game Survivor sounds pretty harsh,but it does have some similiarities.for one,ppl here are not so friendly like the way they potrays to be..i for one,fallen victim to one of these ppl but now,things are changing for the better..it seems like a whole new different world,ppl are more,emotional and ever so beguiling at times..really made me looking after my back at all times..how i wished to get the same friends in secondary school,where everyone gives n tolerates each other n not "kill" each othr fighting for the deemed-so-important positions..though i would love that,however,if given the a second chance,i will still not let go the chance of accepting this course,this path.So wat if my girlfriens are in Sentosa,to me now,i have adapted to the situation here and enjoyng my new-found hobby of travelling..and thus,sad to admit,like the poem,homecoming,i have found and gained experienced from all these travelling,and i dare say,if i were to be at F6,never will i have the chance to open my eyes to see the beauty and wonders of malaysia..that's because sad to say,to me now,my girlfriends in secondary school follow the book too much and restraint themselves too much from really experience and enjoy the fortune around them..true,some might disagree that through travelling only that we can experience the true meaning of life,but hey, tell me,is it through blindly accomplishing ur daily work,without resting even on weekends and holidays,u'll get what u want in life??not oni that,my mind oso drifted that,by the age of 25,will i still be able to be,like today,sitting in front of my pal,chatting freely whilst we are sipping Starbucks,giving comments about every lala gal we see on the street?i doubt that,so like what he said,while he is still young,he can't be bothered about ppl's stares at his unique hairstyle and likewise,i can't be bothered about ppl saying i hang out late at night or travelling too much though i'm a gal..society prejudice...that's wat i think.

Not only that,what really made me worried is the importance of friendship..however wide my circle of friends is, i really doubt i can mange to keep in touch with allof them n it scares me to think i'll lose each n everyone of them..but mainly now what really confuses me is,who will i miss?i wondered,should i be in Japan then,who will i find comfort in calling when i get homesick??i have no idea..i'm woried i will no longer be of importance to them,that my call will just be a burden to them,interrupting their oh-so hetic n packed lifes..i dunno..i seriously dunno..ah well,i guess only time can tell,and no point worrying about the future if my present is not yet done well enough..luckily,i still didn't run out of things to chat with Chee Wei,shud that happens...i will really wonder what has happened to me n where my friendship bond stands..

~A Furious Day At Home!!~

I'm so totally pissed off by my brother a minute ago..he didn't tell me that the computer guy tried to reformat my pc,n thus all the pics i saved from my trip has all been deleted..gone,whoosh..nothing!!!damn,if he would have told me earlier,i would have saved it in my digicam first before he totally deleted it..damn!!all my precious pictures of trips to Kuching,Sarawak..my birthday pictures and of family members,all gone!!damn damn damn!!!hate it really hate it...all the peaceful afternoon mood i had this fternoon,gone..i'm so damn pissed off right now i can really strangle my brother to death this instant..and for one,i would love to kill that pc guy..having to repair my pc for months already n oni today its finally done???goodness and from windows 98 upgraded to xp now back to 98 again..sick man,really sick...if its not for me and my peabrain who have the least ideas about pcs,i would have not let anyone touch my precious pc at all!!!damn,i'm really damned right now!!now wat??huh now wat??all i haveleft here in my cam is my recent genting trip..great..really have to get a cd burner already and save all my pictures available..

Alright,not much has been done whilst i am at home the whole day,been replenishing my energy and slept the whole afternoon.tomorrow,i'm goona go out again,dun care bout my fathers' oh-so-lame jokes bout not seeing me at home all the time..i mean if i were to stay at home,do what??read the paper??hah!no animes for me to watch or serials too..it's been quite long since i've ever touched the TV at all...so,outing,here i come..if not,i'll rot at home..i have 3 weeks man..i know,some ppl wold be working their ass out studying,but i can't be bothered,its time to relax and i'm gonna do it and enjoy it to the fullest..so there..

~Rules and Regulations??!?!~

yupz another day of my hols where i went out the whole day again,didn't stay put at home much..i think it has become motto or my own phrase which i created to tell my friends:"since last friday i have not been at home the whole day except to sleep n bathe.."its true..100%genuine,no copycat nothing..haha..that's y i've been spending like hell..to start off with,i'll just talk about yesterdays' 1 day trip to Genting,din manage to blog yesterday cuz it was a tiring day..as i have mentioned earlier,i woke up eatrly in the morning at 6.30am,dressup and got ready for our trip to Genting..when we got there promptly at 7.30am,which the counter lady advised us to do so,and got a package for RM25 oni!!it includes the ticket to n fro to Genting and a ticket for the outdoor theme park..kinda worth it dun you think??well,again,we met some negative ppl on the way like that lady who was just so ever impatient to get the ticket for the 8am bus,or the bunch of noisy Ah Lians who had been chatting non stop throughout the entire journey up to the cable car section..man,if its not for my well-trained habit of easily-can-fall-asleep in the bus,i would have screamed at those youngsters..(sound so old di!!)=0..anyhow,we finaly arrived at Genting...

Haha,Mayc,i already wrote about this in my diary so,would cut short here cuz lazy to rewrite evrything..hehe.no lar,as i have been to Genting often,the rides were,rides lo..except for the Space Shot which til now,can really scare a little wits outta me,the others were just so-so..i mean,i've been up there i trillionth times,just going to enjoy lar,and to show Clem and min around in a way..haha..well,i went up a new ride called the Flying Coaster and had to pay and extra RM10 for it..and it was really nice,the only ride that made me screamed,cuz its my first time anyway,wanted to buy the pics lar,but for RM10,we decided not to(now i regreted)..and my,Min can really scream..not those sharp shrilling scream,but loud and ear-piercing ones,as if she's terrified to death..well,she is,but its as though someone is killing her at that moment and she's screaming to save her life..well,u get the picture,and i have to like close my ears through out the rides..funny,the small boy next to her was like :"Relax,relax,no need to worry one"and told her that wen we were up there for the dragging 16seconds up the space shot..haha..even manged to get a pic shot of her screaming and clunging at the ride..din know it was that terrifying..went in the Haunted Adventure to and that's where i really felt a little annoyed..so then,i made this rules and regulations,for....hmmm,i dunno,just made them for myself to see:

1.no talking whenu are in the haunted house lar,since u paid the RM18 to get scared,like what Morrie said,let the feeling fill u up,experience it,enjoy the texture of it,and enjoy it thoughroughly lar..what is it with all the talking and laughing at the silly gimmick of the "real" life ghosts in there??trying to prove that u are macho or wat??to me,theres oni 2 reasons,1 u are really a chatter-box and dunno the right time to talk or 2.u plain terrified and try to talk out loud as much as possible to cover it up..and i believe Min has just proven that hypothesis 2 is correct..

2.Wen i said:"let's take pics..."i meant we all take pics,and why in the world u want to offer to hold the camera instead??all the time somemore..in the end,oni a hadful pics were taken..and from my experience last year,all these pictures can be beautifully taken with the background and the object fittingly in one pic,these pics were................

3.the one that i hate most,but forgotten just now.The words "Anything" and "you decide lar" should not be applied wen u go out on an outing..how many times i've heard this word throught the trip is really beginning to bug me A LOT!!and if i start to decide and then the different opinions starts to pop up..what is this man??i hate to decide..

thats it i think,rules and regulations..haha..no,theres more to come..just wait..

To begin with,as usual,a little more of wat i have done for today..today,finally got to meet up with Vivian and Abel.Vivian,as usual,so thin but healthy i can see..Abel,haha..u might be reading this so ermm..haha,taller?yeah,taller..well,had a good time at the movie..really wanted to watch this already but no one accompany me cuz its not of interest for most of my friends..Hide and Seek..highly recommended,i managed to stiffle a few gasps throughout the movie.it ws pretty scary,seriously..but Vivan told me this movie has 2 endings??Malaysia oni show one of it,really want to watch the other part if possible..Dakota Fanning might create waves in the movie industry as a great new comer i think..reminds me of Christina Ricci in the movie The Addam's Family..spooky.Robert de Niro?ever good acter..that's all i can see..well,its certainly worth my RM6..really cool..well,the rest of the days,took pics cuz we know its really hard to meet up..it has been god know how long since we have planned to meet up..her being in Singapore,and me having little holidays,its a wonder we finally do but sadly had to cut it short..sigh..

Well,suprisingly i managed to get Yann Yoon to go out for a mamak drink today..we went to meet up with Alex Kim..him,buying us drinks cuz he managed to score excellently well in his STPM..that's we\here the rules and regulationgs stepped in..for the first time of my countless times to Steven's Corner,this is the first time i saw this kinda thing..we were enjoying our drinks wen suddenly .........(suspens,haha)a lorry full of DBKL ppl jumped down from the vehicle and started stacking up all the chairs on the roadside..tables,and all the plastic chairs with no ppl on top of it,namely sitting on it,were collected instantly without warning..of cuz,like most of the customers there,we sat there unbudged and watched..cuz if u leave,they will just take up the tables and chairs..haha,so in a way,to help the restaurant save another cost of buying an extra table and 4 stools,we sat there not budging our butts..whoa,this ppl acted fast,din know so much "co-operations" can be still found in the Malaysian Government workforce..within minutes,the large TV screen for all football lovers/customers were also moved up the lorry along with the gas stove,stalls of the restaurant,all whick is by the roadside.of cuz it really created a commotion and ppl started to gather and watched..haha..suprisingly we can still continue with our conversation and drinks..well,i dunno if they have been warned anot but if not,Steven's corner is really into some big trouble..ahwell,my father is here waiting outside for me at the cc..sigh...gotta run,fast...cuz...rules and regulations???

~Aggressiveness~

I have noticed recently i AM pretty harsh with my words,i wonder why..guess its really rude of me..i can't control it and overreact at times,citing an example,i was talking on the phone with Emerson yesterday and mum satrted quipping in now and then wen i mentioned i wanna go out,i think she din noticed i was on the phone..so i was damn piss off cuz it was damn irritating and i blurted :"would u all please shut up??"all the ppl in the car fall silenlt immediatly..i know its my fault,but my tempers do flare up suddenly at times but most of the time i can tolerate it but dunno wat went wrong yst..haizz...then all the screaming ang talking to loud also caused my mum to shoot daggers at me..really guilty,have to repent..must watch my words now,being to agressive n active is not good..

today,mum din wait us up early enough and the Genting trip was cancelled..i know she meant well,seeing us so tired out and slept like pigs,so wanna lets us rest more...but i was dead dissapointed wen she suggested the trip was cancelled,thank to my sis who have to attend her oh-so-important singing classes ler..nobody fetch her wor,cuz father went to Raub..haiz...i arguedwith mum again at first til then end i dun feel like saying anything anymore..so the trip was cancelled cuz its too late di,and 1 day u can't possibly finish all the rides..so postponed to tomorrow lo,lucky Clement suggested..haha..then,after agreeing,we went to pick up some of his clothes n spent the rest of the day at KLCC..haha,with Min at Kinokuniya,Clement went for the F1 roadshow,i end up watching Constantine alone..really enjoyed myself cuz i can't stand spending my day at the bookstore so..not bad wat the show,cool..iwas so eager to watch it for a very long period of time di and since everyone has watched it,try watching alone lo..not bad the feeling of it..haha,at least i won't be disturb by some sudden remarks from anybody..no,no,not saying that i dun enjoy the company of friends or my friends are script repeaters,just saying,that watching alone is kinda cool too..not bad lar(have to look at the positive side of everything right??)...all was enjoyable,even the two plump ladies and thier husbands squeezing me in the middle..all was well except for the bastard behind that kept on switching his leg or plain shaking it..damn!!wenever he tries to shake,i'll turn my head a little to show him i mind and thank goodness he got the message and stopped..until his habit kicks in again..DAMN!!ignorance is bliss they say,and well,it kinda work..at times,wen the part og f the show went into its peak..dun these ppl read the paper about bad habits in the cinema??or simply they dun read The Star??or plainly left their brains at home and their civic mind?goodness.. really this is wat dampens my mood to watch any movie,and being a frequent cinema visitor,i really wonder what can be done to give a piece of my mind to this selfish movie goers?aren't the advertisements enough??

ah well,then spent the rest of the day reading a book (in the end i did end up reading)at Kinokuniya inside Isetan,din know there's one there..and lucky me,i found a book in English (duh its at the English corner)the whole store was selling Japanese reading material only and picked up a book about the insight of Japan from the view of Kay whats-her-name..soreee,really bad at remembering names..a foreigner who lived in Japan,and still does,i think.The insight she gave was about the lifestyle of Japan,and something that really humour me and really gave me a rough idea about how life would be in Japan,the ppl,the culture etc..and to say the first chapter always leaves the strongest impression...its kinda true,haha..the first was that the KITCHEN is a good place to bond and communicate,be it for the Americans or Japanese..and its kinda true,its a place where u do all the talking while savouring a decent meal..well,the next feel chapters were mostly about Japanese cultures and her perspective anout Japan..how she assimilated with them after staying with them,teaching them English etc.among the topics were the things to say or do,how the Japanese are well known as one of the most polite ppl in the world,perspective of foreign woman towards the Japanese men...and i find this quite true,Japanese man or not,they are better listeners compare to the American counterpart,where by they are trained to listen to u first before giving their opinions...as for the American men,they are brought up to interrupt u and proving u wrong and over-eager to express their thoughts..haha..and the phrase "i'm in the bad mood today" are always uttered by the Americans when they first meet the ppl they know at times,as if it really explains everything,are found quite hilarious in the world of Japan..to the Japanese,usually they will often greet ppl in a warm and nice way instead of expressing thier negative moods and pour their feelings out..i think there's good and bad points in this case..its good to channel out ur frust but not to the extent of pouring out to ur friend without acknowledging whether they are in the mood to listen first..and its not good to bottle up eveything too,its just plain not healthy..

besides that,she also mentioned about ppl often not noticing their own oddness when it comes to their own culture bout often noticed bout other country's..citing an example is that nowadays,the youngsters in Japan prefer marrying in church although they are not Christians and the foreigners or GAIJIN felt weird about that..din they notice that most Americans are having their weddings in church though there are some who are Protestants,Buddhist,muslims even?are some of them are changing the words in the vows nowaday,especially the woman part with words containing something like "loyal,trust and obey"..thats the word,and i'm sure u noticed..OBEY..so some couples are changing the vows to custom written ones which to some are more unique and romantic..and for equality rights..well,that's why since they themselves altered so much of the traditional wedding ceremony,its just the same for the Japanese ppl,only to them,church wedding seems more romantic and easy..

there are lots more,and i wanted to buy the book but it cost a hefty RM 39.95..imagine that for a book i manged to finsh within say,1 and half hour i think..goodness..so,sayonara book..and off i went for Secret Receipe..funny huh i can have second thoughts (triple even) wen it domes to buying a more than RM 20 book but for food i can use as much withought wincing..really have to get my priorities right di and from now on control the flow of my cash,so far not bad lar,if i were to compare to Min n Clem..hehe..and oh,wen i was at KL Central,this creep tried to "eat my toufu" by brushing as if by accidently againts my hand..wen i look at him,he gave this damn creepy smile..lucky it was just a brush through,try to do anything and i'll...i dunno do wat but i just won't let him off the hook so easily,and i was cursing so loudly in Chinese so the damn fucking Indian creep won't understand..DAMN!!..okla,calm down,so tmr will be the substitute Genting trip so..nites..tired out..dun intend to stay in the first place but someone blocked my car from leaving and wanted me to wait for 5 minutes and then there's place here finally so,as fate wants it..i stayed to type this..hahaso..bye bye

~Tiredness~

early in the morning,skipped breakfast,head straight to my hostel..and to say i was enjoying my hols??there,i packed like hell,moving to n fro from my mum's car,carryin all the stuff as much as i can at one go..suprsingly the Kancil can fit all my stuff plus Min's..the minute i stepped in my room i was burning slowly,by a spark of anger,then it rose along with frustration as fuel..know why??of cuz i'm gonna tell u why,if not why bother blogging??the thing is,the goddamn fan was on,and my roommate head home di..it's all ook,till i found out she left the curtains there too (suppose to give back to the office),the toilet not cleaned,and the damn filter not moved up the store!!!hey,i seldom even touched the thing and i have to move it up??i know it doesn't weigh that much or anything but,its just a floor up,and u leave everything to me to do??what is this,if it wasn't for my last minute dinner with my so-call near relatives,i would be back and pushed everyone to clean up..

4 gals,share one damn small toilet,and nobody but me take the effort to clean it..how much can i do??i've done it once,and did i get any help???no...fine,treat it as a work out,cleaned that..but u expect me to do that everytime???no way man,and not to say anything but the gals next door,whoa,how can they live in that state??take a picture and sent it to the world dirtiest toilet contest (if they have one) n i'm sure it'll back top prize;hair,dirt and other brown gooey particals that i have think have no-naming to it yet are found right at the door that leads to the toilet..they face it everyday and can't be bothered to clean it??eughhh..at least,jenny will clean once in a while wen she does her laundry..in the end,i did most of the cleaning for them today..Min did clean the shower area,the rest...mua..AGAIN!!!!sick sick sick of it,the least Jenny n Xinning can do is at least take some water n clear the hair there??i did all the scrubbing n cleaning,with a brush..nope,not a mop or a toilet broom thing,with a brush,it took me one damn tiring hour!!!!!all sweaty n have to head to MV again..

AS usual,movie was ok..and AS USUAL,spent time at bowling before we head for movie..n gotta complain this,what is it with this ppl with their business gimmick??said something bout RM 4.50 for students and minimum have to be 3 games.so we want 3games each and she said what,oni the first game is 4.50,the rest is RM 7???wat the heck!!!and what,after what time got what thing somemore..hell..say properly lar..in the end we end up paying the normal weekend price..not satissfied at all..hate this..clear the air by putting proper notices lar dong..how u ppl do business one??and service with smile??my foot!!she was like eager to get rid of me wen i press her further for details of the payment,hey,i'm paying for this,lady,if u dun explain,how can i decide???shit her lar really,imaptient and unfriendly arsseeeee..y do they bother to hire her anyway..lame..the movie,Seiries of Unfortunate Event was so-so,though i do enjoy it at times,but the ending was like...no proper ending lar..then dinner as usual,back home bored,came here..

did i mention i'm going to Genting tomorrow??first for this year,been visiting there for a thrillionth time..haha,try out the new ride.ok,now i'm dead tired,no more thoughts of the day..damn damn tired..gotta go now..outta idea anyway..yeah,y is it these 2 days on9 ppl kept on asking if i'm still single,so long din see oso no need ask this question one mar..so lame n routine,predictable..boring,n so nosy for wat???i vowed(not seriously though) that i will remain single till i go Japan,cuz to me,long distance very hard to work out..see how things turn up lar,n hey,i'm still young ler..enough of this di k??goodnights.....(rolling my eyes!)

~Chemical Engineer??!!NEVER!!~

Whoever told me that chemistry is easy is so wrong..well,as usual,no one to blame but myself..everyone was doing really great,excellent in fact in Chem but why not me???last minute studies??might be...but hey,who would predict that Chem paper was more of Math quiz???fail??maybe not,but i'm sure being the bottom few in the whole PPKTJ is not a problem already..so wat if the whole world says Chem is just hard core memorising???i can't do it,so there..well,as usual,after the paper,lots of discussions were made..and i was downright deep in the blue..wasted my beauty sleep studying the facts when everything turned out to be calculations..din mange to revise that part yet..4hours of sleep per day for the last few days..great,n emerson calling me a sadistic person??who's to blame,study here and u'll have no problem turning into zombie during exam week,i barely ate much2..sigh..

after my much dreaded paper,spent another RM 24 at Pizza Uno..reading Alex's blog,wondering wherether i'm being to spendrift??guess when we feel guilty about something,we'll think up some lame excuses,and in this case..i've not been eating well for the pass 1 week,spending oni..RM20 for 7 days to be exact..today's meal..really appertising.but felt guilty again..haiz..Million Dollar Baby is sure a good movie,but what is wrong with me?why am i always the oni one not showing any emotions even if its a really touching part???i'm scaring myself too..that's it,i'm a kiasu?dunno ler,just like to keep my emtions to myself,other then the bright side,the emotional and thought-provoking Kelly can oni be found in blogs,mails,sms or any form of indirect communication..

all right,whats wrong for not showing emotions in the public,for me,its not so hard to restrain urself from doing so right??i might potray an image of a very weak gal who try to prove others wrong by pretending to not show the emotional side of me,look at me that way,see if i care??for now i can't be bothered by what ppl think anymore,cuz seriously..I'M SICK OF LIVING UP TO ALL OF UR EXPECTATIONS!!!!!!!!is it so weird u have finish study math n i have to follow put??it's my choice to make,dun gimme the disbelieve look!!!i'm sick sick sick of it!!!!and yeah,do i always have to be the first to make the first move???yeah,she finally talked to me di,not b4 many attempts to make her talk..at last..for now,peace again..i'm talking in codes,and i assume if that person is not me or dunno me well enough,u'll not know what the heck in the world or who the hell i'm talking about..

ok,i'm now on9 at the cc near my house,having barely 4 hours of sleep,i'm trying hard to stay awake..movies,on9..all these seems so unrealistic (imagine me speaking this being surroundd by the sound of shootings as background cuz at cc again) tmr,have to drive all the way back to the hostel,clean the stinky toilet,pack for home ..great again,have to wake up early..i dread,feeling really lifeless too tired..really have to plan well how to spend my 3 weeks of no nihongo..haha..langkawi is there,so is genting (spontaneously suppoted by mum!!),where else??oh,the utmost important event,send the seniors off..

whatever it is,i'm really taking a good rest these days,refresh myself, emotionally, mentally and physically..if not,i'm doomed for life.and to all the ppl out there..friends are crucial,especially to teenagers like us..though we might have different thoughts at times,one side would have to be a more tolerant one..or else,be like what a friend once told me:"if there are true friends,treasure them;if not,let them be in ur memories and live on"...

~Frustration cum Sadness~ part 2

I’m so frustrated! How can people give such a stupid excuse?

After holding so many birthday parties, I came to realize the selfishness that certain of my group members have. When it comes to their birthday, it’s all about having everyone and having a jolly good time but when it comes to others… it’s none of my business attitude. Have you been to a party where everyone is your ‘friend’ yet some are your enemies? Well, I have! And the best part is, everyone is from my group (give me 5 ‘irony’) why does everyone lives behind an ugly mask? Sigh. Such a life I have to go through, it is no wonder my doctor says I’m under stress! Some takes birthdays as an opportunity to make money. “This world what people also have” (canto). That’s what my dearest mother always says to me. You want an example? Sure, I’ll give it to you… a half kilo cake from a normal cake house… how much could it have cost? Through my experience, it would come up to about RM30 but ‘he’ (generally) collected RM2 from 20 of us. Add another ‘ringgit’ makes it a Whole kilo Secret Recipe cake. I can never forget that incident, plus no one appointed ‘him’ to buy it in the first place. What a rip off!

Yesterday was another classmate’s birthday, Kristine =) such a nice person. I bought a small token for her and asked a few people to chip in. Here’s an answer… “Sorry, I’m really broke”. It really irritates me when I think about it. I was asking for RM3. Is that too much to spend on a friend? What in the world are you eating 4 meals a day plus junk food? Just skip junk food for a day! Is that too much to sacrifice for a friend? And another one, turning up on a birthday party but not paying. What? You think the drinks are ‘longkang water’? This really pisses me off! Another one was up in ‘his’ room even though ‘he’ promised to be there. What were you doing? Studying for finals? Does a day affect your grades that much? Are grades so important that you can live without friends?

Such rage I have right now. Thankfully this year is finishing soon. Then it’s ‘bye bye’ mr/mrs self-centered, selfish, and inconsiderate!

To love without condition, to talk without intention, to give without reason, and to care without expectation....is the heart of a true friend. I think some people should really ponder about this. Love works both ways and we’re all people with feelings. Now, take time… sit back and evaluate yourself. Don’t end up being mention like the people above. Take care and stay happy =)

~Frustration cum Sadness~

a really long and tiring blog i would say so bewarned..well,say something pleasant first.on the 26th of February we had a farewell dinner for our seniors..and thanks to all of our affort,the whole process went suprisingly well,and like wat May Ching said,thank goodness the seniors din break anything(according to one of them,they always do at any function or dinner..weird huh??)well,everthing was well,but i hardly touched more than a mouthful of food(exaggerate di lar,ok lar,a plateful of little of everything)well,was like a maniac,rushinmg here and there making sure things are in order,(why in the world i offered to help on the prizes i wonder??)and the cake is ready etc..by the end of the day,after lots of pic taking and AGAIN!!!wat is wrong with me,my cam was outta batt and i oni managed to take 2 pic b4 it went..sayonara...haiz...so was so tired by the end of the day,i jumped at the chance of going home when my mum offered to pick me up in the middle of the night..haha..no lar,my cousin who is a beautician came from Johor and was,concurrently with my event at Legend,having a diiner at Mandarin Oriental..and my,these guards are really a tiresome at times...can't he see that its a lady who is picking me up,not some lame imposter "brother"who came to pick a sister up..according to him,there's lots of imposters to pick thier friends up..i mean come on lar,open ur eyes and see lar,a forty year old though i might add my mum doesn't look beyond forty..hehe lady come wor???great lar,have to record my name,my mum's IC etc..really mendoeda!!gila..ah well..

WEll,the seniors finally left on Monday..last Friday we had the sotsugio shiki as in the graduation funtion where each and everyone of them had to go upstage,bow(what do u expect,Japanese-style mar),take their respective certs in the upmost formal way(trained to do so..haha) and stuff..and "lucky" me,(shud i put the inverted comma's??hmmmm)i was asked to represent the first year students to read out a speach..*note,READ out a speech..haha..i felt kinda guilty even though after that lots of teachers and friends praised i did a well job..guilty in a sense that,it take a human's life to give me the chance to go upstage..how so?u might ask?cuz it was actually the CLub's secreatary's job to deliver the speech..and when her father went to the hospital,it was already in critical condition..i was asked to take her place cuz following up the position in club,i was third..(not May Ching merr??)well,i practised di,but she came back the next day,the day b4 the actual function..so i thought,wat a waste cuz i know it'll be a great experience to deliver the speech to my seniors,a little token of appreciation b4 they leave for Japan..well,then suddenly,i'm asked to deliver again as she suddenly received a call that her father passed away..i was bewildered and sent my condolences through friends that went to her father's funeral that night itself..so,though i was glad the speech was ermm...to me okly-delivered..i do feel a pang of guilt inside me..well,when i wanted to share my happiness wen all the teachers,mostly anyway,came to praise(??)me for delivering a good speech with composure..(whoaaa) to Min its not i want to brag that i'm good..i'm just overjoyed with all the praising though i know i have a long way to go before really able to speak well..it really dampens my mood that,being my closest friend around,she showed no signs of suppostiveness to my anxiousness before delivering the speech or any sign of happiness or to say the least share my short-lived happiness after the teacher-praised-me talk..well,i was quiet for the rest of the day..to her,wen i told her that,she said,i'm just trying to show that i've done a good job onstage..i was stumped at the moment,stung in fact by her words,and really..quiet down th rest of the day..of course,to say i'm not the least proud that every1 had praised is pure lie but at least share a little and say some encouraging words???sighhhhhhhhh...

the rest is history..her being in her ever switching mood swings which made me,the gal who doesn't like to have strings attached to any sorts of routine(eg:have to go toilet in pairs,wait for each other to fill up the water bottle,go dinner together,decide what to do all the time),avoiding her unconsciously..and i think vice-versa.well,its not that i dun wanna patch the eerie silence that has befall us somehow,its just that (am i using this as excuse??)we are now really busy with our exams and according to Xin,she doesn't want "history to repeat itself"meaning,she doesn't want to stay at postion 4 in PPKTJ...climb as high as u want,i would love to say,but everything has a price to pay,don't u think so??is it worth it to climb so high,and lose some friends on the way???or maybe its just me,being the clumsy Aquarius,(believe it or not)who doesn't know how to twist or turn with words,ever hurting ppl with my straight forwardness or to me,my "self-defence" system??yeah,Ghai Leong told me that i can be really hurtful with my words at time..i know that too,but hey,i'm born that way lar..however much i try to change but in vain..the best solution i've come so far..to keep my thoughts to myself and be quiet as possible..(yeah,and let ppl think i'm a boring person..so???)

well,yesterday was another boring day,returning after exam for a nap oni to be awaken thrice by Jenny,doing her "routine",which in my words,"noise creating"..yeah,so..May Ching was at the library and thus,i'm forced to study..completed Math revision (at last) and then..dinner at 7.45pm is too much!!!though it was delicious,having yee mee prepared by the charcoal fire..it was nice seriously,but have to wait that long!!!i'm famished..so after dinner was lazing around aimlessly and then..hehe,by fate or wat??May Ching came in to fill in her bottle with our so-call "new"water filter,passed down by our seniors..well,one thing leads to another (don't they use this phrase to say wen urmm...someone ends up on bed??hehe..;) )and we at first wanted to go for a stroll ended up having a night game of badminton to make up for the one we missed earlier in the evening..haha..imagine,9.30pm,2 gals,"supposely" to study for thier last exam before becoming 2nd year students,playing badminton during exam week...cool huh??halfway playing,we saw soo sing and she joined us.she's another one of our gal sempais whom we barely had any chance to talk to before,due to outr hectic schedule in PPKTJ where everything is intensive..so she joined us with our games,chatting while playing..(gals,really can't do lots of things at one go..hehe)i was amazed by our stamine too,cuz usually we'll betired out within half an hour but yseterday's game lasted 1hour and 10 minutes..hehe..we chatted lots about Japan and about our lives here..

Seeing the seniors leaving one by one really made me feel heavy inside my heart..so what if i barely talk to them,and mostly on greetings of "hi" "ohayo" or simply a warm smile or head nodding??their presence is really felt,and i felt sad to see them leave..and oni May Ching felt the same among all the gals i've asked..Xinning,saying that she know we can and will meet them agian in Japan so she doesn't really feel anything..Min,though she barely talk to me for the time being,i know she felt so too,but doesn't really want to show..what's wrong to show that u really missed them i wonder??well,of cuz,in front of them,it'll be dead embarrassing...i think..hehe..well,crossing my fingers,hoping that mum can get the tix to Langkawi so that we'll be back on the day the seniors leave itself..then we can see them to their way to Japan without making another trip all the way to KLIA..hehe..all this,my plan..mum,do get it pleaseeeeee...well,May Ching is checking it out now..praying hard..though i doubt we will have anything to do there in KLIA,i just wanna,like Ghai Leong said,feel the atmosphere before it becomes my turn next year..hopefully..and of course,though for a short period of time,getting to know the senior,making friends with them,to me,is a real blessing..thus...i'm trying to be with them or getting memories with them thru pics..but...the fact is they have to leave anyhow..should be a happy occasion ain't it?but the feeling of seperation is so uncomfortable....

ah well,i guess this really sums up wat i wanted to say a long time ago,no chance to on9,even if i do,barely have the time to really sit down and enjoy the silence and really let my thoughts flowing..well,to sum it up..i'm feeling not so well right now,relationship wise as in my ties with Min,but hopefully,every1 will feel better after the hols and exam,again,i'm hoping............

~The Week Before Exam~

as usual..life sux..why does it have to be this way..life is so boring,especially the week b4 exam..lots to study and i have done none!!!!so wat if they finished the whole chem,so wat they are using thier ss time studying while i prefer on9..kill me then!!!arrrghhhh..this would be the shortest blog ever..cuzthere's lots of ppl here!!!